Disclaimer//AN: I still don't own LWD or the song Spin by Lifehouse.
That sucks doesn't it? Yes I know.
Spin
Casey smacked her lips a few times before pasting a smile across her faced, the door opened. There stood her little sister in all her excited glory. Her happiness. For a moment Casey could feel the nausea just racing up her throat, terrifying her.
"Congratulations Liz," Casey said instead, pulling her sister into a tight hug. Lizzie pulled away and shook her head at her sister, a smile clear on her face, but also a look of understanding.
"You didn't even want to come." Lizzie stated matter of factly. Casey simply shrugged.
"You don't get your gift til the actual wedding." Casey replied, ignoring the obvious statement her sister had made before making her way into the apartment, she could hear Derek's footsteps up the stairs. How could he be so simple about her and him? Why was all this so easy for him?
Lizzie watched her sister in pain as she passed. Derek was walking up the steps, his arm hooked to another girl's. A girl that wasn't Casey. Her heart ached for the love her sister had lost, for the lies their parents had told to keep them apart. It would always be a mystery to Lizzie as to why they didn't do the same thing to her and Edwin, perhaps because they knew those two already knew the truth? She could never be sure. She shook Riley's hand, made pleasantries and accepted Derek's small, velvet, black box he handed her without a word, along with the peck on the cheek. Neither of them knew the truth and it killed Lizzie to not tell them. But seeing their faces as they stared at one another as he entered the room, she wondered if she could risk not to. Their hearts and happiness were on the line. She shook her head and closed the door. It can't be a matter now, Edwin wouldn't want it to be, George and Nora don't want to be...maybe Marti will let it be. Lizzie smirked at the plan forming in her head. Marti, her little mischief maker might be just who she needed.
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Derek watched her walk elegantly across the room, crossing her arms across her chest and finding a place next to her mother, their hands clasped. Nora nodded towards various items in Lizzie's apartment that obviously had something to do with their past, before the Venturi's, before the truth came out about Derek and Casey. He noticed Lizzie pull Marti into a seperate hallway while George and Edwin began engaging Riley in a heated debate over the Maple Leafs over any other hockey team. She simply didnt know a thing about the game, which appeared to be Edwin's goal; embarassing his girlfriend. He sighed to himself Derek Venturi to the rescue for a helpless girlfriend. Grabbing Riley by the elbow he thanked his family for entertaining her before retreating her to the kitchen. She was going to want to meet Casey. She couldn't meet Casey, not the fake Casey. He wanted her to see the real Casey. The one he'd never let go of. The one who'd been snatched from him.
I'd rather chase your shadow all my life
Than be afraid of my own
I'd rather be with you
I'd rather not know
Where I'll be than
Be alone and convinced that I know...
She could feel his gaze on her. She could feel those piercing eyes penetrating through her hair, her neck, into her soul. The only guy that could. She knew the story. She knew they could never be a pair. She knew that there was nothing that could be done about it, so why did it hurt so bad? Her mother was going on and on about some mindless china plate chatter for Lizzie's wedding, speaking of whom had yet to leave the hallway she remained with sixteen year old Marti. She smiled. What were the two up to?
"Excuse me Mom, i'm going to go meet um...Derek's girlfriend." She said to her mother formally before standing and walking to the kitchen. If there was one thing she needed, she needed to get this out of the way. If this girl was part of Derek's life than she had to know she was right for him, right?
When the world keeps spinning round
My world's upside down
And i wouldn't change a thing
I've got nothing else to lose
I lost it all when I found you
And I wouldn't change a thing
No, you and I wouldn't change a thing
Sucking in her breath Casey slowly pushed open the swinging door that led to Lizzie's kitchen, but before she could fully push it open she could hear voices. Derek's voice and what appeared to be a very angry Riley.
"Why would you let me go through that humiliation?" Casey smiled to herself, she could just picture the girl throwing her hands in the air in frusteration.
"All you had to do was walk away, say I don't understand. Not play like you knew what you were doing. Who does that?" No she could see Derek, in her mind, running his hand through his two inch long brown hair, smuggly grinning to himself knowing yet another girl had failed to impress him or his family. Casey knew this party, for Riley, had been a test of the relationship. Smiling she couldn't help but be happy. Riley had to go right?
"Derek, I want this to work out between us. I don't want this to be about trying to impress anyone, I want everyone to accept us as we are." Casey could see from the shadow on the wall that Riley was fixing his tie, her stomach began to twist in knots. Maybe Riley wasn't out just yet.
"Ri, babe, I don't know what to think. All you've done since we walked in here is accuse me of something with Casey..." He started, Casey sucked in her breath.
"Yes, of course, everything returns to her doesn't it. Well she's standing outside the door. Go to her Prince Charming. You're her knight in shining armor right?" Riley sucked in her tears and slammed the door open. Barely missing Casey. "You two deserve each other, god you're sick." Casey couldn't even begin to understand what was going on. Derek ran out into the hall and upon seeing Casey smiled.
Everything I know has let me down
So I will just let go
Let you turn me inside out
Cause I know I'm not sure
About Anything
But you wouldn't have it any other way
"Casey? Casey! Casey wake up!" Casey could feel water pelting her face, her hands were shaking and she couldn't make out whether the wetness on her face was from tears or from the water her family had been dampening her face with.
"Sweetie are you ok?" Nora asked concernadly, having your daughter come into your other daughter's apartment just to fall asleep on the couch was a bit concerning. "Were you having a bad dream? You kept mumbling Derek's name." Casey clamped her hand to her mouth before making a bolt for the bathroom. This couldn't be happening.
Casey slammed the door shut and locked it before heaving what little contents her stomach contained into the porcelain bowl. But not before hearing the banging on the door. Derek.
"Casey open up!! Open the door!" She shook her head, as if expecting him to hear her.
When the world keeps spinning round
My world's upside down
And I wouldn't change a thing
I've got nothing else to lose
I lost it all when I found you
And I wouldn't change a thing
No, you and I wouldn't change a thing
"Go away!" Casey was able to yell back before dry heaving, nothing left in her stomach. Real Casey was lurching into the good girls porcelain prize. Real Casey was ruining Conservative Casey. She shook her head before taking a piece of toilet paper and whiping her mouth with shaking hands.
"You were saying my name Casey! What is going on with you? You haven't spoken to me in months! Please...talk to me now!" He begged through the plywood that held them apart. But she would speak. Her heart was pounding, she was sweaty and her body ached with the knowledge of what her family could've heard.
"Just go back to the party, to Riley. Just go Derek." She said. Slipping into the dark corners of her mind that were passing out. She needed rest. She needed to sleep. To escape. She flushed the toilet, placed the lid down, and lay her face on the cool white surface. Allowing rest to overcome her.
Spinning Turning Watching Burning
All my life has found its meaning
Walking Crawling Climbing Falling
All my life has found its meaning
"She wont' come out." Derek said numbly as he took his seat at the dinner table next to Marti. Riley had been seated up by Lizzie and Nora. Thanks to the two coniving sisters of Casey and Derek.
"What's wrong with her? Why would she speak of Derek in such...such a manner?" Riley asked confused. Her heart was in the question and Derek knew she deserved the answer. Derek looked at his dad.
"You'll never believe it..." He said, digging deep into his memory for the pain he had long since tried to bury of losing the girl of his dreams.
When the world keeps spinning round
My world's upside down
And I wouldn't change a thing
I've got nothing else to lose
I lost it all when I found you
And I wouldn't change a thing
No, you and I wouldn't change a thing
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