CHAPTER TWO

A/N: You might have realized I'm a really slow updater so bear with me okay

And the title of this story is taken from the song Playground Love by Air on The Virgin Suicides Soundtrack which I thought was well suited for this story although I'm not quite sure why.

"Jack, let's go somewhere to talk," Kate asked in a tone that implied that Jack had no choice, all the words spilling out of her mouth. Out of the corner of her eye, she could see Shannon greeting Sayid with an ecstatic hello and a stream of words coming from her mouth.

"Of course Kate, you don't even have to ask," he looked at her with adoring eyes and with a nod and a smile to Sawyer and Sayid, he followed her to a concealed area of trees near their tent.

She mentally prepared herself, oh god how could she tell him that she was pregnant with Sawyer's child. How could she hurt him like this? All the secrets she had told him and the things he had confided in her. He gave her his unwavering trust and now she had to do the same in return.

She had told him what she had done to her stepfather and how her mother had turned her in but in her heart, she had known that that wouldn't change the way he looked at her or the way he unconsciously smiled when she was around.

Kate thought this would change that as well as the fact that it was Sawyer's child. Sawyer, the man that Jack had fought with for her attention and who was just fifty feet away verbally challenging Ana Lucia. The sounds of the camp that had become an integral part in their lives soothed Kate and gave her the courage to finally get the words out of her mouth.

Kate took a deep breath smiled a shaky smile and look at him, Jack Shephard, the man she loved. Even if Jack left her over this, she knew she would have given him something that she had given no one else – the truth.

Even if he couldn't forgive her and he left her, she still would know that she had gone against all her former instincts telling her to lie and run away. She was doing this because of him, because she cared about him more than Tom and Kevin put together, because of the way she acted around him, she was a better Kate. And now she had something within her that could break his heart.

"Jack, I'm pregnant."

It was finally out, well at least half of it was.

"And you have to understand I love you. I love you so much that sometimes it scares me. You make me a better person and I don't want to lose that," she looked at Jack tears starting to well deep in the green pools of her eyes.

At this his face softened and she buried her face in his strong chest with his muscular arms around her holding her tight. Kate wanted to freeze this moment and keep Jack adoring her and she was honest with him. She had to get it all out. She reached out and cupped Jack's face with her hand and stared into his melting hazel eyes that didn't know what emotion to show. The words came out.

"I love you," she repeated to imprint it into him, "and I wish I could say that the baby is ours but I can't."

The pain shot through his eyes as strongly as if he had been shot through by an arrow.

"I'm two months pregnant which means I got pregnant while we were imprisoned by the Others and around that time I had sex with Sawyer. You must understand I love you, I can't stress that enough, it was way before we ever got together and the thing is I thought he was going to die. And yes I admit there were feelings on both our parts at that time but now the only person I love is you, you Jack Shephard."

She paused; Jack still hadn't said a word so she plowed on, words just spilling out.

"And I don't want to lose you over this because I wish that it was your child that we could raise together because I love you and I know we have only been together for a month and known each other for five months but that's been long enough for me to know that you are the first person I can envision myself spending the rest of my life with. Right now I am telling you the truth, all of it, the whole truth."

"Kate, I……..have nothing to say to that. I love you, God or whoever knows that. I need to think," he managed to get out before tearing himself out of her arms.

Jack staggered further into the jungle until reaching a steady pace, Kate watching him as he went until he disappeared into the enveloping fauna. The well of tears noiselessly erupted.

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Kate sat on the beach, looking out onto the waves crashing, the deep azure meeting the impossibly white sands, her face unreadable as she watching the hypnotizing ocean. Time seemed to pass without Kate ever realizing it and people passing by until Sun slowly walked up to her before sitting down next to Kate.

"So how did Jack take the news?" she questioned in her quiet slightly accented voice.

"What news?"

"That you're pregnant."

Kate's head whipped around staring at the Korean woman, "How did you know?"

"Kate," her hand reaching out to steady Kate's arm, "I am pregnant, I know the signs and when you asked to talk to Jack alone and now you're here without him which you haven't been for a while, I know what's going on."

Kate rested her head against Sun's shoulder.

"I don't know what I'm going to do. I don't know what he's going to do," she looked at the older woman fear and determination in her eyes, "I am not going to lose him so soon after I found him. I love him so much that sometimes it scares me."

Kate felt Sun motioning her to look up and as she raised her head she saw Jack. She jumped up and looked at him straight in the eye and saw his strength staring back at her. It seemed as if time seemed to slow down in the few moments when he opened his mouth until the words finally came out.

"I love you Kate and we're going to figure something out even-" he was cut off by Kate uncharacteristically jumping into his arms and wrapping him in a tight embrace.

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