The Truth about Dean Winchester

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CHAPTER 09

Before: It rang once and then got picked up, and Bobby on hearing nothing but breathing shallow breathing said Dean just tell me where you are.. Dean looked around and told Bobby the address that was on the phone booth, just before everything went black. Bobby heard the address and the sound of Dean collapsing in the booth, luckily Dean was only about 30 miles away and bobby broke all the speed limits to get to him, not even knowing how he was or even if he was still alive at all. All Bobby did know was that John had better not ever come to call because if Dean was passed saving, Bobby would not be responsible for his actions against John.

It took Bobby 25 minutes to get to the phone booth, and that was 25 minutes longer then Bobby wanted, he knew that the chances of Dean being alive and ok where not good, John was devious and intelligent and whatever he had done, bobby was convinced it was not in meant to let Dean survive but survive he had or at least Bobby hoped so. He was not sure what he would find at the booth, so he tried to prepare himself for anything unfortunately as he reached the booth and saw Dean, he realized he was not prepared at all. The phone was off the hook and Dean was leaning on one side of the booth, it would have looked as if he was asleep if it had not been for the blood covering that side of the booth where apparently he slid down when he lost consciousness. God so much blood, it was on his arms, his clothing what there was of it, and all over the side of the booth. What was worse was it was also covering some of the floor and Bobby feared that he was in fact too late... Dean had to be dead!

Bobby's head leaned on the steering wheel as tears poured down, he cursed John, and decided that he would himself salt and burn Dean's body, somewhere nice say the pond near his home where he knew there where for Dean at least some nice memories. Bobby also decided that he would tell Sam, Dean was dead maybe build a story about a hunt gone wrong now, but when Sam was older Bobby would tell him the truth but now he would make sure that the kid knew bobby was a friend he could always rely on. Of course this sad train of thought got majorly kicked in the butt when Bobby reached Dean's body and while trying to gently move it onto a blanket, heard Dean moan. For a second time seemed to freeze for Bobby, then his brain kicked into gear and wrapping a bit more quickly, he dashed to his truck putting dean in the back seat with another blanket over him. He knew the blanket would stick to the burns but it would help the blood coagulate and maybe help stop the bleeding. He also tried to give Dean a drink and some pain killers but every movement Dean made seemed to hurt him. Bobby knew he needed a hospital and quick but the closet one was 50 miles away and Bobby's own home was closer. Immediately after trying to make Dean as comfortable as possible, Bobby jumped into the driver's seat and started towards his home as fast as possible cursing for not picking up more med items then he had.

It was during the drive that the pain and hunger jolted Dean to a semi conscience state, just as Bobby cursing all the way with one hand on Dean trying to keep him steady drove over several potholes. It was the pain that these gave Dean that woke him groggily up. Immediately hunger struck, Bobby's hand holding him down was covered in Dean's blood and the smell was intoxicating. It made him so hungry, he needed it so much. Dean's eyes looked around, and realizing he was in the back of Bobby's truck, and that meant weapons. His hand slowly went to where he knew there was a knife, at that moment all he wanted was to grab it and slice Bobby's throat. He needed blood, warm, thick, fresh blood. All he had to do was reach the knife and reach it he did. As his hands wrapped around the hilt, he paused, his mind trying to argue against the building hunger, against the need of blood to feel, to drink. He never understood where he found the strength at that moment, he was in pain and he just wanted the pain to stop and there was only one other way to stop it.

Bobby was so focused on driving he hardly heard Dean when he ask Bobby to stop the car, thinking that Dean need a rest from the jolts, he turned along a sideroad and stopped the truck. Then he turned round to be greeted with Dean holding a knife, at that moment Bobby thought his time was up and he only hoped Dean would forgive himself for what Bobby could obviously see in his eyes, his now emerald eyes. He could see the hunger, the raw need for blood and Bobby knew that this was what John had feared, that Dean would become a killer and it seemed at that moment Bobby was going to be his first kill. How long they stayed like that both Bobby and Dean would never be able to say a minute, 10 minutes, hours but as another bolt of pain screamed though Dean's body, he made a decision he hoped one day Sam would understand, he dropped the knife in the front seat and told Bobby to take it and Kill him, to please just kill him.

Bobby snapped out of whatever daze he had been in, had he heard right, Dean wanted to die. He turned and was about to say No when he saw Dean move the blanket away from his chest and relax. Dean explained his dad was right he was a monster, he should be killed.. the pain it was so bad please .. the blade has to be solid silver and blessed... it has to go straight thought my heart... please bobby help me.. then salt and burn my body... a lone tear traced Bobby's face and when Dean Bloody hand wrapped around Bobby's and moved the knife so that it was over his heart, Bobby could not help but silently curse John for what he had done to the boy. His once strong son was now just really skin and bone and begging for death just to stop the pain he was in. Bobby turned to get a better view and would never forget the pain, and hunger that shown from Dean's now glowing eyes. All Dean said was Please Bobby can't control it much longer.. and then his last request Sammy must never know.. then Dean's eyes closed. At least he thought maybe he would be with his mother again. Bobby raised the knife and the made a decision that he knew he would never regret, not even if Dean did later turn into a killer Bobby would never regret this decision.

