I woke up again from a long nap; it was 6 am so I figured that I would just stay up and wait to go to school. I didn't want to- I felt sick and disgusting, I honestly just wanted to curl up and die. I logged onto my facebook and turned on my chat. It was still a bit early so I figured no one was on. I saw one person was though- Mike. I clicked his name and debated weather or not to try and see if he was really there.
Tina- hello?
Mike- G'dmorning
I rubbed my eyes because they were still dilated
Tina- Why ya up so early?
Mike- I had a bad dream and couldn't get back to sleep- I know… it's pathetic but it was really terrible. What about you?
Tina- No…that's not pathetic it's…understandable. I hope your alright, I had the same problem but… it wasn't really a dream it was my reality.
Mike- What do you mean?
Tina-…uh…nothing just forget it I'm just being stupid
Mike- Look… you should talk to me because I really don't talk to anyone and I wont tell anyone. You can trust me
Tina- …I trust you
Mike- Then …tell me.
Tina- Something happened, something so terrible I don't know how to even explain it to myself let alone everyone else. Has that ever happened to you, your scared that people will judge you if you tell them… or will think of you differently? I don't want you to think of me any less Mike… I need you to…not tell anyone, I need you to understand.
Mike- Tina... I promise.
Tina- Mike… I was...
I was raped, Mike.
Mike-….Tina….
Tina- you don't believe me...
Mike- are you …oh my god are you serious?
Tina- I wouldn't lie…Mike please understand
Mike- You have to tell someone Tina. You have to… oh my god, are you alright? Are you …I mean do you need anything.
Tina- Mike…no, no, no, no, you promised you wouldn't tell anyone so don't… no I'm not okay I feel so insanely terrible its killing me. I need a friend.
Mike- What does Artie say?
Tina-….Artie… doesn't know.
Mike-…who did it Tina?
Tina- I can't tell you.
Mike- Tina…. Do you know…who did?
Tina-...I do. I just… I am scared. I don't know what to do.
Mike- Let me pick you up…in about 30 minutes. We can grab a coffee before school and talk. I'm your friend Tina- ever since last year… and no matter what I will be here for you. I promise.
Tina- Thank you… Ill see you in a little
Mike- Welcome.
-Mike Chang Offline-
I took a deep breath and started to cry. That was the hardest thing I have ever done in my entire life. I took out my phone and opened it- I had 4 new text messages from Artie. Asking where I went after I said goodbye in the hallway. He always says he loves me at the end of his messages. I clicked 'reply' and sent him a message
"I'm fine Artie…I just got picked up. I love you so much and I am sorry for the way I have been acting. Thank you for understanding" I sent it and got my shoes and sweater on and sat back on my bed waiting for Mike. My stomach cramped and my eyes watered.
"Just another day- finish it and it will be all over" I said to myself. My phone buzzed and I opened it.
"I will always understand. I promised to always be here for you and I will be no matter what. I know there is something you aren't telling me- but when your ready I will listen. See you later. Love you Tee" I closed it and shut my eyes.
In those 30 minutes of waiting for Mike… I thought of 1,000 ways…that night could have gone differently