Do We Have A Future
Disclaimer: I obviously do not own Zoey 101.
Recap: "Dont ever touch me again!" I screamed and then punched him in the gut. I started to walk away.
"Thanks agian for saving my life Jackass!" I screamed. Sure I was still in pain and all, but not nearly as much as him. But what he said did hurt my emortionally. He still loved me. and he wants me to love him too. but i can't not this time. I kept walking and this time I went back to my dorm.
"Logan what was that about?" Chase aksed.
"Yea Logan, that was fucking weird" Micheal said.
"Im with them" Zoey agreed. Logan was sitting looking straight at them... smiling.
"We're talking again" He said giddily. If possible his smile just increased and got bigger and bigger till he couldn't smile any bigger if he wanted to. And I hate to say. It was kind of cute. Chase, Micheal and Zoey all rolled there eyes as the sounds of ambulance sirens were heard.
Chapter 2:
"There were places we would go at midnight
There were secrets that no body else would know
There's a reason but I don't know why.
I don't know why.
I don't know why.
I thought they all belonged to me.
Who's that girl?
Where's she from?
No she can't be the one.
That you want.
That has stolen my world.
It's not real.
It's not right.
It's not day.
It's not night.
By the way…
Who's that girl.
Livin' my life.
Oh No Livin' my life." I sung. The sun was falling, it was Twilight. The beach always looked the most beautiful at Twilight. And though, logically I should be in the hospital getting checked out, the same as Logan. I figured I'd just tuck it out, I was tough enough I knew it.
Three days ago, Logan told me he still loves me.
"Aww and we're back to the cheesy pick-up lines. If you're going to say anything to me. At least make it worth hearing" I fake yawned.
"Okay. You wanna hear something worth hearing?". I nodded
"Okay. I still love you" He said.
The words kept repeating in my mind.
"I still love you."
I wanted nothing more than to put them out of my head and end the guilt that has been pestering me for these past days. Telling me I should go see Logan in the hospital. I knew I wouldn't. There was no way in hell I'd go see that jerk off. Yes I still loved him. No I don't want to. Yes he loves me. So there should be no problem right? Just get over myself and love him right? Happily ever after. Wrong. He can't be forgiven for that. So what if he only wanted to not love me anymore, I don't want to love him. So we're even. He can deal with it. Better yet, I should go to the hospital. I should say those exact words from so long ago.
'Hate me. Hate me Dana, hate me"
I should just say that to him, and repeat myself until he cracks, cracks like I did.
"I can't!"
"I can't because I love you!"
I regret the day I said that. I've regretted it for Three years and 11 miserable months. I don't regret anything I did with him, no. I don't regret all the times we slept on this very beach. I don't regret all the times he'd sing to me, and I to him. I don't regret that at all. I don't regret him. Not at all. I just regret saying that. I regret not talking to him after. I regret not telling him lots of things after that. But there's one thing I regret above it all.
I took my head Mp3 and changed the song, sighing. So many regrets
"Sometimes I get to weird.
I even freak myself out.
I laugh myself to sleep.
It's my lullaby.
Sometimes I drive to fast
Just to feel the danger.
I want to scream
It makes me feel alive.
Is it enough to love.
Is it enough to breath.
Somebody rip my heart out.
And leave me here to bleed.
Is it enough to die.
Somebody save my life
I'd rather be anything but ordinary please." I sang with the song blaring through my head phones on.
"Dana! Dana!" I didn't hear the voice through the music, I only noticed someone was there, when sand came flying up into my mouth. I paused my music, a new song on.
"Logan's back from the hospital isn't that great?!" Nicole asked me. I just shrugged. Yes, it was great that he was alive. I knew he was fine though. Just means that he's back to pester me, and there's no way I'll let him.
"Dana, It's almost summer break, aren't you excited?" She was a curious one. I just shrugged again.
"I mean, Logan's invited all of us, including you to his house for two weeks, aren't you going to come?" Her sudden exclamation shocked me. No, No I was not going. I shook my head, indicating that no, I was not going to spend two weeks near Mr. I still love you.
"I knew you were going to say that" She looked very upset. "Logan said none of us could go, unless you went too." I glared at her, pretending it was Logan.
"Go tell Logan to get a friggen life. And that there's nothing any of you can do to make me go, I have prior plans and they have to be kept. And you're sad faces aren't going to make me feel guilty." I told her. I got up and walked away, back to campus. Back to my room, a month or so after that confrontation with Logan, I was assigned my own private room.
"Freak out let it go!" I said loudly as I shut my dorm door, more like slammed it. There was no possible way, I was going to go to. None, and yet… I was actually thinking about it. Tue it would be really hard to ignore him but I was strong I could do it. True I had other arrangements but maybe I could think of a plan. Two weeks wasn't a big deal. Two weeks of my summer vacation. Two weeks away, that wouldn't be so bad right?
'Wrong' a voice in my head protested. 'If you go, you'll have to leave early. Mom has to leave, that's the entire reason you're going home…'
"Well not the entire reason" I mumbled. "I do miss –"
'There's no point going.'
"But it would irk Logan so much. And it would make the gang to happy, they've wanted to see Logan's house for ages." I can't believe I was talking to myself. It was decided. I was going. I got out my cell phone and dialed home.
"Hello, Cruz Residence." I heard my mother say on the other line. I loved her voice, it was like a lullaby.
"Hi Mommy." I replied.
"Oh Dana!" My mom said happily. "How are you?"
"Alright, how are you guys?" I asked.
"We're amazing thank you, isn't that right?" I heard a voice on the other line and smiled.
"Glad to hear it. Hey mom, I was thinking about going to a friends for the first week or so of Sumer Vaca. Is that okay?"
"Yeah sure, just stay in contact." She answered. I could tell she was smiling.
"Thank you mommy." I smiled. "I'll talk to you later okay, Take care you guys." I hung up the phone determined to find one of the gang and tell them I was going to go with them.
"Chase!" I called. Chase turned around and looked at me surprised but came over anyways.
"Hey Dana." He smiled. I smile in return. I'd become distant from the rest of the gang over the years, there were so many secrets they didn't know.
"I heard you're all going to Logan's for two weeks." I said casually. Chase nodded.
"You were invited to of course, but Nicole told us you refused to come." He looked kind of sad.
"I changed my mind." I said. He looked up at me shocked. "I figured, I couldn't let you guys have all the fun. So I put off my other arrangements." Then suddenly he hugged me.
"Thank you Day-Day!"
"It's really nothing Chase." I laughed hugging him back.
"What's all this about?" I looked up and saw Micheal and Logan, Logan being the one who'd spoken, I'd recognize that voice anywhere.
"Oh nothing, just having just huggles." I replied, looking only at Micheal.
"Good news guys!" Chase said happily, un hugging me. "Dana agreed to come!" I smirked at their shocked faces and then Micheal was spinning me around.
"Really Nina?" He asked me. I nodded. He smiled wider and hugged me. "Yay! The gang back together again!" I smiled at his enthusiasm.
"I promise, I'll bring you some chips. There's this brand me and my mom always eat now, it's really good. If you like spice." I saw Micheal's face brighten.
"Well this should be interesting." Logan suddenly said, and I knew he wasn't talking about the chips.
"Yes. It should be."
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