The Next thing Dean knew something warm and sweet was being pressed to his lips. It was nice and his lips slightly opened so that he could swallow more. Coffee no not coffee, whiskey then his fogged brain thought no, and then the hunger recognized it, and immediately Dean recognized it Blood.. Dean coughed and gagged a little but the hunger and the need kept him drinking and his mind slowly cleared. Bobby must have brought some blood packets with him, nice guy, but then the blood tasted of something, which was weird Dean thought .. it tasted of cars and books and oil and then he saw the yard and realized this was not a bloodpack, this was bobby and he stopped gulping immediately and pushed what he now recognized as bobby's arm away in self loathing.

Dean huddled in the blanket, and turned away from bobby, his back hurt less and his arm seemed almost healed but Bobby was wrapping his arm with a rag to stop the bleeding from a self induced cut, and Dean would never forgive himself for the damage he had done. All he could say was Bobby you should have killed me! There was silence for the rest of the trip and Bobby knew that Dean was cursing himself for his weakness and would be reminded of it every time he saw the scar that that cut would leave but Bobby after all the scars he had hunting in the darkness, this scar would be his favorite for it was gained helping a friend, he just hoped Dean would see it that way too one day.

On reaching home Bobby discovered that Dean injuries where healing at a amazing rate and whilst Dean admitted to be hungry still, he insisted that it was for burgers and fries even though Bobby said he could spare a bit more if Dean needed it. Dean on the other hand polished off four burgers and a large helping of potato chips and two bags of m&m's which he decided he would make sure that there was always a giant bag in the car since they really helped. Bobby explained that this was probably because of the high sugar content and that Dhampirs like Tricksters needed to have some high sugar foods most of the time. Then Dean asked how long and Bobby hesitated and asked what had happened, to which dean said you tell me how long and I will tell you what happened. Two weeks, Dean was missing for two weeks, so now Dean knew he had been drugged by his own father and had been kept drugged for about a week and a half, no wonder he was so hungry when he awoke. Bobby waited until Dean had digested this information and then went on to tell him that Sam was with Pastor Jim and John was on a hunt three states away. He also said that Sam had been worried sick and was bothering Pastor Jim with questions wanting to know what was going on and more importantly where Dean was. John had left him with Pastor Jim as a last resort two days after Dean had vanished. At that dean laughed vanished was that what his dad called it, bobby you must have known it was my dad who made me vanish. Bobby nodded and asked again what happened Dean.

Dean waited a second and then sighed and told Bobby everything, about the cage, about the dream of his mother, about wanting to die, about the coke and how it burned his fingers, about the generator and the bomb and the car that he never went near even. Bobby went from sad, to worried to annoyed and somewhere past furious and even way past outrage went to load a shotgun and get a bottle of whiskey, having decided that next time John came round he was going to get both barrels shoved down his throat for this. Then Bobby asked why Dean had called him and Dean who was almost back to his usual self, smiled and said well I couldn't call dad, and Pastor Jim was annoyed at me. Why was Jim annoyed with Dean. Dean's smile grew and he said well I sent him on a wild goose chase to a nonexistent hotel, when he called because I thought that he was possessed after all the excuses he gave me, for needing me to come to him immediately and at that Bobby laughed. Only Dean would be able to send Pastor Jim on a wild goose chase usually Jim could tell a lie and figure out the truth before the phone hung up and not when he found himself in the middle of nowhere looking for a nonexistent hotel.

Maybe they would not be smiling so much if they had known that at the moment John was kneeling before the burned out wreck of the house, crying his eyes out thinking his son was dead and Pastor Jim standing next to him was feeling emotions he had not felt for years Anger, Pain, and pity. Sam was in the impala crying his eyes out, if only they had got here sooner. All he had been told was that after a huge argument with Pastor Jim where he did not understand half the words that Jim used and the ones he did understand his dad would ground him for using and hearing his dad saying that Jim had no right to tell him how to raise his sons, he had finally been told that John and Jim was going to get Dean. Sam was in the car before anyone and was still really half asleep and in his pj's but saying that he could get dressed in the car while they where driving was enough and with a look of pure hatred towards Pastor Jim which Sam did not understand, they where off finally to rescue Dean, well that was before they had arrived and found the house an smoking shell and no sign of Dean. Sam realized he hated the hunt at that moment, because it had taken Dean away. Pastor Jim had no words of comfort for them. He knew that Sam was beyond comfort and he prayed that one day he would be forgiven for really wanting John to suffer at this moment - Jim too loved Dean like a son and had wanted desperately to help him - if only he had found the words instead of stupid excuses, for that he would never forgive himself.

Next Chapter: Dean visits Sam in Secret. Yup again this is longer then I thought it would be but I think it's worth it - hope you do too.