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Chapter 5

BPOV.

I sat for a moment and thought. The letters? What the…Ugh, the whole thing was fucked up. Did I really believe him? I mean, was it possible that Edward was innocent? And all these years of hating him for breaking my heart were all …well, useless feelings? You could never hate Edward, no matter how much you say you do, said the voice in my head that had been taunting me for years. When he had shown me 'my' letter, I was baffled. I sure as hell did not write that letter! But who would? And who the fuck would I want to run away? Eric? Yeah, okay… Dudes a nutjob. Jessica? Yeah, girl couldn't even write her own name, let alone a fucking letter. Ugh, I hated them all. Hated all the bastards who hated mine and Edwards's relationship – it wasn't many but still, I hated them for it. I actually managed to let out a laugh for what felt like the first time in days, I remembered the time Stanley threw herself at Edward. She was drunk, had powder round her nose and had pissed her pants. We were at one of Emmett's ragers, and needless to say Jessica had gotten a little out of hand…

I was on my way to work; I knew people considered me a down in the dumps, sad geek because apparently reading books was weird at this university. And my fellow classmates would often walk into the shop to pick up a rental and catch me reading. Most would ignore me but there was the odd one that would snarl and pull a face. It's true what they say, well for some losers anyway. High school never ends. When I pulled the door open, Jacob was already unpacking boxes. We were the only teens on campus that seemed to work in this shop.

"Hey Jake." I waved, smiling a little. I was trying to worm the smiles back into my life after the day I had yesterday. He nodded his head back and went back to stacking. I rolled my eyes, Jacob Black wasn't a man of many words and usually when he did talk, at least to me, it was too see if Rose was ready to sleep with him yet. She always said no and he was always begging. I headed towards the cash register and sat down on the uncomfortable, wooden stool. I was on cash duty today and it was boring. Not that stacking was any more fun, but the shop was pretty dead today, it was a Thursday after all. The night for binge drinking for all the students. And the night for Jacob and Mike to no doubt throw another of their glorious parties. I've never been to one but I've heard all about it. Drugs, booze and shit music. God, I wish I had the balls to go. Erm…not. Rose never went either. When she went to parties she liked to drink, and usually when she had had a few too many, she'll sleep with anything with a dick. Precisely why she refused to party with Jacob.

Mr. I'll screw you and then throw you away like your trash.

I tapped my finger on the counter top; days like these were always boring. The only good thing about working in this kind of store, besides having unlimited books around you, was you were able to choose movie of the day, stick it on and watch it ten times in a row. Especially when you're bored shitless. A blonde bombshell headed into the store an hour later after I had arrived, she picked up a number of CDs and DVD's but forgot about all of them when Jacob gave her the look. She got his number and that was the end of her. A few frat boys came in just under an hour later, after one of them giving me the eye for the whole ten minutes they were there, they managed to purchase a DVD and still make it out alive. I only had an hour left of my shift, I was working a small one today, and I was already packing up. The shop was dead and I was hoping my boss would be all right if I went earlier. Fingers crossed. Just as I was set to go and ask him if I could leave, who of course walked in?

My former best friend, Alice Cullen. She looked sheepish and blushed when I made eye contact with her, my eyes going hard and glaring at her. She had clasped her hands together, she had called me a liar. Bitch.

A part of me told me that I should forgive and forget. But doing that, didn't that mean I had to forgive and forget what Edward may or may not have put me through all these years? Wouldn't it make me hypocritical for forgiving one but not the other. No, Alice didn't write you a letter…And apparently neither did Edward… My heart panged, I was so confused by all this and I just wanted it all to be sorted. I was fed up with what my life had become. A boring, university student doing her homework, rarely going out at night and stuck in BORING clothes. I was so glad for Rose coming around, I would have to reschedule what we had planned and see if I could talk her into going for a massive shopping spree, I had a lot of cash saved up from Christmas, my birthday and my wages. I'm talking major cash, it's about time I spent it. And why not on a new look?

