The Truth about Dean Winchester
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CHAPTER 10
Before: Maybe they would not be smiling so much if they had known that at the moment John was kneeling before the burned out wreck of the house, crying his eyes out thinking his son was dead and Pastor Jim standing next to him was feeling emotions he had not felt for years Anger, Pain, and pity. Sam was in the impala crying his eyes out, if only they had got here sooner. All he had been told was that after a huge argument with Pastor Jim where he did not understand half the words that Jim used and the ones he did understand his dad would ground him for using and hearing his dad saying that Jim had no right to tell him how to raise his sons, he had finally been told that John and Jim was going to get Dean. Sam was in the car before anyone and was still really half asleep and in his pj's but saying that he could get dressed in the car while they where driving was enough and with a look of pure hatred towards Pastor Jim which Sam did not understand, they where off finally to rescue Dean, well that was before they had arrived and found the house an smoking shell and no sign of Dean. Sam realized he hated the hunt at that moment, because it had taken Dean away. Pastor Jim had no words of comfort for them. He knew that Sam was beyond comfort and he prayed that one day he would be forgiven for really wanting John to suffer at this moment - Jim too loved Dean like a son and had wanted desperately to help him - if only he had found the words instead of stupid excuses, for that he would never forgive himself.
The ride back to Pastor Jim's church was silent except for the sound of tears coming from the back of the impala where Sam was looking out the window. Pastor Jim thought he was lost in memories and the loss he had suffered, that is until he screamed for John to stop the car and bolted out of the car even before it had stopped moving. John was at a loss and so was Pastor Jim until they reached Sam who was standing starring at a phone booth, a phone booth that had one side caked in blood. Sam wanted to go closer, he was sure Dean was alive now, but he had to find something, anything to tell him, he was right that the blood covering the booth was Dean's. It was Jim's hand on his shoulder that stopped him and the quiet words that he would check - go back to the car Sam and for once dreading what he might find in the booth Sam went back to the car. Pastor Jim and John slowly went forward to the booth and both where relieved that there was no body, just a lot of blood - a really lot of blood and then something caught Jim's eye just as John shook his head about to say that this was not a trail they could follow. Jim saw a padlock, a large padlock. As he's fingers picked up the blood covered padlock, he turned to John and said you chained him up, John what else did you do to him for God's sake.
John remained silent to Jim's accusation at the meaning of the padlock. The only thing he could say was at least we know Dean got this far, maybe somebody picked him up, maybe he was in a hospital somewhere getting treated. They had to find him, and give them credit, they did try calling from that blood soaked booth every hospital in the radius of 150 miles but nothing was found. Noone matching Dean's description had been brought in to any of them. John walked back to the Impala knowing that Dean had got this far was worse then thinking he was dead. It was then that he saw the tracks of a truck, and tears fell but not tears of happiness, but tears of hatred and self loathing for being John he jumped straight to the worst conclusion possible. Jim came up behind him, and started hoping they could follow the tracks and help out Dean, but John stopped him from telling Sam about the tracks and when Jim turned to face his friend, he knew that he was not going to like what he was going to hear.
John spoke quietly as if the world would stop if he said his thoughts any louder. There was only one explanation for the tracks, the condition of the booth and the fact that Dean was not in a hospital, and that was that his fears had become reality - Dean had killed, drunk his fill of blood and was now resting somewhere in a stolen truck. Jim was shocked that John could think Dean was capable of murder, let alone one that involved him drinking blood. Jim rather forcefully grabbing John jacket, told him in no uncertain terms that he would never believe that about Dean until he not only heard it direct from Dean but saw it with his own eyes. He then proceeded to turn suddenly and do what ever evil creature John had ever hunted had wanted to do and failed. he gave John Winchester the biggest black eye he ever had. When John and him got back into the Impala, Sam was worried sick about the fight he had witnessed, about the amount of blood that was in the booth and the fact that Jim and John where barely on speaking terms and seemed to come to blows nearly every time they talked. His only thought was where was Dean, it was obvious even to him that Dean was alive and out there and at that moment Sam swore that he would never rest till he found him and find him he would.
On arriving back at the rectory, the two doors on the Impala where slammed like never before even Sam was surprised by it. He realized that both John and Jim where furious so he tried to do what Dean usually did i.e. act as go between. He figured he would start with his father so even though it was late and John had told him to goto bed, he tried to remind him that Jim had a good head on his shoulders to which he got told to mind his own business and leave it alone so shrugging his young shoulders he left John digging though his weapons bag mumbling to himself as to the location of his silver knives. Giving up on trying to reach his father, Sam went to talk to Pastor Jim, who though he listened really did not pay any attention to Sam at all, he was too busy researching though books on vampire lore, until Sam mentioned that Jim was just as unreasonable as John. Oh and why am I so unreasonable asked Jim. Well you both won't explain anything, you just go on working, you reading your books and Dad preparing for a werewolf hunt. A werewolf hunt???? Yup said Sam what else do you kill with silver knives and silver bullets.
