Back with a new chapter, I know right FINALLY! this one was a lot harder then I expected it to be. This is one of the chapters I wanted to get done fast and apparently I didn't get it done fast enough.

Summary: Tehya has always dreamed about a white doe since a child. When she moved to LaPush two years ago, a wolf began to enter into them. What could this mean? And why is this Seth Clearwater suddenly glued to her best friend Shadi's side. Even more confusing is when she meets the hot-tempered Paul, and her whole world moves. So many questions and it seems like so little time. What she finds out will not only involve her but her entire family and her best friend.

Pairings: PaulxOc, SethxOc (More to come, but I don't wait to spoil it)

Songs I listened to for most of chapter:
Howl : Florence and the Machine.
Time of Dying: Three Days Grace

Chapter 3

When everything that ticked has stopped
And space stares all around,
Or grisly frosts, first autumn morns,
Repeal the beating ground;
"It was not death for I stood up" Emily Dickinson

The soft bed felt good against my now stressed body. My head leaned back against the pillow and I stared up at the ceiling, my mind still buzzing around what I had seen or actually heard today, what I had felt today. The danger had felt so real, the fear that had raced through my veins and clouded my mind; it had almost hurt to be in so much terror and still be alive. I still couldn't explain why I had felt that way or how I had even calmed down after that. Hearing a wolf howling hadn't helped at all either. It just made me realize that everyone had a right to be scared to walk into the forest. It wasn't really rare that there would be wolves in forests, but it was different hearing about them and actually seeing, well hearing one.

Once they had finally reached the house, both of us still a big shell shocked. Thank god dad was in the garage working on the car and Takoda had gone to the next door neighbors to hang out with their sons and daughter. I knew mom had to go in to work for a few hours, at the Quileute Tribal Health Facility as a nurse. It meant we didn't have to explain why both of our skin had suddenly gone pale. Though more noticeable on my light skin then Shadi's copper skin. We didn't say much to each other about what happened. I wanted to question her about why she had suddenly be drawn to it, but decided to save it for another day. There was too much was happening in one day. This had to be one of the strangest days I've ever had.

Shadi had gotten ready as soon as we reached the bedroom. She spent so much time here; we had an extra bed placed in my room. We shared my clothes drawer, two drawers were mine and two were hers. Her parents were always all over doing business, they were happy that she was with us when they were too busy to spend time with their own daughter.

She had dressed in some comfortable jeans, that weren't tight. She wanted his friends to like her; and she had to be comfortable if she wanted them to be comfortable around her. That's what she told me anyways. Also she pulled out a band tee, the band being one of her favorites and Seth's from what she told me. She put her hair up into a messy bun and didn't even bother to put make-up on. Well except for a dab of eye liner. I was surprised at 7:30 on the dot the door bell rang. Seth was punctual with time.

"Wow" I heard Shadi say as she looked at Seth. He had dressed casual as well. He looked almost exactly as Shadi except for his clothes being men's.

He looked like a thousand lights were flashing in front of him. His eyes were wide taking the image of my best friend in. It was the same look he had when he first saw her in class. Why was I suspicious of him again?

When he finally got back down to earth he commented on how beautiful Shadi looked. I think she nearly jumped out of her skin with excitement. Just before they left Seth stated that he would have her back by 11 o'clock on the dot. I would hold him to just that too. I had watched them leave from the front door before turning back in and heading up to my room to rest. My side still hurt from earlier in the woods when that branch had hit me. It was sore and no doubt would leave a nasty bruise in its place. I huffed and kept staring at the ceiling slightly bored. It was strange to have Shadi out, on a date. In the two years we've known each other we had always been together. People had thought at first we were long lost sisters, with Shadi inheriting qualities from my father. We knew everything about each other, we told each other everything. I was surprised we hadn't gotten sick of each other by now. At this point I didn't think we ever would, I hoped we never did.

There was a distant sound of pots and pans downstairs. Dad must be trying to cook something for dinner. TRY being the keyword here. I decided I should go help him, it was better than sitting here all night.

Dad had been grateful when I took over for him. He took a seat at the dinner table talking to me while I cooked some stir fry chicken and some Caesar salad for a side dish. If it was up to him and Takoda they would order a pizza or some hot wings, which was fine every now and then but not every night. Especially since mom had to work night shifts a lot. I heard my dad turn the television on and went straight to the news channel. Something he did every night. I didn't like to watch the news that much, way too much violence going on in the world. There was rarely anything good broadcasted on it.

"…a pride of cougars has been spotted at Olympic National Park, where there has been several vicious attacks and camp sites destroyed. Local rangers and hunters have set out to track down the cougars after one woman has been sent to the emergency under critical condition after being attac-"

See, nothing good ever seems to happen on the news.

