A/N:
This might be the last one for a bit, and I'm really sorry about that. I'm going away to work, so am not sure how much fanfic time I'm going to be getting :(
Fret not! However! Because I will be keeping notebooks and making sure I have lots and lots to give you guys when I get back.
This one is for jezzeria and everyone over at Wide Awake Rehab (.). I suggest to all that have been introduced and irrevocably changed by the story "Wide Awake" by Angst Goddess to join the site, to all those who haven't heard of this story... go and read it now!
SM owns all, I just tag along.
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Chapter Eight
Bella POV
I wasn't fucking looking forward to school this morning. I owed it to Charlie to go, but that didn't mean I had to like it.
There was only one way I could think to make my life a little easier. I may have used him before, he may think I was using him again, but today I needed some Jacob love. And I swore to myself that I wasn't going to overstep the freaking mark.
My truck chugged into the Black's front yard. Someone would have heard my arrival, in a truck that used to belong to the family. But I so wasn't planning on waiting around. The only bastard you can ever rely on is yourself, and I'd known that for a long time.
I ran to the front door, gave three short sharp taps and promised Jake in my mind that if he didn't come and see me soon I would just charge right on into his fucking house.
Luckily, I needn't have thought of a backup plan. I heard Billy's chair squeak as he wheeled himself forward and pulled open the door.
"Morning Billy, how's shit?" I grinned as I stepped over the threshold.
"S'all good, Bella. Nice to see you back. Jake's just upstairs."
"Thanks..." I waved and headed up the small wooden staircase.
"Just to warn you, he's got a friend with him."
"And you don't think I can be fucking nice?" I laughed. "No worries, Billy. I won't scare the kid off. I'll play good Bella."
I ran up the stairs, two at a time, and knocked on Jake's bedroom door. Without waiting for him to answer, I threw it open and jumped up onto his bed.
"Morning, bitch. I hear you've been having yourself a gay little sleepover. Why doesn't my best friend introduce me to this new prick. Are you afraid he's too hot and I'll steal him?"
I continued jumping as I closed my eyes and yelled into the air.
Suddenly, someone launched themselves at me. I landed hard back onto the bed, opened my eyes and grinned up at Jake. I ruffled his hair before he could pin down my hands and laughed as he squealed.
"I knew you couldn't stay away, Bells."
"Of course, Jake. You're my dick forever. Remember?"
We both laughed out loud, until we heard a small cough from the corner of Jake's box sized bedroom.
"Aren't you going to introduce me, you mean bastard?"
"Sure sure," Jake sat up and leaned back on his knees. "Bells, this is my best friend. Edward. Edward, this is my best friend Bella."
I looked away from Jake's smiling face to see Edward, my Edward, cousin to the dickhead Newton, standing with his mouth agape against the wardrobe near the window. The very same wardrobe my underwear had been thrown onto not even a week ago. Fuck.
"Bella and I have met before, Jacob."
"Oh," he looked confused. "Well, then there's no awkwardness. Right?"
"Sure, Jake. No awkwardness." I smiled at Edward. "So, how do you two fucks know each other?"
"Our moms were friends way back in high school. We've known each other forever." Edward smiled and perched on the edge of the bed.
"I've been trying to get rid of him for years!"
Jake grinned and launched himself at Edward, pulling him into a pile in the center of the bed. Only a few feet from me.
"How do you know Jacob, Bella?"
"My dad and Billy met at the end of high school. This girl my dad was seeing cheated on him with Billy..."
"Renee!" Jake screamed and laughed. "What a bitch."
"I know." I chuckled. "Anyway, they both found something to laugh about when Renee got caught with the sons of the headmasters of both the Rez and Forks High. At the same fucking time. God, she got kicked out of school for that. And wasn't allowed into the Reservation high. Freaking hilarious. Billy and Charlie have been friends ever since. Me and Jake were brought up together too."
Edward laughed as he looked up at me, his face squished under Jake's huge arm. God, how badly I just wanted to lean down and kiss his bastard face like there was no fucking tomorrow.
"So, Bells, not that I'm not glad you're here but... why are you here?" Jake was so confused he let Edward slip out from his grasp.
"Well, I wasn't much looking forward to school today. I was hoping for some moral support. Superman wasn't available, so you were my only option." I grinned.
"I heard about all that shit yesterday. Fuck, Bells, you are one tough cookie."
"Thanks, Jake, but I'd rather not relive the crap that was my day."
"But you kicked ass! The Bells I know would want to brag about that shit!" He grinned at Edward. "Her half sister stabbed her right through the hand with a pen, and Bells just went all psycho on her ass and slapped her in the middle of biology. She then stormed out and didn't even bother coming back to school."