"Hi." Her voice was quiet. Just like yesterday when she realised she was wrong. It was unusual for Alice to be quiet; I felt a pit in my stomach swirling around. Alice, quiet…it was just wrong. I nodded, not trusting my own voice to speak. I was mad, sure but that doesn't mean I want another screaming match. If anything, I wanted my best friend back again. "Can we talk Bella? I want to apologise for all those awful things I said to you yesterday." Yeah and I would like to hear you apologise…I inwardly shook my head sighed. Screw talking. I headed over to Alice and hugged her. She seemed shocked at first and all rigid but as soon as she grasped that I wasn't going to hit her, she relaxed and hugged me back. It was a tender moment and I was sure it would have lasted longer if Jacob hadn't of moaned. The fuck…? I pulled away hastily and looked at him, confused and disgust.

"Aw, Bella man. Why'd you have to pull away? You were just causing a stir…" He winked and looked at his crotch, his trousers were slightly tented. I groaned and chucked an empty DVD case at him.

"Get outta here, Jacob. You perv!" Half joking-half actually meaning it. Once he had left the room, I turned to look at Alice. She was grinning and back to her usual self, I could tell. She was always so bubbly. I could never understand it. Even in the mornings…

"So, what can I do to make it up to you?" The bubble-queen herself asked. I raised my eyebrow at her whilst sticking offer stickers on some DVD cases.

"You don't need too. If anything, I do. I was horrible to you Ali. And for that I'm sorry." I replied, sincerely. Meaning every word of it. She shrugged.

"We could go shopping, I can buy you something! Please let me buy you something, Bella!" I was just about to protest, yeah I wanted to go shopping but I didn't need my friends buying guilt presents. I was just about to respond when Rosalie walked through the door. She gave her icy glare to Jacob who eyed her ass when she entered the shop and turned to smile at me, I smiled back and Alice jumped up and down.

"Ali, hey. "Rose said, obviously a little shocked at seeing her here and not seeing us rolling around on the floor, pulling each others hair out. She grinned back, obviously glad that we had 'buried the hatchet between us'. "I know I'm early, but I figured its a Thursday. So, you ready to go?" I nodded and was just about to go talk to my boss to see if I was able to leave early, when I remembered I wanted to change our plans.

"Oh, actually Rose. Do you think we could do something else?" She looked at me, confused but waited for me to carry on. "Its just that…" With the arrival of Edward…I didn't say this out loud, what with Alice standing there but Rose seemed to gather what I meant. "My clothes are just so boring and ugly. I mean, I hate to think what I would be wearing if I hadn't left Forks." I stopped myself, Alice was right there. She was okay with me mentioning Forks right? "Its just…my clothes, my face even my hair…"

"You want a complete makeover?" Rose finished and I grinned.

"Oh my gosh, yes. I mean, I don't know what I want to do with my hair yet but I do want a complete new look and clothes. Bring on the new clothes!" I laughed and she giggled. Rose seemed to understand me completely.

"Okay, we'll go major shopping. On one condition." Oh no… "We buy you skirts, vest tops that actually show you have breasts and dresses! Short dresses." She raised her eyebrow as I opened my mouth to protest. Short…dresses?

"…But my legs!?" She shook her head and I knew there was no way out of this. "Fine. I got my money right here." I opened up my purse which was stuffed into my pocket, it revealed a wad of cash and I was actually excited to go shopping. And then remembered Alice, sitting there waiting patiently. I looked at Rose, who too looked at Alice. She nodded as she read my thoughts. One more person bossing me about wouldn't be too bad would it? I was wrong. Oh shit. What had I let myself in for?

"Really? You want me there!? OMG!! This is going to be so cool!" Alice said after I told her, she was jumping up and down, clapping her hands, quite excitedly. Jacob was watching the show. I glared at him.

"So…guys. What are you doing tonight?" He arched an eyebrow at Rose and she turned in disgust, I bit back a giggle. There was no way Rose would ever get with Dogboy.