I heard my dad sigh upon listening to the news. "I didn't think cougars traveled in prides."

"Well those ones do." I heard Takoda, who had just entered the room, joke.

I rolled my eyes at him; leave it to Takoda to make a joke out of something serious. Dad was seemingly thinking the same thing as he gave a playful whack to his head. I let out a small laugh.

"Anyways, Tehya how was the walk in the woods today?" He asked turning away from my scowling brother. "See anything good?"

I nodded. "Yeah I took a lot of pictures actually. It really is beautiful up there you know."

I didn't think it would be good to mention hearing the howl of a wolf to him. He didn't like the idea of going up there in the first place, no need to give him an actual reason to refuse our future plans on going. If there would be future plans. I had to admit hearing that wolf howl made the hair on the back of my neck stand up and a shiver to run down my spine.

"Yeah, I used to love it when I was a kid." He said softly a smile making its way to his face.

I nodded. He had told us all the time how much he loved it in La Push. He always mentioned how there was no place so beautiful to him. We had asked him many times why we never went to live there instead of where we would be living at the current time. His reply was always the same, "Maybe someday." Than someday had finally happened about two years ago. At the time we had been currently living in New Hampshire, one of the most beautiful places we had lived by far, which was saying a lot since we also had lived in Montana, Canada, Pennsylvania, Minnesota and the list goes on. La Push must have really meant something to my dad; we lived here longer than we did anywhere else.

"Where's Shadi?" I heard my dad ask curiously. "She's not here?"

I nodded pouring the stir fry sauce in. "No she's...on a date."

"A date?" He said shocked. "With who?"

"Seth Clearwater." I stated adding some cornstarch to the chicken and preparing plates for everyone.

He didn't say anything for a few very long seconds. "I knew his father. He was a good man. A very wise man."

I stopped what I was doing and looked over at my father. From the way he was using the past tense I concluded that Mr. Clearwater was no longer with us. A rush of sadness washed over me as I thought of Seth being a young man and without a dad. I couldn't imagine being the age I am now and not having my dad around. He was such a big part of my life.

"Well if Seth is anything like his father, than Shadi found herself a good kid there." He said smiling again.

I smiled at him before finishing up with dinner. My worries for Shadi were finally beginning to ease. If my dad thought he was a good guy then maybe he wasn't so bad at all. Not that I had any REAL reasons. I grabbed the plants and set them in front of my dad and Takoda. Bringing over some juice and silverware as well. I took a seat across from them. I heard them quickly mutter thank yours before digging into their dinner. I simple nodded at them before beginning to eat mine. It was almost hard to stomach the food. My thoughts kept diverting back to the woods today. The fear I had felt, my heart pounding against my ribcage; I could still remember the feelings so well. The fear hurt and I remembered I wanted to get up and move. Do something; it was better than just standing there. It felt like my whole body was being trapped inside of…well myself.

I could only think about having the feeling once when I was a little girl. At the time I was in school and I had just turned 13 that day. I was in my English class when the feeling hit me. It hurt so much to have to sit in my seat when I felt like running toward the closest door. I went to the nurse, who checked my temperature and told me to lie down on one of her beds for twenty minutes. I found out fifteen minutes later that a junior walked into school, a gun in hand. The week before he had gotten kicked off the football team, found out his girlfriend was cheating on him, his parents told him they were getting a divorce and his father had been sleeping around on his mother. He walked into the school; my English class was the first class next to the entrance. No one had gotten hurt since he forgot where the safety button was to switch it off. I still couldn't believe it when I heard it either. A couple weeks later dad had packed us up and we were off heading someplace else to start off new, again.

I never told my family about the feeling. It wasn't something I felt I had to tell them. After some years I began to forget it had even happened and blamed it that I was feeling ill that day. Then today happened; the feeling came back over me again. Except it felt a hundred times worse, the fear had put me on hyper defensive mode and I still felt in it. A sick feeling was bubbling in the pit of my stomach. I breathed in light breaths to keep the vile from coming up to my mouth.

"You okay Tehya?"

I looked to my left and saw Takoda looking at me worriedly. That caught my father's attention too as his gaze locked on with mine. I grinned widely making sure to show some teeth and nodded.

"Yeah why wouldn't I be?" I said even putting a small giggle in there for show.

He shrugged. "You just looked a thousand miles away at the moment."

"I was just thinking about if Shadi and Seth got together." I lied

"Oh honey, don't worry I'm sure it'll be fine. She's not going to forget about you. You two are too close to let a boy do that to your friendship." He explained.

