Lily almost started laughing as she opened the school doors.

The air outside was amazing, she was able to finally breathe properly.

It was only five minutes before the school would officialy end for the rest of the school, but it was enough for Lily.

She turned to see Brian, shivering in the cold spring air.

"Aren't you cold?" He asked, turning to face her, his teeth chattering furiously. Brian's eyes taking in her thin leather jacket, the only thing keeping her warm.

"Not really" Lily shurgged, walking down the stone steps.

"You know if it wasn't for you, we wouldn't have won. I was litteraly useless."

"no your not, algebra's just not your thing, I guess"

"definitley, I barely understand it, I don't know how I'm going to pass all my tests with this stupid brain" Lily flicked her forehead, trying to look pissed off. There was something about Brian that she liked, it might be that he was just as nervous as she was usually. So she didn't feel alone. Also he didn't really bother her with questions, like people usually did when you were the new kid.

"I can…you know…always help you…if you need it..I mean you don't have to take my help..I mean why would you want to talk to me anymore then you have to…just forget about it" He was going red again, tomato red, it looked hilarious, the way it contrasted with his blonde hair. It was so sweet, how scared and nervous he was, just like a puppy.

Lily ran to catch up with him, spinning slightly so that she was standing in front him. He almost walked into her, but he jumped back just in time, before they were knocking into each other.

"It would be great if you could help me Brian, it's obvious that your really clever, specially compared to me"

Brian smiled at her, rubbing his neck and looking down at his shoes. He really needed to get some new shoes and clothes, Bender had made it clear that he looked stupid dressed like this. Wait, she's waiting for you to talk, he suddenly thought.

"are you sure, I'm probably not a good teacher"

"You explained that algebra really well, it's fine if your too busy or something like that, but it would be great to have some help.

"no, no, I mean I'd like to help…it's just only if you want to"

"You know were just going round in circles. We have maths tomorrow, maybe we can arrange to meet some time in the week, you know it's only Monday, we have the whole week to work something out. But you know that's only if you want to, I mean who would want to hang out with the strange girl"

Brian suddenly grinned at her and looked at Lily in the eye for the first time. "Who would want to hang out with one of the biggest geeks in the school"

Lily suddenly felt a small flutter in her throat, spreading down to her stomach. It was strange being so close suddenly as Brian stepped foreward. But because of her long silence, Brian seemed to loose confidence, like his answer had scared her, when in fact it had done the opposite.

His whole face sort of flattened and he stepped back. Not what Lily wanted, she liked it when he was more confident. She moved slightly and gave Brian a small smile, pushing the hair back from her face. "I do. See you tomorrow"

Lily turned slowly and started walking away. She had no idea what had happened to her, maybe it was the little talk with Allison or the argument with Bender, which might have given a shot of adrenaline or something like that. What ever it was she had a rush of excitement and confidence.

She carried on walking, her home was only twenty minutes away and it was nice to walk in this weather, it just felt good to have the wind push past her.

But Lily had to stop at the front door, leaning her head against it, listening to the weird sounds from within. How could she feel a stranger in her own home for the rest of her life, she needed to get away. Just like Allison wanted to get away from her parents.

Lily finally pushed the key into the lock and walked into the horrible house.

"Lily sweetheart is that you?" Her mom called from the living room.

"yeah"

"Come in here for a second, I need to talk to you". Uh oh, maybe this was the leaving conversation, maybe her mum would tell her that the relationship was over and it was time to find a new town. It would be bye bye to Allison and to Brian and a chance at a whole new life.

"What's the matter mom?"

Summer Tatley was sitting on the large black sofa, a cup of coffee in her hand and a phone in he other her. But Lily had seen this scene many times before and each time it was slighty different, sometimes alchol, sometimes a ciggarate, sometimes a magazine, it seemed to change with the boyfriend.

"Nothing, I just wanted to hear how your first day was? Did you see Allison?"

"It was alright. I hung out with Allison at lunch. Where's Howard?" The smell of tobacco and shoe polish was strangley missing in the house.

"Oh he's gone on a business trip for a couple days. Darling I also wanted to tell you that tomorrow I'm going to be going job hunting and then off with girls for a drink, so you'll have to get dinner for yourself."

"That's fine, I'm gonna go do some homework." Lily didn't really have any homework, it was only the first day and the teachers had been nice enough to give her a day to get use to everything. "Alright, dinner will be at six, I'm getting pizza"

Lily didn't know what it was about her mother, that made her presence so horrible. Her mom had usually been friendly on the outside, but on the inside it often seemed that she was just saying these things because she had to. She cared more about her friends and her recent love intrest then anything else and spent most of her money on just stuff.

Lily's room was her sanctuary, her place of safety, even if it changed every few months. The room was plain white and small, but it was comfy. Most filled with a double black and blue bed and a large wooden desk, covered in books. She was a huge Shakespeare fan, even though Romeo and Juliet often made her gag as well as smile.

Lily slowly walked towards her bed, kicking off her shoes and coat, while placing her bag on her side table. First days always made her feel tired.

The bed was amazingly comfy, it was easy just to fall asleep there and then, but Lily moved slightly, so that she was under the thick covers, pulling them straight up over her head. If she did run away with Allison, Lily would miss her bed so much, that would be the first thing she bought, or at least a really comfy sleeping bag.

But Lily couldn't fall asleep yet, she always had to write in her diary first. She had been writing in her diary since she was seven and had about twenty six diaries now. All full of every little thought she'd ever had.

Her latest one was black, simple, but along the corners there where small green ivy patterns.

"Dear Diary. Another new day, another uncomfortable day, except this one was different. Not just because Allison was there, although she helped incredibly, she made the day go quicker and it was nice to have someone there, who I knew. But I also met some new people, one annoying guy called Bender, who wouldn't stop pissing me off in English and a boy called Brian. He seemed so sweet and shy, like a small blonde puppy dog, but incredibly clever, he helped me in Maths and even offered to tutor me at some point. Well he offered it and then it go confusing and he became all stuttery, but I think we got a conclusion, of sorts. To be honest, I might have even been flirting with him, don't know why, but it felt natural.

I'm so tired right now and my mom has made me feel even worse, I don't understand why she does this to me, but she does. She makes me feel like were strangers to each other, you shouldn't feel that round your mother. That's why me and Allison have made a deal, were going to run away together, if her parents continue to ignore her and if my mum decides to move away once more, then I will leave her.

Night night diary."

She placed the diary back underneath her pillow and slid down further into the comfort covers. Into the wonderfull world of sleep.