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~BPOV~

Here we are all sitting around the hospital waiting to hear anything back about Jasper's surgery. Alice is curled up in bed with me. She said she couldn't be in his room with him not there. Now all there is to do is wait. I asked mom to take the kids home. They don't need to be here with all the waiting. Poor Jacks he knows his daddy is in the hospital but he has no idea what is going on.

It's been 4 hours and still no word. Everyone is beside themselves. Emmett won't stop pacing in my room, Esme is curled up asleep on a chair, Edward spends some time with Ethan then with me, Rose is reading, Charlie is sitting by my bed holding my hand; Renee is at home with the kids. Carlisle well let's just say I'm glad I'm not a nurse at this hospital because I'm pretty sure he has made all of them want to quit.

6 hours nothing still. I know they said it would take a while but fuck, come on let us know the progress.

8 hours. Still nothing.

10 hours. This sucks, Ali hasn't moved, I have to pee, but I don't want to move her and I want to see my son.

After 11 hours a very tired doctor Williams walks in.

"Mrs. Whitlock?" This gets Alice's attention. She perks right up.

"yes?"

"I'm Dr. Williams. We were able to remove the bullet; the swelling has gone down considerably. We won't need to keep him induced in a coma; he will be able to come out of it on his own. They are still working on him. Dr. Shotly is doing his transplant, and removing part of his intestine that was damaged by the cancer."

"When will he wake up?" Alice asked eagerly.

"We don't know. He could wake up tomorrow or it could be weeks. You just have to give his body time to heal. Talk to him let him know you are here for him." Alice just simply nodded.

"Was there any damage to the surrounding area?" Carlisle asked

"No everything looked fine. There was slight burning where the bullet lodged itself but nothing serious. All we can do now is wait" He gave Alice a small smile before leaving the room. Everyone was quiet for what seemed like hours.

"Alice let's get you home, clean you up, get some food in you and let you spend some time with Jacks." Esme told her quietly.

"Mom I can't leave"

"Alice Jacks needs you right now. He has no idea what is going on with his daddy, he needs you. Besides you have to take care of that little one in your belly" Esme reminded her. She sighed and slowly nodded her head. Esme and Carlisle helped her up off the bed.

"Jacks is at our house with Renee, just go there, sleep in our room ok?" Edward told her giving her a hug, before she left the room.

Carlisle and Esme went with her as she left the room. I let out a huge sigh. The worst was over. Ya he is still in major surgery, but the brain is some heavy stuff. I'm so glad that is over with.

"Edward get over here and help me, I have to pee bad." Edward chuckled softly making his way to me. He helped me off the bed and to my business. I came back out and the room was empty except for my dad.

"We are all going to give you two sometime. I'll bring the princess up in the morning. You guys get some rest and give my grandson a hug for me." My dad told me kissing me on the forehead and patting Edward on the back. I was exhausted but I wanted to see my son.

"Edward I want to see Ethan before I can to sleep" I told him. He simply nodded and wheeled me to the NICU. He was doing so well. They told us that if he keeps gaining the weight that by next week we might be able to hold him.

Dr. Shotly came into my room about 4 hours after everyone left and told us that the surgery was a success and that Jasper was back in his room. He told us he would call Alice. We asked him to tell her that he wasn't allowed visitors for a few hours so she would get some rest. He reluctantly agreed.

Renee and Charlie came back around 9 the next morning with a happy Sophie. She bounced into the room and jumped up on the bed with Edward and me.

"Hey baby girl mama missed you" I told her squeezing her tight.

"Me too mama" we sat on that bed and played with our little girl for a little bit. We told Charlie and Renee about jasper and what the doctor had said. They told us Alice had spent some time with Jacks, ate dinner and went to sleep. Jacks had insisted on sleeping with her. That was where they were now. Still sleeping. They didn't' have the heart to wake them up.

Around 11am Alice and Jacks walked into my room. She looked so much better and even smiled genuinely at us all.

"I just wanted to come by and say we are here. I'm going to take Jackson to see Jasper. Renee do you mind coming to get him when you guys leave?"

"Not at all Alice." My mom said giving Alice a hug.

"Thank you guys so much. They only want like 2 people in his room at a time, but maybe when Jacks leaves you could come and sit with me for a bit?"

"Of course Alice I'll walk down with mom when its time" she just nodded and left the room. I have just been able to get up and walk around so I haven't seen Jasper yet, I can't wait to see him. Edward warned me when he saw him, that he doesn't look good. I figure he will look even worse after the extensive surgeries he just had.

About one o'clock Renee decides it's time to take Sophie home. I told Edward to go home with her for a little bit so he can rest and change his clothes. Renee decided to stay for a little bit since Edward was going to be at home. He didn't want to leave but I begged him to go.

"Babe I can't leave you here. "He whined to me

"Edward baby, spend some time with our little girl, get cleaned up, and eat a decent meal please" I tried to give him my best pout.

"Fine damn it. I'll be back no later than 6" I smiled at him. He walked over and captured my face in his hands, his lips found mine and I was home. His warm lips moved over mine softly and slowly, but I wanted some passion that I had been missing so I slipped my tongue in his mouth. He groaned. Oh how I missed his noises.

