The Truth about Dean Winchester
Disclaimer: I have no claims to the show Supernatural, the characters or themes, I just like to play with the characters, tease, torture, caress and the rest!! Don't shoot the writer!
CHAPTER 03
Before : But all good things must come to a end and by removing the pendent Mary never knew that she had suddenly appeared as special on the Demon's radar. The demon understood that a boy child born over a third part vampire would be a great addition to his family. Imagine his surprise when 6 months later he stood over a human child, but fully human. He would not learn for years that he empowered the wrong child because the true vampire blooded child was wearing a pendent that hide him and calmed his developing bloodlust.
Dean never admitted it but he was fascinated by the fire and the death of his Mother Mary, and by the general idea of Warfare. Before the fire he would play with his soldiers for hours having them shoot each other, planning ambushes, and fights. He was fascinated with the thought of fighting and when his friends kept on going on about how wonderful it was to have a baby coming, he lost it and ended up splitting one kids lip. It was right then that Dean realized he loved the sight of blood and therefore to have that thrill of seeing it flow again, he simply started another fight. That was until Mary placed the pendent around his neck, suddenly he just wanted to focus on how to help, his soldiers lost their appeal, cowboys and Indians was just another game and not a opportunity to see blood run.
All this changed when Mary died, the fire destroyed their home and John decided to hunt down the monster who killed his wife. You could say that this was the best thing that could have ever happened to Dean. For it gave him unknown even to himself, a chance to developed into a hunter, and he loved it. Yes a part of him did want to find the monster responsible for his mother's death but a bigger part relished the hunt, enjoyed the kill, and young Dean could not wait to join his father in a hunting trip. He focused all his energy into proving he was worthy of the hunt. He followed orders, took care of weapons, learnt how to defend himself, learnt to kill, and took care of Sammy.
No don't get me wrong he loved his younger brother, he just did not understand why Sammy loved books while for him weapons and hunting was the meaning of life. That night the Shtriga attacked, he just needed to to get out, he needed to kill something, shoot something. If he had been older someone would have died that night but he was young, and does shooting aliens at a arcade kept him happy and the still developing bloodlust quiet. Only when he got home and found the strega attacking Sammy and saw the look on his father's face did he realize that the only way to settle his soul was to hunt and now he had blown that for a few more years. He vowed there and then that he would never again leave the post assigned to him, never again would he let his guard down, this was his chance and he blew it big time. You would have thought that he first thought was about Sammy but really his first thought was I went to shoot aliens in the arcade, when I could have been killing a Shtriga, man do I regret the arcade. You always wondered why he froze now you know... he was fascinated.
Years went by and Dean grew into he hunter that we know and love, no research just go in and kill the evil monster. You may wonder why no research, well let me tell you. After the strega incident, Dean wanted so much to impress his father that he actually thought that a full research on a family that the demon choose might reveal a hidden reason or pattern and where best to start then your own family. So Dean spent the entire period at pastor Jim's and quite a few years working on the history of the Winchester family. The did his father's tree all the way back to his great great great grandfather - no mean feat in those days. Then he turned to his mother's side of the family and discovered about Susan, Richard, the Lears, and the Michaels.
To his great credit scared as he was of the truth, he continued his research. He dug into the legends that surrounded the forest, then he dug into the legendary possibility of half human half vampire children - he even consulted a load of references on the comic book character Blade. Then he turned to researching ways of these children had to become human fully human. That lead to a lot of frustration, a few bars, a few chicks, and a lot of complaints that he was not training hard enough. Unfortunately nothing he researched told him any way of changing his fate. He would live and live and live if he killed and drank blood or at the very least felt blood on his skin, then he would be able to live and be sane while doing it. The alternative was not acceptable. You see that's why the others had not survived. They had not felt blood flow, they had not dipped their fingers in a body, they had not feed their bloodlust till it was too late and madness took over.
Dean on the other hand had and thus he managed to survive, in fact he thrived and become a hunter making his father proud even if he did not admit it. You wonder how Dean survived, why my friends, my readers, my reviewers that is the next chapter.