"Nothing with you." Rose fought back, nastily. She really hated Jacob Black.

"Actually, Jacob we're on our way out so have fun here alone." I smirked; he really hated being in the shop on his own. He groaned and stalked away to continue unloading boxes and pricing DVDs. After I had talked to my boss, we headed out but not before Jacob called us back to invite us to another party. Yeah, like we would be going to that.

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"Oh this. And this. Oh and this one to. Oh my gosh Bella you got to try this one on." I was having tops and vests thrown at me like there was no tomorrow. We hadn't even got to the dresses or the skirt section yet. God help me. I had only bought a couple of tops and managed to worm a pair of jeans in there, but I was told they were to be my only pair from now on. I didn't even bother to argue; there was no point when Rose and Ai teamed up together. We decided to just look into two shops first as they were on the way to the salon and then I would get my new look before shopping. I was pretty sure I was going to be half dead if not full, by the end of today. I ended up buying four more t-shirts, that all happened to be low cut. Lucky for me, not that it was really much of a problem, but still there was a massive sale happening in all of the stores. I didn't want to spend all of my money on clothes. I wasn't Rose at the end of the day.

We headed to the hair salon afterwards, I was afraid of how much this one would cost, Rose liked things expensive and this place happened to be her favourite. I wasn't even sure what I wanted to change, I just wanted to get rid of my boring locks, I didn't want to dye my hair or even get highlights but something different would be nice. If I could do something about my skin as well, it was abnormally pale and that bugged me. By the time I got there, Rosalie and Alice had decided what they wanted me to change, I didn't know so I just let them go with it. They decided that I just keep my hair length the same and the colour, if not just a little darker and to just add some tendrils into it. Curl it, subtly. I liked that idea.

Once my hair was done, I had my eyebrows plucked, not that I needed much of because I made sure I kept up to date with that, I had my nails painted into a classic French manicure, I made sure not to have them to long as I wasn't the most stable person, I fell over a lot. Alice mentioned that I wanted to sort out some make up too and we chose the natural look. Once we were finished I had a look at their cosmetic range, I ended up buying several mascaras, eyeliners, eye shadows and lip-glosses. I also bought their own shampoo and was ready to purchase one of their curling irons, since I loved the effect it had on my hair.

When I saw the bill I almost died. I was sure if Alice hadn't been holding me up right I would have keeled over. Oh my fucking god…! £350! Thank god, I had so much more money on me then that. Just as I went to get my cash, Rose flipped out her card. I was just about to protest, when she looked at me and winked.

"Don't worry Bella. Its on my daddy." She giggled and I couldn't help but giggle too. Rose was a golden child with everything. I muttered my thank yous and pulled her into a heart-warming hug. She hugged me back and Alice decided to make it a three-way. I pulled away, grinning at them hugely, immensely pleased with my new look.

"Alright. Now lets go make me look like my own version of a Barbie!" I half yelled and we raced to the next shop.

Rose came out with several short summer dresses, and I had to say they were gorgeous, well except for the pink one. That could go straight back onto the shelf. I may be playing Bella Barbie but that didn't mean I was being pink obsessive, I still hated that colour. Most of the clothes I already purchased were green and blue, earth colours with the odd purple thrown in there. It seemed red suited me as well as Alice pulled out this gorgeous Red dress that finished just above my knees, it was thin strapped at the top and then puffed out towards the bottom. I was so in love with it, I didn't even bother checking out the price tags. In fact half way through the bombardment of my clothing obsession, I stopped checking them. You only shop like this once in a lifetime, well I did anyway. And I deserved this, I deserved a new look. I wasn't ugly, I never thought I was drop dead gorgeous but that didn't mean I had to hide under jeans and tops that hid my curves.

I picked up another pair of jeans, they were low cut and I had a sudden feeling, something that I had never thought to do at all, ever in my life. I had never turned my nose down at them or anything just never thought it for myself. I wanted a tattoo.

