So...I had planned to put this up soon as a big thank you for your love with the reviews and alerts, but I didn't have time this week. I was late to school a day and forgot my project and I had forgotten it Monday so I finally got it in yesterday. My sister's being annoying and I found out I might not be able to go to Miami for my 15th this summer as planned :[. I got that news along with the news that my best friend won't be here next week. So I'll probably update twice next week. Today's also Friday the 13th. Whoo scary...ha. Anyways, let's just hope this unlucky day will actually make my story lucky. Haha. But enough of my ranting...Here you go. Peyton comes in this, and let's find out why she left our poor blue-eyed, brooding blonde, hm? :]

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Last time: "I'm sorry." He said softly, addressing Lucas but answering Nathan's question also. he talked once again, as if he thought one of us misunderstood. "There was nothing we could do for her baby." He nodded grimly to us and turned around, making his way back from where he came.

A nightmare. Though it wasn't. It was an emergency that couldn't have been helped. And now a life was gone due to it.

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Secrets Told

Lucas had left as soon as the doctor was gone. I don't blame him. He had just lost the love of his life, metaphorically of course seeing as she didn't accept his offer for marriage and now he had lost his child due to an accident. A child that was no more than 3 months into the pregnancy.

I wanted to run too. That was what I did anyways in the past. I always ran, at least, it seemed like I always did. I looked at my watch and it was almost nine now. Haley and Nathan had gone to see Peyton first. I had suggested it. Lucas was gone and I knew he wouldn't want to face his ex blonde fiancé at the moment. And I...Well, I didn't even know why I didn't want to do in. I was scared of what I might find. My blonde friend bruised up so bad I wouldn't recognize her. Or maybe she'd found out already and be upset and closed herself away as always. Plus, I wanted to be the first to wait for Lucas if he came back. I wanted to make sure he was ok, of course, in a situation like this no one's ever "ok" per say. I know I wouldn't be.

This was something I wouldn't wish to anyone. Maybe Victoria, but it's not like she even wanted me in the first place. I ran a hand through my hair and fidgeted in my seat. I couldn't pace around anymore since it was hurting my legs from standing since I basically got here but I couldn't sit still either. I checked the time on the clock on the wall across from me for what seemed like the hundredth time and finally, the two people I was waiting for showed up.

I almost knocked the chair over in the process of dashing up and I almost ran towards them.

"Well? How is she? How does she look?"

Haley shook her head softly and she looked tired from all that was going on. "She's beat up, not too bad. She's ok. But, uh, we accidently let it slip about the baby. Apparently she didn't know." She stole a glance at Nathan and it was probably him who let it spill. I didn't like him for it, but over all, i was happy he did. That way I wouldn't have to be the one to break my best friend's heart. My ex roommate looked at me again. "You might wanna go see her. Luke come back yet?"

I sighed and shook my head sadly, stealing my own glance towards the hospital doors and then back at my friends. "No."

Haley nodded sadly and ran a hand through her hair. I hadn't heard him talk almost the whole time here, but Nathan finally spoke up. "Brooke, we can't stay. Jamie's with Dan and we need to get him and get him into bed. Maybe tell him what's going on. But, I don't think we will."

I shook my head. It was too early to tell a little sweet boy like Jamie something horrible as this. "No, it wouldn't be good now. But thanks for telling me and all. I'll, uh, I'll call you if Lucas comes back."

Haley nodded and hugged me once before pulling away and then taking Nathan's hand. "Alright. I'll see you later." She said, and it felt as only a second had gone by before they were gone and out the door. I took a deep breath. This wasn't going to be easy, but I had to do this. Peyton was my friend and we promised to be there for each other. And right now she needed me the most. I already knew what room number she was in since Haley and Nathan had gone first and told me.

I knocked once on the door and when I entered, it was dark in the room.

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She was sitting on the bed, her head against the headboard and her cheeks were stained with tears. Her face was only a couple bruises as well as her arms. I figured the parts with the most bruises would be her stomach. I hated to see what that looked like. I had to stop myself from turning away because I never really saw her like this. It was like a totally different Peyton than the one i knew.

"Hey."

It had been Peyton that had spoken. Her eyes we closed, but apparently she had heard the door open and the click-clack that my heels made when I walked in. I crossed the couple steps left slowly and bit my lip softly, standing almost over her. "Hey, P. Sawyer." My voice sounded hoarse. It was probably from seeing her like that, it always made my throat close up.

Peyton opened her eyes and looked at me. Her eyes were red and looked sad. They looked empty and I couldn't help but feel my heart drop once again.

"He's gone." She whispered and for a moment I thought she was talking about the baby. "Lucas is gone, isn't he?" her voice was still low and in a whisper and sounded empty like her eyes looked.