"I know we'll still be friend." I said. "I know."

I looked down at my food which I barely touched, merely pushed around; it made it look like I at least had eaten a lot more than I did. Dinner went by a little more smoothly with me just listening in on my dad and Takoda's conversation about some football game. Afterwards I picked up their plates and washed them, dried them and put them away. Takoda went to the next door neighbors to hang out with the son and daughter there, the boy I guess has just bought some new videogame. While dad went into his study to get some paperwork for a recent job he had finished. I looked at the time to see it was only 8:45 p.m. I was still going to be alone wondering what happened for a few more hours. There wasn't even any homework to get done to take my mind off of the boredom.

I began watching animal planet for awhile; followed by drumming my fingers on the couch trying to make a rhythm, then slapping them on my knees. I never realized how bored my life was without Shadi always being there. I let out a long deep breath. This finally seemed to catch the attention of my father in his study.

"What's wrong out there kiddo?" I heard him shout.

I got up from the couch and walked to the door of his study. He was sitting in the seat, his eyes transfixed on the computer screen in front of him. I leaned against the doorway and watched him. He finished typing something before he turned around in the chair and stared at me questionably.

"Dad, why did you move away from here?" I said the question coming to me spontaneously.

He seemed surprised to hear my question, but he quickly covered it up and motioned to the couch in the room. I walked over and took a seat and faced him again.

"Why do you want to know that?" He asked.

I shrugged. "Just curious, it really is nice here when it doesn't rain all the time."

He chuckled and nodded in agreement.

"That's true. I grew up with it so I was used to the weather always being cold or slightly dull out." He started before leaning back in his seat. "I moved away when I was only 16, my father, had a disagreement with my grandparents and we moved, it hurt actually; I was very close with my grandfather. I wish you kids could have met him. I think you would have really loved him. Well we went to Fort Yates in North Dakota. I think I was there a week and starting a new school when I first met your mother."

I saw how he beamed at the mention of my mom, his wife. I smiled, it wasn't everyday you see parents like this. Every time they were away from each other and they happened to bring the other into the conversation they seemed to light up like thousand stars. It reminded me of Seth when he first saw Shadi today and also when he picked her up for their date. It was really beautiful to see that look and I felt a flicker of hope dwell in me. I hoped I would find a man that would look at me like that, as if I was the only girl in the whole world for him. That he would never even think about another girl but me. He would tell me he loved unconditionally and that I was the only one for him. I held back a sigh, since when had I turned into such a hopeless romantic? I tuned back to listen to my father go on.

"Well I guess you would call it love at first site. We went on our first date that day too. Two years later she was pregnant with you and a few months after that we got married." He said as if it was a natural thing to say and suddenly laughed. "I remember when we had to tell her father, oh boy I thought I was going to be killed and my body found years after they drained the lake. Then I told him I planned on marrying her and making her happy for the rest of her life. I told him I wanted his blessing but even if he didn't we planned on staying together. You know what he did?"

I shook my head.

"He smiled and then he laughed. He hugged your mother tightly and told her that he loved her more than anything in the entire world, and that he wanted to see her happy. She told him that I make her happy." He whispered the last sentence. "He knew how much your mother meant to me and he even helped with the wedding and walked your mom down the aisle and gave her to me." He paused seemingly reliving the memory all over again. I waited for him to continue.

"He made sure he was there for the birth of you. It was your grandmother, Maka, who gave you your name though. You were her first grandchild and she just couldn't stop saying how precious you are to her. It was a couple weeks after you were born though that we decided we wanted to move around a bit. Get to see the outside world more. It was hard at first. I had to work a lot of jobs to get some credibility behind my name." He continued on with the family story. I remembered mom telling me this story when I was a little girl. I remembered only bits and pieces though; it was so long ago that I had heard it. It was nice to hear it from my dad's perspective.

"It was awhile before we actually came back to see them again. I guess we realized too many things to see and it felt like we had such little time. We came back to make sure they were there for the birth of Takoda though. Maka was ecstatic to have a grandson too. Grandpa named him this time though. I remember me and your mother joking on having another that we would be able to name this time around." He stopped and smiled at me. "I think it's time to stop this rant. I have a lot of work to get done and I won't any done if I keep talking about this."

He laughed pointing the computer screen behind me and then waved me off. I chuckled back and stood up ready to leave him to his work, when I stopped in my tracks. I realized he had really avoided the question I had asked. He told me a simple answer without delving into it, which is rare since he is an avid storyteller about everything. A trip to the market can become an adventurous novel with my dad. A simple "my father having a disagreement with my grandparents," just didn't seem well like my father. I turned to look at him only to see him back at his computer typing again. I bite my lip curiously before shrugging and heading out of the room and making my way to my own.