He broke away too soon, but it was for the best. No need to work ourselves up further than we need to. He rested his forehead on mine and we just stared into each other's eyes.

"I love you sweet girl" He whispered to me. I smiled, and whispered it back, and then he was out the door.

Renee came back in after Edward left and I took walk down to Jasper's room while she went to visit Ethan. He looked bad, his head was all black and blue and had bandages on it. I still couldn't believe it was him in the bed, fighting for his life. We are all the family he has. His parents died a month before Jacks was born it was a hard time for him. I visited for a little with Alice and talked to Jasper than walked back to my room.

About two hours after Edward left Carlisle came into the room to discuss what to do about the baby. He told me that he was still in the morgue. He asked if I wanted him to take care of funeral arrangements and I just nodded. I couldn't bear talking about it. Yes we were very lucky that Ethan survived and I was ok but we still lost a son. He enveloped me in a big hug while whispering comforting words. He told me Esme and he would set everything up and we could have the funeral in a couple days when I would be released from the hospital. I told him I just wanted the family there, he agreed and told me Esme had already picked out a headstone and was going to show it to me to see if it was ok. I told him to tell Esme to pick whatever would look the best. He just nodded. I told him what I wanted it to say.

Connor Jakob Cullen

Taken to be with Jesus

January 2010

Forever our angel

Edward came back at 6 like promised and brought me some real food. Score!

"Oh my god this is delicious babe. Thank you so much" I told him taking a big bite of baked ziti. My husband didn't cook a lot but what he did make was awesome. His baked ziti was amazing, with chicken and smothered in mozzarella cheese. YUMMY!!!

"I'm glad you like it. So anything happen while I was gone? Any news on Ethan or Jasper?" He asked eating with me.

"Nothing on Jasper. His brain readings are good Carlisle says, and his body seems to be taking to the liver good. Um…your mom and dad are going to set up the funeral for Connor. I hope that is ok?"

"Of course. Man I feel like such a shit. I should of thought of that." I know he was going to beat himself up over this.

"Hey it's not your fault. Your hear me Edward. Not. Your. Fault." I told him grabbing his face so he was looking at me. He just nodded so I continued. "Your mom picked out a head stone and I told Carlisle what I wanted written." I told him what it was going to say and he loved it.

We continued eating dinner than Edward cleaned up the mess.

"I'm going to go take this food to everyone." He said with a big bag in his hand filled with tuperware. He made everyone their own filled with the delicious meal. I nodded at him and he left.

I was being released today. Jasper hasn't woken up but his brain activity has been increasing. The doctors told us all to keep talking to him. We have been making Alice go home at night to be with Jacks and get some rest. We had to use the 'you don't want to hurt the baby' excuse to get her to agree. I didn't want to go, but I was being forced out by my own father in law. Can you believe that?

"Bella you can come up as much as you want during the day ok" Carlisle told me so I just nodded and got dressed into some yoga pants and a t-shirt with one of Edwards hoodies over the top. Edward took me to see Ethan before we left.

"Bella, Edward good news" Ethan's nurse beamed at us.

"What?"

"You guys can hold him if you would like" I couldn't stop the smile from my face and nodded excitedily. She told us to wash up and to sit in the rocker. She brought him over to us and he was so tiny he has gained another 2 ounces. He still had the breathing tube and feeding tube attached but he was beautiful. She placed him in my arms and the tears rolled down my face.

"Hey angel" I whispered to him. "I love you so much. So does your daddy and big sister. Everyone is so excited for you to come home. So you keep getting stronger and bigger and we will bring you home. You have a brand new room waiting for you at home. I think you'll really like it" I held him a little longer than handed him over to Edward. He could only be out for short periods of time.

"Bella hopefully in a couple weeks as long as he keeps getting stronger, we will want you to try breast feeding him. I want you to still pump and bring it in and we will still feed it to him. Your milk is the best for him" The nurse told me quietly while Edward fussed over his new son. I just nodded at her.

I was so happy with all the progress he was making. I couldn't believe how strong he was. Carman Ethan's nurse told us it was time to put him back in his incubator. We stayed a few more minutes and then we left. Sophie was at home and I missed my little girl.

We got home and Edward had informed me that he changed up the nursery. I was glad I didn't think I would be able to go in there is both cribs were still up. We had decided to do a safari theme. I had a muralist come in and paint lions, monkeys, and giraffes, and all kinds of other animals on the walls. Sophie helped me pick out everything.

We walked into the house and my mom and dad and Sophie all yelled Welcome Home.

"Ah guys, thank you" I said while my little girl wrapped her little arms around my waist.

"I missed you being home mama" She whispered into my clothes while still squeezing me tight.

"Oh baby I missed you too, I missed waking up every morning to your beautiful face" She smiled up at me and I bent down as best I could and kissed her head.

Renee had made dinner and we all sat down and talked. They were going to stay another week. We told them that we were able to hold Ethan and about the funeral. They were both really excited that Japer and Ethan were doing better. We were just about to give Sophie her bath when the house phone rang.

"Hello?" I answered

"Bells, its Em, Jas just woke up"

A/N I know epic fail with posting this. I just couldn't get it right. I re wrote this like 3 times and am still not entirely happy with it. Hope its ok. Review and let me know.

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