"...hehehe...This chap is very mean, if you ask me. Rated M. I revised this chap after I wrote it because it got kinda outta hand from me-meaning way too violent. Hope you like it!..."

Pain-Chapter 11

Fight

Both Spencer Reid and Derek Morgan woke up before 3 am the next morning. As Morgan stared at his ceiling, he kept wishing that Reid hadn't had gone home. He missed him already. He sighed, tossing and turning as Clooney laid out across his feet. Morgan managed to smile at that, but he still didn't feel any less lonely...

Reid hadn't wanted to go home, but he knew he had to. Not only did he need to change his clothes and take a shower in his own tub-which he had missed dearly-but he needed some time to think about things for himself.

There was a certain thing on Reid's mind that had his emotions spewing confusingly everywhere. He kept thinking about it and how much he knew Morgan loved it, but he had never done it himself.

"Anything else you wanna clear the air about?" Morgan asked. Reid thought for a moment, then nodded. "Alright, what is it?"

"Mor-Derek," Reid corrected himself, "I'm-I'm a virgin."

"Really?" Morgan asked, raising a curious look at Reid, who nodded in conformation. "My boyfriend's a virgin." Morgan said out loud with a smile. "Well, that's something special, isn't it?" Morgan asked rhetorically as he kissed Reid's forehead.

Reid sighed, not sure if it was time to move that far in their relationship. Either way, he was both excited and terrified at the thought of being in bed with Morgan and doing a bit more than cuddling. He felt safe and secure where they were now, but he knew that they were going to have to move on, sooner or later.

Suddenly, Reid's phone went off, causing him to jump in surprise. He quickly scrambled to find his phone before answering it. "Hello?"

"Hey Spencer, you up?"

"Well, hmm...let me think about that." Reid smirked. "What is it, Morgan?"

"You know you can call me Derek,right?"

"Yeah, but I've always called you Morgan. I called you Derek with your mom, though, and I had to correct myself before I said Morgan every time."

"Alright, alright." Morgan laughed. "Fair enough."

"So, what is it?"

"Oh, I just wanted to see if you were awake."

"I am..."

"And I was wondering if I could come over." Reid smiled, glad to have the truth finally come out.

"Sure. It's getting kinda lonely over here, anyways."

"Alright, good. I will be over there soon enough, okay?"

"Okay; bye Morgan." With that, Morgan hung up.

'Damn it, what I am going to do?' But Reid didn't have time to muse over every reason against it and/or for it. He had to make a decision now or risk possibly ruining his whole relationship with Morgan...

A few minutes later, Derek was knocking on the door to his apartment. He quickly opened it and guided Morgan inside. Morgan couldn't help but notice how quiet Reid was being, and it made him frown.

"Spencer, what's wrong?" he asked.

"Nothing, I'm just...just nervous, is all." Reid admitted.

"About what?"

Reid seemed to stop to consider his choice of words for a moment, but after a while, he decided to just get it out in the open. "Sex."

Morgan seemed to be taken aback by the answer, but after a minute he couldn't help but have to hide his smile, knowing Reid needed reassurance before anything happened.

"I mean, we don't have work tomorrow, we're both pretty stressed right now.." Reid started.

"Spencer, are you sure you're ready for that?" Morgan asked, praying for the answer he really wanted.

"Yes; I'm ready." Reid answered, suddenly unsure if he really was. With that, Reid started walking toward his bedroom, his heart stuck in his throat as he tried to gather up the courage for what he was about to do. Morgan followed behind him, a hand supportively placed around his lover's waist. Finally, they reached the bedroom.

If Reid was being perfectly honest with himself, he had no idea what to do at this point. So he waited for Morgan to make the first move. Before he could even register what was happening, both Morgan and himself were naked on his bed.

"Whoa, whoa,whoa!" the drunk agent slurred. "Where's a sexy thing like you going alone this late at night?"

Reid tensed up at the new thought. He tried to push it away, but he couldn't. The thoughts came flooding back in...

I'm not letting someone as pretty as you just walk out of my life without a little action." he nearly purred. "And besides, who am I to let that little ass of yours go to waste?"

Reid tried to scream, butt he man's lips on his own muffled it so no one could hear. Before Reid knew what was happening, he was pushed completely onto the table being pinned down by rough hands on his slightly-curved hips...

That was it; Reid was officially panicking now. "Morgan stop." Reid whispered. But Morgan kept on prodding his pale, fragile body. "Morgan stop." This time, he said it louder, but still received the same response. "Morgan STOP!" This time, Morgan stopped, and it became clear he wasn't happy about it.

"What the hell Reid?" he glared, making Reid feel small.

"I-I'm sorry. I panicked and-" Reid stuttered.

"Is this about what happened at the bar?" Morgan asked, earning a nod from Reid. "You have GOT to be joking!" Suddenly, Morgan got off the bed and quickly put his clothes on. "It's not like he even did anything with you! All he did was feel you up a little! So what? Happens all the time! But you always blow things out of proportion. I swear, you'll do ANYTHING to get attention! I bet you let him do it willingly!"

"Morgan, I didn't-" Reid started, tears rolling down his cheeks.

"Forget it, kid! You are so pathetic. I don't even know what I saw in you. You're just a selfish little brat who thinks that the world should stop everything and pay attention to you!

"I was raped Reid, as a kid! You were touched by a grown man just last week. So what? Get over it! If anyone should have a problem with having sex with another man it should be me!"

"Get out." Reid finally said; he couldn't take it anymore.

"What did you just tell me?" Morgan asked, now inching closer to Reid.

Get. Out." Reid said a little weaker.

"Now, there's no way in HELL I'm gonna take order from YOU!" By this point, Morgan had lost control of his temper. He reached over to Reid and slapped him so hard on his cheek that the force from his hand sent him falling to his bedroom floor. Reid gasped as the stinging in his cheeks grew more intense, and he wiped blood off his cheeks with a shaky hand. Suddenly, Morgan kicked Reid in the stomach, yelling something at him, but he couldn't make out what exactly was being said. He suddenly felt dizzy; he couldn't distinguish the floor from the ceiling anymore...

Morgan suddenly realizing what he was doing- beating the crap out of Reid. He stopped, letting Reid fall limp on the floor. "Oh my god." he whispered. How could he have hurt Spencer- his Spencer? He overreacted, and now Reid was hurt. Morgan's hands shook fiercely as he backed out of Reid's bedroom.

He had really screwed up this time...

Once Reid was sure that Morgan had left, he managed to crawl up on his bed. He pulled the sheets over his exposed and now bruised body, crying out from emotional and physical pain. He thought that Morgan loved him, but he hurt me. And now, he was naked on his bed with a bloody face and a sore body.

As Reid's damned eidetic memory played the scene over and over again in his head, his hands inched toward his leg. He dug his long nails into skin, just about ready to tear his skin off his body if it was physically possible to...

Hotch woke up a few minutes after 4 am. Something felt off to him, but he didn't know what. There was a nagging feeling in his stomach that something was wrong, and he had a feeling he knew what it was. Hotch reached for his phone and dialed the familiar number. When there was no answer, he threw on some day clothes and headed out the door...

"...If I had kept to the original version, you guys woulda really been upset with me :) But that version's never coming out of my computer. In fact, I'm about to delete it...R&R?..."