Okay, sorry it took me so long to update, but I had a lack of motivation to write this chapter. Therefore it is not a great as I had hoped. It's more of a filler chapter, if you will. The next chapter will be out way faster, and will be waaaay more intense. So keep posted!

October 27

Edward POV

Summer had quickly disappeared, fall taking it's place. And with the cooler weather outside came a much colder mood in the house.

I love my family, but I'm so excited to leave next year. I need out. I love Bella, with all of my heart, and Carley too, but I can't stay in the house. I still want to marry Bella one day, I just want to live first.

I've been looking at Universities, and I've pretty much decided that I'm going to apply for medicine at Dartmouth. I still have to talk to mom and dad, but this is what I want. Even if it means leaving Carley and Bella for a few years. I'll come back though, and then we can get married.

Bella and I are lying side by side on my bed, just enjoying each others company. Carley was fast asleep, and Bella and I were taking advantage of the time we had together. Since having Carley, Bella's changed. She isn't always after sex anymore, in fact, it hardly ever happens anymore. Now she likes to talk, which is great. I'm glad that she is becoming more of an adult.

I know she had a rough start at school, but she seems more adjusted. She's finally able to bring Carley to daycare. The mood in the house has been tense though. Especially in regards to Alice. I remember growing up, how perfect everything was. I had the best parents, and my siblings were all awesome, Alice was energetic and fun loving, Rosalie was your typical teenage girl, even before she really was a teenager, and my brothers were the people who I could beat up and play video games with, and we used to all go camping, and actually do things together, besides fight.

And then came Bella. She was beautiful, and I knew she was special. Even after I found out she was pregnant, I still loved her. And I know that it's not her fault that our family has fallen apart, but I still can't help but miss how things used to be.

"What are you thinking?" I asked her. Bella was so hard for me to understand. I think I have her all figured out, and then she surprises me.

She rolled over and then sat up. "I'm thinking that I'm hungry." She stood up and walked towards the door. Sometimes I don't get her. I know that there is so much going on in her head that I can never possibly understand it, but sometimes I wish she would let me in a little bit more.

"Are you coming?" She turned and smiled. Her brown hair hung in two loose braids, and she was wearing sweat pants and an old Forks High School hoodie. Her eyes sparkled, and for a moment I saw the little girl that she once was.

I nodded and followed her. I really do love her, but I know that leaving is what I need to do. She needs some time to figure out her life, and I need time to figure out my life.

Halfway to the kitchen Carley started crying, and Bella turned. The little girl I had seen moments ago was replaced with a warn out teenage mother who never got, and never will get, the chance to just live, like I am getting to do.

"I got her." I ran up the stairs into Carley's room. I picked her up and sat with her in the rocking chair. She was getting bigger every day. I loved Carley, and even though she cries a lot, and requires so much attention, I love her because she saved Bella.

Without Carley, life would be so much easier. Mom and Dad would have more time to help Alice. Bella would be free to live. We would be normal. I can't bring my self to resent Carley in any way though, because when it comes down to it, Carley saved Bella's life, even if Bella doesn't see that yet.

Jasper's POV

October 28

I'm good at being invisible. Great, really. At home, at school, in life. At home I'm lowest on the priority list. I do my homework, study hard, and never get into trouble. Same goes at school.

Rosalie on the other hand is the opposite. She makes sure she is never invisible. Peter and I are walking down the hallway on our way to English when we pass Rosalie and some of her fellow cheerleader friends in the hallway. Even though there is only four of them, people move aside to let them pass.

"Dude," Peter turns and looks at Rose, "Your sister is h-"

"Shut up!" I punched his arm and led him into the classroom. Rosalie has made a huge turn around though. She's outgoing, friendly, and has started to go back to her old obnoxious self. A part of her is different though. She is more caring, and she's become like 'bff's' with God. Not that I'm judging, but whatever.

Being a boy in the Cullen family is totally different than being a girl. Edward, Emmett and I talk about it sometimes. Not like stupid, mushy, heart felt talks, just like, y'know, we sometimes bring it up around the x box.

I slid into a desk at the back of the class and pulled out my notebook. I've never been around a baby before Carley, and I don't know if I like it. I like her alright, but I don't like what she did to our family. Seeing Bella all tired and warn out makes me never want to have kids. At least not for a super long time.

I hope that Carley has a damn good childhood, because she stole ours away from us. I don't really blame Carley, though. More so I blame Bella. It sounds mean, but can you blame me? Before Bella came life was pretty close to perfect. And I know that of course Bella can't be blamed for what happened to Rosalie, but she can be blamed for Alice. If Bella wasn't here, mom and dad wouldn't have to put so much energy into her, and Alice wouldn't have gotten into trouble.

I know it's not fair to blame Bella, but I can't help it. I know that Edward loves her and all, and I'm sorry that her life sucked so much, but I sometimes wish that another family had taken her, so that my family could have stayed like it was.

"Mr Hale?" The teacher was calling on me, but I hadn't even heard the question.

"Sorry ma'am, can you, uh, repeat that?" I ducked my head and wished that it was this time last year. Back when life was simple and everyone was happy.

Happiness is relative that way, I guess. Right now Bella is happy, and I bet she wouldn't wish it was last year no matter how much I payed her. I love Bella, and I'm happy that she's happy, but I don't think that the happiness of the rest of the family was fair price to pay.

