A/N: Thanks to everyone who reviewed last chapter, and to everyone who just read it as well, I can't believe how many hits my story had in the past two days!

Also, I would just like to say that the song for this chapter is one of my all time favourites, and I recommend giving it a listen because, like everything by the Hush Sound, it's sort of epic. :D

You're the finest thing that I've done,

The hurricane I'll never outrun

I could wait around for the dust to still,

But I don't believe that it ever will

-Hurricane, The Hush Sound

November 30

I refreshed my memory by snogging Lorcan. I rather wish I hadn't bothered, because now I can't use the excuse of it just having 'been a while' and I had misremembered what kissing him was like. My first impression was spot on; kissing Lorcan was almost as exciting as kissing a flobberworm with a severe case of paralysis.

Almost.

We were up in his dorm, and the whole thing was completely exhausting. I was doing all I was capable of to try and illicit some sort of reaction from him, maybe get him to stop lying there so motionless that he might as well have been put in a full body bind. Unless I was so frustrated that I accidentally did body bind hm. Unintentionally. And wandlessly. And, er, wordlessly. Hey, I'm sure I'm quite capable…

I honestly think that he's just trying to be gentlemanly and not offend me by doing something 'untoward'. Which is perfectly sweet of him, and I appreciate that he has never once pressured me to do anything at all, which I'm sure is rare for a 17 year old boy who was been with a girl for over 8 months.

But I don't quite appreciate being made to feel like I need to start pressuring him. Is it so bad of me to want to progress a little further? Malfoy progressed further in, I would wager, less than a minute than Lorcan did the entire three quarters of an hour I spent in his dorm exhausting every ounce of energy I had in me. But there's the difference right there. Malfoy's certainly no gentleman.

Unless… What if Lorcan isn't being chivalrous at all? What if he just has absolutely no desire to see or touch my body? What if I repulse him? That's why he just lays there, because he can't be bothered to put any effort into fraternizing with a girl he finds less attractive than a blast-ended skrewt!

I can't believe I never thought of this before.

This is humiliating. All this time I innocently thought that he was looking out for my virtue… I should have seen the signs! No teenage boy is gentlemanly enough to not even try to cop a feel on his girlfriend when they're alone and said girlfriend clearly desires for him to do something.

What's wrong with me? I know I'm not a 'drop everything you're doing this instant and just stare at me because I may be a mirage' stunner like Lily is, but I'm certainly no troll! I'm passable! There are clearly blokes who find me attractive, like Cory Blyth who sits to the left of me in Divination and never stops trying to convince me that my future clearly holds the two of us shagging in various and numerous scandalous locations.

And though Malfoy doesn't miss an opportunity to insult my appearance or sunny personality, I'm not an idiot. Actions speak louder than words. I know he thinks I'm passable.

And even if my boobs aren't quite as big as I would like them to be compared to the rest of my body, and my stomach could be flatter, and I have fat days like I imagine everyone else does, I personally don't think my figure is anywhere near bad enough to make my boyfriend shudder and recoil!

Plus everyone looks frumpy in a Hogwarts uniform. They're hardly flattering. He shouldn't judge. I have to basically wear a potato sack to class everyday and try to look cute. It's a daunting task. I doubt he could pull off the whole men's shirt/awful skirt/ridiculous sock combo. No, he definitely could not! He is most definitely not in any position to judge me!

Okay I need to stop. I'm overreacting. He doesn't technically recoil, or shudder, or express disgust in any way. It's just that he does tend to express apathy. More often than not. Occasionally he is more 'in the mood' than he was today, but if I think in ratios, as I love to do, the number of times he gets into it vs. number of times he does not is certainly not looking good.

I'm starting to wonder what the difference is on the few occasions when he feels the need to sprint from the room. I'm worried that it's not me that's getting him riled up at all; maybe his mind is just wandering to earlier in the day when he was awarded house points or something.

Please, please, let my boyfriend consider me more alluring than house points.

I cannot concentrate right now. I am currently sitting in the Dungeon, pretending to take notes in Potions. Professor Quigg, who is a nutcase, thinks it is important to have weekly 'technical' potions lessons, where we generally all stare at her and not absorb a word she's saying about the theory of potion-making and various stirring methods and blah blah blah.

And yes. This happens weekly.

I believe right now she is 'explaining' measuring systems and how they have evolved over the years. It's like she's begging us to tune her out. If only we were actually practicing our potion-making right now – then I might be able to distract myself from Malfoy's eyes burning holes into my back from the other side of the room.

I've finally caught on that I should stop shooting him filthy looks. I was trying to telepathically convey the message that he was not welcome to stare at the back of my head; I considered it a violation of my rights as a woman and a sexual offense on top of that.

I failed.

He is clearly trying to rattle me and get under my skin, and I am not going to let that happen. I'm just going to ignore him. It's not like I can see him anyway. I'll just convince myself that he's not even in the room.

Malfoy is not staring at the back of my head, because yesterday he stood on top of the Slytherin table and announced that he was leaving Hogwarts to pursue his lifelong dream of becoming a hunchbacked leprechaun hunter, and he hoped that his fellow students would support him in all of his future endeavours.

He's still staring at me, this isn't working, maybe I should just leave school and become a hunchbacked leprechaun hunter-

Oh. That's interesting. Now he's taken to throwing parchment at me. How mature.

Perhaps I should read his note, not because I care what it says of course, because I clearly don't, but it would be rather rude not too, after he went to all the trouble of hitting me with it.

Okay I shouldn't have read it. I vow to, from now on, just do things that are rude and not think about it for another second, because my irritating 'proper up-bringing' has just caused me to read a note that declares:

Astronomy tower. Midnight. Or I'm telling.

SM

Right. As if. So not happening. He can't just keep using the same threats on me. It's not going to work twice. How daft does he think I am? How dare he threaten me again? I held up my end of the deal! Oh, that does it. I hate him. I'm gonna give him a piece of my mind. How does this sound:

I find your disregard for my intelligence intolerable, and am informing you that you will most definitely not see me there, nor will you tell a living, breathing soul a single thing, because you must uphold the Malfoy code of business interactions by accepting my first form of payment.

Sincerely,

RW

There. Slightly wordy, compared to his, but I think it will be quite effective all the same. Now I just need to toss it and have it land at least close to him, he is rather far away, and my aim is not exactly… Oh, whatever. It can't be that hard.

Okay, I threw it. Except… Okay it landed sorta close to him, closer than I expected actually, which is great, but it kind of hit Larry Bones in the eye, and he just yelped, and now Professor Quigg is…

Reading it…

Great.

A/N: Three chapters in less than 48 hours! Are you proud? I am! Thank God it's summer and I have nothing better to do, because I can't believe how fun and addicting it is to post a chapter fic! And it's thanks to everyone who is reading and reviewing, so please keep it up! :)