"Matt, wait a second, let me explain," Emily faltered trying to stay calm as she rushed towards him.

Putting the test slowly on the table Matt clasped his hands and looked up at her, but made no attempt to stand.

"Is it true Em?" he said in almost a whisper, his eyes riveting hers, his breathing shallow, as if awaiting a judgment.

Kneeling in front of him, Emily placed her hands on his knees. Locking eyes with him she nodded."Yes, it is. I'm pregnant." She could barely mouth the words; Emily bit her lip to stave off tears as she felt a multitude of emotions well up inside her. This wasn't supposed to happen this way; this is not how she wanted to tell him! In panic she searched his face for a reaction.

Blinking hard Matt swallowed, her words echoing in his head. It was true. The magnitude of what he had just learned crashed over him. The woman he loved, the person whose very life he cherished more than anything on earth, was telling him that he was going to be a father. Telling him that there was a tiny new life, sleeping inside of her. A life that HE was responsible for.

He wasn't angry; she didn't get pregnant on her own. Freaked out? A little, but nothing he couldn't get over. He adored her. Sure, they had never considered this might happen. Overwhelmed, slightly,in a good way. But, he was hurt. Very hurt. Why hadn't she told him she was late??

"How long have you known?" he said evenly.

"Matt- I just found out today- I swear," Emily said rising to sit in the chair next to him, her hand resting on his thigh. "That's what I was doing today- I took the test in the conference room bathroom. I had just taken it when Lia ran in and we had to take care of the hostage situation. I couldn't even let myself think about it, much less tell you until we got our job done."

Hearing this Matt felt a flicker of relief, ok, so it wasn't like she'd know for weeks. But still, she hadn't trusted him enough to tell him she even suspected she was pregnant.

"I wanted to tell you so badly, I was planning on making a nice dinner and telling you tomorrow" she said, instead of just springing it on you in the middle of the night after you've worked 16 hours straight. This is a little bit more important thing to bring up than what the next practical joke we play on Frank will be," she said with a slight smile, attempting a little humor.

Matt softened. He brushed her damp hair from her eyes. God she was beautiful. Wet hair, no makeup and she was still all he wanted. He took her hand, squeezing it gently. Emily turned to face him. They looked at each other, uncertain how to proceed, each knowing what the next question had to be.

Emily's mind was racing……it was now or never. She had to tell him- she wanted to be with him more than anything ever in her life, and she wanted this baby. With him. Fear reared up in her heart- did he want the same thing? It was now or never.

As she was opening her mouth to speak Matt suddenly blurted out "How long did you suspect it?" His voice was tinged with …anger?

"About 3 or 4 days ago. I gave it a few days, but my period isn't normally late. Yesterday I finally decided that I needed to find out for sure."

"Why didn't you tell me?????" Didn't you think I would care?? Matt was standing now, voice raised, his eyes narrowed.

"Matt- I, I didn't want you to worry, I thought it was just myself being paranoid" why should you have to deal with that????" Emily said, voice shaking.

"Because" Matt said, turning on her- "I'M YOUR BOYFRIEND THAT'S WHY DAIT!!! Don't you trust me?????" He was yelling now, face contorted with anger and frustration. "Did you think this wouldn't mean anything to me??? We're supposed to be partners- that means we TRUST EACH OTHER COMPLETELY! I even asked you if you were ok, I could tell you were thinking about something but instead of TRUSTING ME YOU LIED AND SAID IT WAS NOTHING! THIS SURE THE H3LL ISN'T NOTHING! Matt wheeled around slamming his fist on the hard oak of the front door.

Stunned, Emily stood rooted to the floor, holding her hand over her mouth, feeling as though her entire world was slipping through her fingers……… she was driving him away! Her self doubt, her fear of becoming vulnerable again was causing possibly irreparable damage to herself and Matt. "NO- her mind screamed silently, NO!" You're going to lose him……..just like the other times..instead this time another life swung in the balance...QUIT DOUBTING YOURSELF AND TELL HIM WHAT HE MEANS TO YOU!"

"Because- I WAS SCARED!" she sobbed… "Scared you might not want the same things I do!!!"