"Oh my gosh, guys. Come over here!" Rose and Alice were next to me in two seconds flat. They saw the jeans I was holding and chucked them out of my hands, giving my look. I chuckled. "Erm…thanks?"

"You know what we said…Bella!" Rose laughed as did Alice.

"Yeah, yeah. I just got the best idea ever!" I giggled, so excited with what I wanted to do now. They looked at me waiting. "I want to get a tattoo!" Rose gasped and Alice squealed.

"That's awesome, Bella. When do you want to get one?"

"Today!" I screamed, still laughing. I looked at Rose, she was okay with this right? "Rose?" She pulled out of her trance and smiled.

"I think that's awesome Bella. I just never thought you would want one." I shrugged, I was afraid of needles, it was true but this was something I wanted to do.

"Okay, I say lets finish up here, go into one more store – I have the perfect one. And then get Bella's tattoo!" Alice said. We nodded and my hands were suddenly engulfed with a number of short skirts and tank tops. Not to mention, Alice and Rosalie's arms were filled with high heels. Guess, I could kiss my converse goodbye.

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"Wh-what are we doing here?!" I gasped. No way, was I going into this store. I didn't need to go in here, I was…single. Why would I need too? Rosalie looked at me and sighed.

"Bella, you wear cotton panties and plain white bras. Trust me, you need this shop."

"But I…"

"Bella." And that was all Rose needed to say as she dragged me into Victoria's Secret. I had to admit the lingerie was very beautiful, some of it kept well away from but still I was kind of bored of my underwear. It fit and was comfortable but it was…plain. I didn't need half the stuff Rose was holding up. I knew what she wore underneath her clothes and I did not feel the need to follow her in that aspect.

"Don't even think I am wearing that Rose." I stamped my foot and crossed my arms to show her there was no way getting round this. She rolled her eyes and I heard Alice giggle behind me.

"You need this kind of underwear, Bella. You're practically a virgin again. You haven't shagged anyone in three years." I blushed and heard Alice tense behind me. The awkward silence/moment from the shop had returned. I tried to laugh it off.

"Heh…yeah well sex isn't all its cracked up to be you know…" I quickly headed to a different section; I didn't want to talk about my sex life with Alice. I mean, it was her brother that took my V card. Ha, yeah sex isn't all its cracked up to be…not that I have anyone to compare Edward too but oh my gosh…the guy knew how to make me scream. Yes, I'm a screamer.

Okay, so I haven't had sex in three years, but I come close. I was literally just in my underwear with my sort of boyfriend Tyler when I got a sudden flashback of Edward and well couldn't go through with it. But we did all the foreplay and that was good. Alice made her way over to me and was silent. I smiled at her to show I wasn't fazed by the topic, although I kind of was.

"So…" She began. I chuckled, slightly.

"So." She held up a lacy blue set.

"I think you should get this one." I smiled and took it. I already had the same set in three other different colours along with some pyjamas and some sexy nighties Rose had called them. There was nothing to them! And they were practically see through. I managed to buy some bunny slippers, which were just too cute to give up.

After I had finished my huge shopping spree, I managed to have a few hundred left over. Despite being total pummelled with millions of bags, not just on my arms but on Rose and Alice's too. They had actually managed to come out and not buy anything for themselves; I was the total centre of attention. I was ready to go get my tattoo now.

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I made my way out of class, I was so tired and glad for the end of the day. I had just finished my full week at Forks high school. I had just moved from my mother's. We were fighting a lot and my father thought it would be a good idea for me to come spend some time with him for a while. I was thirteen years old and despite Forks not being a very big place, I still felt overwhelmed by all the people here. There were some nice people, that was sure but there were some bitchy and dumb people. They didn't seem to have the time of day for me. Which was fine by me.

The only good think about moving to Forks was getting the chance to spend some more time with Rosalie. She had been my best friend since I was four years old, when I had made my first visit to Forks. I very rarely visited Forks but we made sure to keep in contact as much as possible, racking up my mothers phone bill usually worked. Her brother Jasper was nice to me too, I spent most of my time hanging out with them two, they made me laugh and made me feel welcome. I was aware of the young girl, Rosalie became friends with. I had heard a lot about her over the phone from Rose. Her name was Alice, and I was glad she was as nice as Rose had mentioned. We became friends almost immediately.

