The Life of Tommy Joe Ratliff
Chapter 4: Actually Happy
There are two parts of this chapter...
I decided I should break it up a bit, leave a cliff hanger... because I rock like that...PLEASE DONT KILL ME ;D

Adam's POV

I'm a nervous wreck, I really hope he doesn't notice... No Adam he is defiantly going to notice, look at you... you can't stay still; it's no wonder I kept Longineu and Monte by my side, they keep me at ease. Don't get me wrong I more then enjoy having Tommy around, but something in me makes me go crazy when I'm by myself with him. Nervous is a feeling I'm not quite familiar with. I haven't felt this way about anyone since BR...No I'm not even going to go there I thought to myself as I fidgeted uncomfortably in my oversized black lazy boy chair.

There was a knock on the door, and I knew it was time to get my game face on, and get these nervous feelings away. I'm aware of what I want; I'm just hoping he wants the same thing and I don't screw it up... I got up from my chair and walked over to the mirror to see if I was presentable... I should of done that a few minutes ago instead of laying around on my ass... I smiled at my reflection my hair was perfect not a spot out of place.. and my makeup glam and beautiful as always, my outfit was something black.. something casual, and comfortable... but nice on account of the evening I have planned out for us today... if everything goes according to plan. There was another loud knock on the door, and I knew Tommy good enough to know there was a smart-ass comment coming soon after.

"Hey glamglam princess, stop messing around with your makeup and open the door!"
"Oh just wait a damn minute" I yelled sarcastically.

"Hurry up and leave; shoo... out the window with you.." I was trying so hard not to laugh when I heard Tommy gasp from outside the door; granted I feel sort of bad now...but I was only joking around..

I smiled and opened the door to a now frowning and obviously upset Tommy.

I wrapped my arm around his shoulder and smiled even bigger.

"Who was that!" Tommy asked dryly looking up at me with hurt in his eyes...
"Why jealous?" I asked pulling him into a hug.
"No one was here.. I was just pulling your leg Tommy."

I feel really really bad now.. he looked so hurt... I should of known better...
I just wanted to hold him in my arms and kiss him..make him feel better... But I didn't instead I leaned forward kissing him on the cheek, and whispered an I'm sorry in his ear; grabbing his hand, and walking off...out of the house.. and into the city...

The walk was quite but I can tell Adam forgave me by the way he leaned comfortably into my side... The city past by us in a blur and he was all I could see... This is what I want... this feels so right... It has only been a few weeks... yet nothing was official... But I'm questioning if I even should... I looked down at the blonde beauty before me whom was silent and content..he looked up at me meeting my gaze and flashed me a smile. My mind was racing... B..but what if he isn't over Savannah!
Everything in my body tells me... that this.. this right now was right... Tommy in my arms... and the feelings I was having was true... Everything in that mans eyes seem so clear... so much healthier, and he seems so much happier... Come to think of it Tommy rarely drinks if at all anymore... Not only all of that but he even makes me happy... and makes the past seem like a distant memory... the pain...the blood.. and the tears long gone...

We were walking into the restaurant.. one of my favorite restaurants The Kalypzo(I was watching Pirates of the C what do you expect xD) to be exact... We received stares, and dirty glances from the hostess that seated us... and we smirked at each other as she walked away. We spent most of the time staring at each other, eating the food as it was given to us... When we were both finished eating I extended my hand across the table... and he took in his own... all was silent but a smile broke onto his face, and his voice broke the silence...

"Hey Adam." His voice was soft but teasing...
"What is it glitterbaby!" I questioned staring into his eyes... the beautiful pool of chocolate pulling me in...

"Truth or dare..." I chuckled in my seating finding it quite amusing and cute that he would approach a question the same way I have the first "official" day we met.. and when I mean official... I mean his face not being planted into a bar floor, and actually being able to talk... I pondered for a few seconds.. then smirked...
"How about dare.." I answered... knowing what Tommy had in mind...

"Hmmm.." Tommy was thinking.. but his eyes told me everything..
"I dare you to kiss me..."

Tommy said now kneeling on the seat of the booth and staring at my lips...
I leaned in closer closing the space between my lips and his, pressing them softly together, having them mounted as one... it was sweeter then last time... then I felt I smile creep onto his lips, and mine.. Butterflies went throughout my stomach and he pulled me closer, obviously a heat rising up between both of us...we were both no kneeling on the seat of the booth, our chests pressing against each other, our lips moving as one... People were staring, some in awe; and others in disgust... Okay maybe we were going a little out of hand with the PDA type of thing, we are practically on top of each other... I'm pretty sure they would react the same with if Tommy was kissing a girl...but not me but I didn't care.. So I deepened the kiss, pressing our bodies even closer together... loving the feeling that I have when my lips are pressed against his... and the way he makes me feel in general... right at this moment... I knew I seriously knew I wanted to be his no matter what... no doubts are in my mind... The only thing left to do was ask...

The butterflies that I felt from earlier started back up again... I giggled pulling away... knowing exactly what I wanted to say... but only managed to say.. "So..."
My hands were shaking and I couldn't even move... Tommy's hands grasped my hands... and sudden memories from the past rushed through my mind... all of the pain.. all of the bullshit.. all of the heartbreak... My head shot down and a twinge of pain hit my heart as his face, that assholes face burned and enveloped through my mind... making me remember...ever last detail... I really didn't want to get hurt again... he seem oblivious about me "secret" which was a shocker.. I don't know anyone who didn't know.. but yet again I was glad.. for more reasons then one.. I'd rather him not know... But was I really willing to take a risk.. take a chance... on trusting someone... with loving someone, and them loving me... was I really WILLING to take that chance..

I looked back up at that beautiful face that made my heart skip beats from the moment I met him... at that bar... the moment I walked through that door... the good memories enveloping the bad ones... and visions of Tommy, and the past few weeks together took over my mind... I don't know why I was having any doubts but I was...

He gave my hands a comforting squeeze, staring into my eyes full of concern...
"So, what!" He asked...
I mumbled some words that didn't make any sense, even to me..he dropped my hands... and cupped my face...
"Sweetie, you not making any sense... now again from the beginning." he commented soothingly rubbing soft circles on my cheek...
Sweetie! that's the first time he has ever called me something besides my name, well besides glam glam princess...

The one word has given me the confidence to say the words I've been itching to say all night, since the moment I walked out of the door...

"Will you be mine..."

I would love to put Tommy's POV in the chapter.. but..
it's not only the fact that I love cliff hangers..but my fingers really hurt...

so.. I'll make a chapter 4.2.. pleasee don't kill me...
I blame Carpel Tunnel xD...