"Now the dicks at the Rez are going to expect a show like that every fucking day." I tried to brush off Jake's words, but Edward wasn't going to let this one go. Not like last night.
"So you have a sister?"
"Half sister..."
"And she has a half brother too!" Jake chimed in. Perfect timing as per freaking usual.
"Yeah, its all boring crap. No worries. I'll fill you in another time." I desperately wanted to close this conversation, and fast.
"As for moral support," Jake seemed to be catching on. "You will have two body guards today. Edward's transferring over from Forks high."
"Really?" I turned to look at him, unable to contain the shit-eating grin that spread like wildfire onto my face.
"When Jake says transferring, he means I'm coming to sit in on some classes for the day and see if the Rez is any better than Forks High. Technically I'm not supposed to be there, but who cares. Right?"
He smiled his orgasmic smile at me. Edward must have known what fucking effect he always had, he had to have learned by now how powerful that bastard thing was. And yet he was doing it again... right in front of Jake.
"Bells will have to show you round for the day. Your in her year anyways."
"Not that I'll be doing much showing, I'm pretty new there myself you stupid prick!" I laughed at Jake's forgetfulness.
"Oh, yeah, right." He laughed.
"Should we get going then?" Edward stood up and leaned back against the small window.
"Sure sure," Jake grinned. "I'll ride with Bella and you can follow us in. So you don't get lost!" He laughed. "Edward's always had a talent for getting lost."
"That was only... three times..." Edward blushed. Fucking adorable insecurities.
"It's alright," I grinned at him. "I'll keep you safe."
I winked when I was sure Jacob wasn't looking, causing Edward's gorgeous face to turn an even deeper shade of red. I tried to resist the images in my head, of me pushing Jake out of his room to ravage Edward right on the bed I was sitting on, but it was damn hard.
"Right!" Jake jumped up and opened his bedroom door wide. "Let's get going then!"
Jake led Edward out of his room, closely followed by me. As we made I way down the stairs, I couldn't control myself. I leaned forward and smacked one of Edward's delicious ass cheeks. Lingering for a while, admiring the softness, and finishing off with a small pinch. I heard a strangled chuckled and smiled, he fucking liked it. Brilliant.
I was forced to endure Jake's random and incessant babbling all the way to school, while all the time freaking wishing I was with Edward. Wondering what he was doing, how he was feeling, what he was thinking... just a little bit of the pissing girl inside of me hoping that he was thinking about me. At least some of the time anyway.
As we pulled into the parking lot, the red bricks screaming unwanted memories into my ears, I was inundated with stares from every bastard that passed my truck. None of them even fucking knew me to judge me, but I guess history goes a long way with pricks in a small town. They were always going to be more on Leah's side than my own.
Edward pulled up right next to me, and filled me with more relief than I'd ever thought I'd freaking needed. His mere presence blocked out all the shit that was being thrown at me from all directions, in forms of whispers and stares.
Through the first two lessons of the day, everything was fine. I wouldn't go so far as to say I was enjoying school, but at least it was a fuckload more bearable than it had been before.
Every person I passed seemed to know about the incident with Leah, and loved speaking loudly about how much of a bitch I was just so I would hear. Edward's presence with me only caused more confusion. Girls were attracted, guys were threatened, all reactions amusing me to my bloody core.
Though, with Edward's hand entwined with mine, the rest of the world didn't seem to exist any more. What the hell was this bastard doing to me? I never wanted to fucking let go of him.
That was, until we got to Biology. I stormed past the dick teacher to the back of the class and hoped to God that Edward was following. By-passing Leah completely, I made my way to the only available desk, almost far enough back that I couldn't even make out the features of the boring fucker taking the lesson.
Amazingly, I survived the hour torture that was Biology. I must have had a guardian freaking angel on my shoulder, probably in the form of Edward. My actions from yesterday weren't even questioned. And Leah ignored me completely. All in all, the lesson was a success.
I glared at Leah on my way out of the classroom, after being dismissed early by a teacher that seemed barely able to fucking do that right, and stalked out to my truck. Edward continued to follow. I was starting to think he might be a keeper... until he said something so bleeding ridiculous that the shit hit the fan.
"You know, you kind of look like your sister."
"What the fuck did you just say?" I felt as if he'd just spat in my fucking face.
"You share the same eyes, is all. Did you get them from your mother?"
I glared at him, the bastard too stupid to know he had just immersed himself in a pile of crap that there was no way he would be able to dig himself out.
"You have the same mother... don't you?" He didn't know when to quit.
"Shut. The. Fuck. Up."
"What?" Edward's eyes grew wide as he realised how angry I was.