At that the books fell from Jim grasp and he literally ran to John's room, but as he reached it Jim heard the Impala drive out of the driveway and prayed that John would not find the pray he was seeking that night, the pray that Jim wanted so desperately to help, the pray that was once his eldest Son - Dean Winchester!
Not for one second did Jim believe that Dean had killed anyone and he refused to believe it, so he decided that just in case John asked for help he would contact the only help that knew of the current situation and make sure that no help was given so Jim called Bobby and on hearing the phone pick up was just about to explain when Bobby mentioned that he wanted to pop over and discuss a few things, so Jim readily agreed, maybe together he and Bobby could find Dean first - I mean he reasoned just how many places of safety where there for a Dhampir to hide.
As soon as Bobby's truck stopped outside Jim was out and trying to explain to Bobby what was going on, not realizing that Dean was hidden in the back of the truck listening and when Jim said that John was out hunting Dean, who had apparently killed someone in John's opinion, Dean nearly made himself known but the fact that he wanted to set Sam's mind at ease stopped him. That and the fact the Bobby immediately said they should discuss this and look for places for Dean to hide inside where they had maps and that maybe John would be unsuccessful. Jim was shaking but nodded, he had been so worried about what John might do when he found Dean that the thought that he might not find him had not occurred to Jim, which was no surprise Dean thought peeping though a window when the men started retreating to the house.
Dean knew where their bedroom was and climbing up the side of the house, he made it quickly to the window and having opened that quickly dropped inside. He had expected to find Sam asleep in bed which he did but he had not expected to find that he had been crying and was currently hugging Dean's jacket in a death grip. Darn it the boy was even sniffling in his sleep, so Dean laid a hand on his shoulder and carefully unwrapped him from his jacket. Even half asleep Sam recognized Dean's presence and hat woke him up quickly, opening his eyes he prayed that what he felt was true and Sam being Sam jumped out of bed and was halfway to the door when Dean grabbed him and wrapped a hand round his mouth to quiet him. When Dean was sure Sam understood that Dean did not want to be discovered, he let him go and tried to explain what was going on. Sam as always interrupted and said Jim and Bobby should know immediately that Dean was alive, but Dean admitted that they knew already and Dad was, Dean sighed, angry at him. So he had to stay away until John calmed down but he promised Sam he would be around always and when Dad was away he would come visit, until he calmed down of course then it would all be back to normal. Dean smiled, and hoped that Sam would understand but unfortunately Sam did not understand and even though he agreed that it would be ok, Sam was sure that Dean was hiding something and was determined to find out why John was so angry that Dean had to stay away until he calmed down.
It was at this point that Dean said he had to go, someone was coming. Sam sadly watched Dean start to leave back though the window but it had started raining and Sam would have insisted that no argument could be this bad but he knew Dean would not listen so instead he said that they could go together then Dad would calm down faster. Dean stopped as soon as he heard this and told Sam very clearly he was not to follow and he was not to run away or Dean would never come back, did he understand. Sam nodded as the tears started again and Dean found that even now those puppy dog eyes still worked their magic. So he softened and said that this was safe for Sam and he was not to worry and keep studying and training, as Dean would be close by always, whether or not Dad calmed down. Sam not wanting Dean to go insisted that at least he should talk to Pastor Jim or Bobby downstairs, which again was answered with a clear No by dean. So Sam gave Dean his jacket and his hold all that Sam had insisted on packing and keeping with him since Dean had vanished and then Sam dashed over to his sideboard and brought out his secret stash of cookies. At that Dean rolled his eyes, he had been trying to break Sam of that habit, the cookies where always hard by the time he convinced Sam to eat them and this time was no different. Sam though was beaming with pride and happily announced that these where not his secret stash but all Dean's share of the cookies since he vanished. At that Dean nearly stayed, maybe he could explain to them but now someone really was coming and it did not sound like Bobby either. Dean climbed out the window and stood hugging the wall as Pastor Jim popped his head in to check that Sam was asleep. On seeing the window slightly open he went over and closed it, not knowing that standing outside just by the window was Dean.
Quietly Dean climbed down the wall and made it to Bobby's truck, and hid. His heart ached for the family he thought he might be leaving forever, but he knew that if or when John found him, he might not have a chance to say goodbye to Sam before his own father killed him, so this was his goodbye. He looked at the bag of cookies, they where old and hard but he took one out and bite it, suddenly it tasted good, it tasted of home, and of Sam and Dean realized that he had to make this right even if he died trying.
Bobby came out an hour later and left pastor Jim with the promise that he would not help John track Dean and that if he heard anything he would tell Jim immediately. Jim sadly watched the truck vanish into the night, and worried that on a night like this rain and stormy, he hoped Dean was somewhere warm and cozy. He berated himself for wishing John was somewhere warm too, very warm. Both Bobby and Dean thought the visit had gone without a hitch and that neither John or Jim would know Dean had been there, unfortunately they had left a rather large clue behind them and when John returned, he took one look and knew Dean had been to pastor Jim's.
Next Chapter: Hopefully (because this has taken on a life of it's own) Will it be Father against Son.