My entire Fault
I had no warning I did not have a clue
It felt like the ground under me just fell away
I may put on an act that I feel fine
But it's only because I do not want anyone to know how I really feel inside
Life is now something that should never have existed
It should have crumbled up and left years ago
I think maybe had I not been the way I am this would not have happened
I knew better than to do all that I did
It was stupid, foolish and downright childish
Given the choice, I would go back and change it all
Except I do know that it would not make a difference
Life would still be a hell in which I walk
I would still want to sleep and never wake up
I would always be going over what happened in my head just to cry a few minutes later
The one thing that makes all this horrible, was that all this was the cause of one sole person
One person I believed would never be able to do a thing like this
The one person that knows exactly how to make me hurt
This person always has, and always will be the one thing I remember
I must remember, because forgetting, is forgetting myself