"Shut the fuck up and stop talking about my fucking mother. That bitch is an egg donor, end of. She means absolutely fucking nothing to me."
"Oh..." a crease appeared on his forehead. "I'm really sorry, Bella. I didn't mean to..."
"Just. Stop. Talking. Now."
"Right."
"Do you want to ditch this shit hole for lunch? Your treat?" I forced a smile as I attempted to change the conversation. I didn't like the direction the old one was headed.
"My treat?" He laughed. "Only if I get to learn a little something about the mystery that is Bella Swan. I spent the whole of last night talking about myself. I went home feeling like a douche. It's totally your turn today."
"Hmm..." I narrowed my eyes. "As long as I get to change the subject if you start chatting uncomfortable shit."
"Deal." He laughed. "So, my car or yours?" He winked. Smooth.
"Yours," I raised an eyebrow. "Always yours, baby."
He laughed as he took my hand and led me to his silver steed. I grinned at him as he held the door open for me, he was seeming less bloody real by the second. I was beginning to wonder if I was in a coma and had made up everything. Sue being my mom, moving to Forks, Edward.
Then, I realised; I would so prefer to be living in a craptastic dystopia with Edward, rather than in a paradise without ever having met him. Fuck. What a revelation.
We were pulling out of the school parking lot when someone dove in front of Edward's car. As they stood up from the floor and grinned, I cursed Jacob Black with all the profanities I had in me. Why, why, did he always have to show up at the wrong damn moments? Inconvenient dick.
"Aw, were you two gonna ditch without even telling me?"
Edward had rolled down his window to speak to the interfering bastard. I wish he had, instead, opted to fucking run him the hell over.
"Yeah, wank for brains, that was the general idea." I shouted as I gave him the finger.
He ignored me and slid into the backseat, laying his legs up and across the neat black leather interior. I was sure there was going to be scratches when he got out, and Jake would never freaking pay for the damage.
"Where we off then? Bella's not taking you to some deserted location to rob you of your innocence, is she Edward?" He laughed.
"Fuck off, Jake." I growled as I swiveled in my chair.
"She does this with all my friends. Steals them away from me and them fucks them senseless. Quil, Embry, Sam... she is so hard to keep on a short leash!" Jake laughed, crudely as I blushed.
"We were just going to get some lunch Jake..." Edward was trying to be the voice of reason, but Jake was in his own little world. Spouting a monologue no one, especially the furiously blushing me, wanted to fucking hear.
"I thought for a long time she would never get around to sharing that shit with me. But you proved me wrong Bells. Thank God for that. You made my whole fucking year last week!"
Jake's voice was too loud to drown out. I knew Edward had heard every freaking thing. Bollocks! There was no getting out of this bastard mess.
I turned to look at Edward, but his eyes were averted from me. Instead, they were focused hard onto the black top in front of his wheels as his knuckles were turned white from the force his was using to grab the pissing steering wheel.
"I'm not so hungry anymore. Maybe we should all just get out." Edward killed the engine, but still didn't look me in the eyes. Shit.
"Edward, I..."
"Let's just get out." He interrupted with a sternness I never thought I would have heard in his voice.
"Sure sure, I see some of the guys over there anyway." Jake bailed out of the car, unaware of the fucking crap he had just thrown me into. "Hey, guys!" I heard him yell as he ran away. If he weren't so damn ignorant, I would have called him a coward.
"Edward, I..."
"Did you?" He interrupted once more.
"What?"
"You know what. Did you..." he took a deep breath. "Did you sleep with Jacob?"
I knew I couldn't lie. I didn't want to. All I wanted was for this whole thing with Edward to be new and exciting and right. I had lied before, and it had all blown up in my fucking face. It wasn't worth it with Edward. There was too much at stake.
"Yes." I whispered as my eyes involuntarily dropped to my lap.
"I think you'd better get out of my car right now, Bella."
"But..."
"Now, Bella."
His voice was even tighter now. Strained with the effort of keeping himself contained. As if he knew, if his restraints dropped, there wouldn't be a good outcome.
At that moment, I could see some of myself in him. Though I had a lot less boundaries that I kept on myself. It was like, I was the open version of what Edward secretly was. I couldn't blame his reaction, I knew mine would have been exactly the same.
"Oh, okay." I could feel the tears begin to form in the corners of my eyes. "Will I hear from you later? Please... say I will..."
"I don't know, Bella."
Edward whispered as he closed the window, no longer able to hear my pleas. The silent urgency in my eyes as I begged him not to leave me like this.
I couldn't even find it in me to swear as I meekly slid out of Edward's car and watched him quickly start the engine and gun it out of the parking lot. Leaving nothing behind him but my broken guilty heart and some marks on the black top.