I jumped onto my bed and hugged my pillow to my chest. Today was so eventful and my father adding to it as well. There was Seth, the wolf howl, overwhelming fear, and dad NOT delving. So many things were running through my head and I could feel a migraine forming just behind my eyes. I squeeze them shut and bring my fingers to them tightly, messaging them softly. The pain rang in my ears and my head begged for me to rid it of the pain. I huffed, loudly I might add, and laid my pillow behind me and rested my head against it. I was hoping a good nap would make it go away.

Pushing all the thoughts of today away I tried to make sure nothing popped into my head that would cause me to really think. The coolness of my eye lids felt good against my eyes that all of a sudden felt like they had been burning. With my eyes shut I watched the colorful shapes appearing behind my lids. The swirls of dark violent and occasional bursts of dark blood red and deep blue spots were hypnotizing. It was actually very pretty and so soothing. Eventually I started to feel doziness wash over me as the shapes seemed to beckon to me, to sleep. The weight slowly began to disappear from my chest, the migraine slowly becoming a distant memory to me. The blackness in front of me started to shape into light blurriness, as if the sun was slowly coming up and brightening everything around me. Then slowly, agonizing slowly, shapes began to take forms. I could see tree trunks appearing in front me followed by their green luscious leaves. Followed shortly by green lush grass swaying, yet I could not feel wind. A beautiful array of flowers were sprouting from the grass and I could suddenly hear a small creek in the distant, it slowly got louder till it felt like I could hear each splash that came out of it and bounced back in. The bird as it chirped lovingly to her young chicks. The flowers had begun to sway as well and a smell of fragrance began to fill my nose. It was beginning to override my nose as it became stronger and more alluring.

The skin on my body suddenly felt prickled and slightly cold, not bad cold but a nice warm like cold that made me wants reclose my eyes and enjoy it as it swirled around my body. The wind was just noticeably blowing; I knew now why the grass had been swaying. There were a thousand scents in it that had drifted with it. I inhaled a long breath letting it course through my entire body before letting it out slowly. It felt rejuvenating to feel it pass through my lungs and out again. The air was filled with so many things, warmth, honey, nectar and life. It was all so overwhelming.

Then the crunching of small dead leaves against something broke me from the scents that were alluring me. I saw the white doe make her way out of the forest slowly her head turning in all directions. Yet she seemed to pass my gaze and not even stop to recognize my presence. She bent her neck down and nibbled at the grass peacefully, walking while she ate. Every now and then she would lift her head to look around and bend back down. It was rather soothing to watch her. She seemed so free and worriless. Her white coat glowed off the golden rays of the sun and made her look angelic. I wanted to reach out and touch the shiny fur and see how it felt on my fingertips. My leg wouldn't budge though. I felt glued to the spot, it was cruel really. Seeing so much beauty around me and not being able to touch any of it. The colors of everything were more vibrant that any color I have seen. The green wasn't just any green; it was a bright dark yet light green and sparkled lightly from small dew drops lying on it. The brown of the trunks had small creases in them and made them look aged. The more creases the older it was it seemed.

Snap!

My breath suddenly hitched and I looked into the direction of green and brown as another color was added into the mixture. A grey mist was there, it borrowed some brown from the trunks as well. The mist strangely began to move toward the clearing where I stood with the doe. It was beginning to take a form of its own finally. A body shaped almost horse-like but four shorter legs were forming underneath it and not with hooves but it had paws. There was a bushy tail beginning to sprout from behind it and almost hitting the ground. It was walking now toward us, but it wasn't walking upright, it was crouching down. It fur giving it a natural camouflage to its surroundings. It was creeping on the doe.

No! Not again! Please run!

I screamed but no words passed my lips. My body was frozen in every way possible and it felt like torture. The creature was getting closer to the doe and my heart began to race again. I could feel the bubbles in my stomach and the aching in my legs that burned to take off. It was worse to watch the doe before me just stand there eating away like nothing was wrong. It was an animal it should sense danger from far away. Well danger was no longer far away and that doe was still not running. The doe's eye finally met mine for the first time; I felt a wave of emotions rush into me at once happiness, joy, acceptance, and the biggest being love. It was so chaotic and I didn't understand why I felt this love. Slowly everything started to fade away. The greens began to turn into a dark gray and lights grays. The trees began to dissolve into water and wash away. The sounds of the creek slowly became harder to hear, even when I strained to listen for it. The creature I could still see it and I felt something grab me just as it pounced toward the doe.

"Tehya! Wake up!"

It was Shadi.

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