October 31st

Bella POV

Today was my second halloween. If we're being technical I guess it's my sixteenth, but it's only my second year celebrating it. Last year I was out getting drunk out of my mind. This year I'm trying to put together a costume for the baby I never thought I'd have.

Carley was sitting in the baby swing while I laid her costume out. Of course she's not really old enough to go trick or treating, but I never got to go as a child, so I'm actually really excited to take her. Dani was going to come over with Adeline, and the four of us would go around my block together. No one else could, or more accurately, would come with me.

Alice was at some party getting wasted behind Esme's back, and Rosalie was at a bonfire for the cheerleaders and football players. I had kind of assumed that Edward would come, but he said that it's his senior year, and he really wants to be with his friends. I was kind of surprised, but I guess I can't get mad.

"Are you excited?" I lifted Carley up and smiled at her. She made a little noise back, which I took as a yes. I got her dressed and then put a little bow on her head. "You are the prettiest princess ever." I cooed.

I wonder what I did for my first halloween. Probably nothing. I was probably in some crib, alone. Thinking about how shitty my childhood was makes me want to give Carley the best one possible. She will look back on her life and smile. She will not be regretful, or angry. I won't let it happen.

I heard the doorbell ring, and I grabbed Carley and went down to greet Dani. I gave her an awkward one armed hug.

"Hi Adeline," I smiled at her, "You look so pretty." Dani had dressed her in a red and black lady bug costume and she was wearing a little headband with the antenna.

"Carley too. You did an awesome job with the costume Bells. She looks great."

"Thanks." I couldn't help but feel proud. Maybe I wasn't so bad at this mothering thing. "Ready?"

"Yep." Dani clipped Adeline into the stroller and I did the same with Carley. I said goodbye to Esme and then we headed out. It was early, and the streets were still pretty quiet. We decided to just walk around for a while before we started collecting candy.

Sometimes I feel like Dani is the only person I can talk to, cause she's the only person that really gets it.

"Edward's been really weird lately." I said as Dani and I pushed the strollers down the street.

"What do you mean?" Two princess raced by us, their mothers calling out for them to look out for cars. Would that be Dani and I in a few years?

"I dunno." I shrugged, "It seems like he's distancing him self. Like I did something wrong."

"He's probably thrown off by the baby. He's a seventeen year old guy, I doubt he wants to be tied down by a baby. He's only human, just maybe let him breath. He loves you," She squeezed my shoulder, "I doubt he's going anywhere."

"Yeah, I guess." Come to think of it, all of the boys have been acting weird around me. Jasper pretty much ignores me, and Emmett, who isn't around much anymore, seems almost scared of Carley. I thought Edward was above that, but maybe not.

"Don't stress Bella. A baby is a lot of responsibility, maybe he just wants the chance to be a teenager before he has to be a dad."

"Don't you think I want that too?" My voice was on the edge. "I want to be a teenager too!"

"Bella, calm down."

"This is so frustrating. If he leaves me, I swear..."

"He won't leave you. Just let him have his space. Trust me, he loves you."

I looked down at Carley, sitting in her stroller, innocent to the chaos around her. Did we do this to our family? We messed with their perfect picture, and while Carlisle and Esme sort of have to put up with me, none of the other kids do. I fucked everything up, and I don't blame them for being pissed at me.

"No more boy talk." I shook the negative thoughts out of my head. "Tonight is special, let's enjoy it."

"Thats the spirit!" Dani laughed. "Let's go get that candy!"

We went up to our first house, and the lady looked at us with the dirtiest expression. "Trick or treat." I sad, my voice hidden in my throat. I should have expected this.

She gave up each a few chocolate bars, the whole time not taking her eyes off of the babies.

I rolled my eyes and we walked away. "She thinks we're using them for candy." Dani muttered. "God, this is so annoying."

"Ignore it. We're not using them. We're doing this for them. We're doing this for the memories. Even if they don't remember it, it's their first halloween, and some stranger who doesn't know shit about us is not going to ruin that."

Dani nodded, but I know she's upset. She hates when people judge her. She's a fucking good mother, and she wants people to know. I can shrug off people stares cause I know their all hoes, but she can't. She takes it personally.

"Let's do like a few more houses, then just go to Wal Mart, buy a big box of chocolate, and go back to my house for a movie or something." I suggested. I knew tonight was kind of a bust.

"Okay." We did five more houses and then headed to the strip mall.

This definitely wasn't the exciting night I had planned, but I still managed to put on a smile. It doesn't matter if I'm having fun or not, as long as Carley is.

Later that night, once Dani was gone and the house was quiet I decorated my room in orange and black streamers, brought the carved pumpkin from outside into my room, and then woke Carley up. I dressed her in her costume and me in mine.

"We're going to have our own party." I placed a Wiggles Halloween into the DVD player and then placed Carley in her swing. While we watched I told her about trick or treating, and how much fun it will be once she's older, and how no matter what anyone else says, I love her.

"Happy Halloween baby girl."

Happiness is a tricky thing. I'm happier now then I've ever been, but I know that's not true for the rest of the family. Things are falling apart. Jasper hates me. Emmett would rather be out with friends than at home, and Edward is drifting away. Yet I can't let my smile fade, even for a second, because Carley's happiness depends on mine.

I guess happiness is relative that way.

So there's some insight into the guys. More to come. The next chapter will be really intense, with lots going on. But please review guys! If I don't get reviews then I have no motivation to write. So yeah. Reviews are much appreciated.

-Alice-