I stuffed the books in my locker that I would no longer need, as it was time to go home. I was cooking again tonight so I reminded myself to stop by the grocery store. As I walked out of the high school, I was one of the last ones as always, it began raining. I patted my head as a weak attempt to keep it dry, when I realised. My ribbon was gone! My ribbon was red and it was my mothers. It was something she wore when she was my age, I loved it. I tied it in my hair, so the little bow would be peeping out. I had lost it! I felt a tear streak down my face; my mother was going to be so angry with me. I had promised my mother that I would keep it safe and now I was going to be in so much trouble. It was like a memoir to my mother.

I carried on my way to the grocery store, I decided on a chicken casserole for dinner tonight as I began picking up the ingredients for the meal. My father liked his meat and his fish. I tried to alternate, I loved to cook but it seemed my dad always knew when I was planning on making salad for dinner or something healthy, he would arrange for us to eat at the diner. It always baffled me but somehow it managed to make me smile too. There was a tap on my shoulder.

"Excuse me." I turned around, confused. Hardly anybody knew me around here, why would someone be talking to me. The young boy standing in front of me, was beautiful. He was outstanding; I couldn't mutter any words just stare at him. I recognized him from school. He was often talking to Alice, so I presumed he was her boyfriend. He smiled and his white teeth seemed to hypnotize me for a moment or two. I nodded my head, still confused at what he was doing talking to me. He pointed to one of the ready made meals I was standing in front of. I blushed, so that was why he was talking to me. I sighed, I was such a moron sometimes.

"Thank you." He said as I moved out of the way for him. I expected him to leave after that but he stayed, still smiling at me, I managed a small smile back. This only seemed to widen his grin. "I'm Edward." Even his voice was mesmerising!

"I know. Your erm…Alice's boyfriend right?" Stupid, stupid Bella! You never let a guy know you know all about him! And his girlfriend!

"Yeah…erm what?" He was silent for a moment. What did I say? He burst out laughing at me and I actually jumped from the outburst of his voice. He was laughing at me. "You think Alice is my girlfriend?!" She was right…? Sure, she never mentioned him and never kissed him or even hugged him but still, she was always talking to him. "Alice is my sister!" Whaaaat? "I'm single." He added and I felt my stomach to a whirl. Single?!

"Oh." Was all I said. What else could I say? He was beautiful and way out of my league.

"Can I confess something to you?" I nodded. "I actually followed you in here. I saw you walk out of your class and your ribbon wasn't in your hair." I touched my hair again, afraid I may start crying. I loved that ribbon, it seemed silly, I know but still…it meant something to me. He held up the ribbon in his hands. He had found it! "I wanted to return this to you." I gasped and without thinking I hugged him and kissed him on the cheek. It was the first time I had ever kissed a boy, I was shocked at myself but he grinned.

"Thank you." I breathed, taking the ribbon from him. He seemed disappointed at this.

"I like that ribbon too. It makes you look even more beautiful then you already are." Did he really just say that to me? I blushed but managed a smile. He seemed he was blushing too, his usual pale cheeks were now a crimson colour and the tip of his ears were pink. My smile became broader. I didn't even plan what I did next.

"Well, you like the ribbon so much?" It was a rhetorical question but still he nodded. I grasped his hand and held it open, placing my ribbon in his hand. "You keep it for me." I smiled and headed towards the counter.

"Thank you." He said quietly but I managed to hear him and turned around grinning, finding him smiling too.

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"You who…Bella." A hand waved in front of me as Rosalie groaned. Alice nudged me.

"Bella, it was your idea to come here. What kind of tattoo do you want?" She asked. I smiled, the same grin I had five years ago when I first met Edward.

"I want a ribbon. A red one." I wondered if Edward still had my ribbon.

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