I nodded slowly and walked to the chair, taking it and moving it so it was beside the bed before taking my seat upon it. "Yea. He left twenty minutes ago I think." I confirmed her thoughts.

She merely nodded, fixing her stare upon the ceiling above her head and I bit my lip. We stayed like this for a good three minutes before it got agitating to the point where i had to say something. "How you holding up?" I said softly. I wished she would've said 'Oh, I'm fine, Brooke. Ya know, getting hit by a car and all doesn't affect me at all and losing a baby is a regular basis thing for me'. That would've been better than her just shrugging and keeping her stare on the ceiling. Being like that wasn't Peyton, but the sarcastic remark was.

I sighed, looking at her and took her arm gently, leaning forward in my chair. "Peyton, talk. Please?"

She sighed merely looked at me once again, looking at me for about probably thirty seconds and I saw her eyes water up. "I lost him, Brooke. I lost him." she said softly and I saw the tears brimming over and one spilling onto her cheek. I shook my head and held her hand. I wasn't going to let her break, best friends don't do that. It's always been Hoes over Bros for us. And it would always be.

"No you didn't, Peyton. Lucas still loves you more than you'll know and he just can't live without you. I've seen his place and everyhting and it's just a hard sight to take in because-"

She shook her head, her eyes filling with more tears. "No. Not Lucas. The baby, Brooke. I lost him. I lost him because I was being careless and I couldn't take it. I lost him because I'm not fit to be a mother."

This time I shook my head. "Stop it right there. You would've been a great mother, Peyton. We both know that."

"No we don't. I probably would've been the worst mother. The one making her child listen to 'emo' music or whatever Lucas calls it and then I wouldn't be able to take care of my baby."

She was starting to go to hysterics. This wasn't good. I needed to stop her before she rambled to the point where she wouldn't stop. "Peyton, you would be able to. You would've gotten your motherly instincts and they would help you through out it all, plus, you would've had Haley and me. haley having more experience, but all the same. You would've been great."

She sighed. "Yea, but Brooke, I broke it off with Lucas. I would've been a single mom, and Lucas would be in the baby's life, but I still would be a single mom."

"And a great one. I'm telling you." I tried to reassure her. "A lot of kids from single parents turn out great. But Lucas would've been in their life, as you said. So the baby would've been even better."

"I still would've have been as great Jake." she mumbled and for a second I had to stop and think to see if I had heard her right. Jake? Jake Jagielski? It must've been him. I didn't know any other Jake. But he hasn't come up in any of our conversations since Junior year in high school, back when she was dating him. Needless to say, my curiosity got the better of me and I dropped the conversation we were just having and moved onto the topic that's burning a question in my mind.

"Jake? How did he come into all this?"

She looked like she wanted to take it all back adn slid down into her covers a bit. She pretended to yawn softly and fidgeted with the blanket over her. "Nothing, I was just saying. It's nothing. I'm tired, Brooke."

That was her lying voice. I could tell. I gave her a look, let go of her hand and crossed my arms over my chest. "Peyton, what's Jake got to do with all this?" I was going to get to the bottom of this. And i saw by the way she looked over and then down that she knew it too. It was only a matter of a couple minutes, 10, give or take, that she would tell me. I raised an eyebrow, tapping my foot on the floor as I waited. I suddenly felt like a mother reprimanding her child for taking a cookie out of the cookie jar and waiting for them to hand it back and walk into the living room for a time-out.

"I-Jake..Well. Ok, here it goes. But you have to promise not to interrupt, ok?"

I could tell this was going to be long. Why else would she say that. I uncrossed my arms and nodded, leaning back in my seat. I suddenly felt back in high school, sharing secrets and it didn't feel like we were actually in the hospital for her being hit by a car and that she had just lost a baby. But, of course, it was still there in the back of my mind.

"Ok, well. I recently found out Jake was back in town-"

"Oh my god, He is? Why didn't you say anything?" I interrupted and earned a glare from her. I shrunk in my seat and nodded. "Sorry. Go ahead."

"Like I was saying, I found out Jake was back in town. Of course, I went to go see him. Jenny has gotten so big. She's a year older than Jamie and is the cutest thing." I raised an eyebrow and she remembered her story. This time, she nodded and sat up a bit in the bed she was stuck in since she was hooked up to IVs and monitors. "Anyways, I went to go see him one day. We talked, had lunch, the whole shebang. I told him I was pregnant and engaged to Lucas. It looked like his face had fallen, but he told me he was happy for me. I asked him about his love life and he said he didn't have anyone special. We kept talking and all and we were back at his house before I could count the seconds or keep track of the time. He gave me this look, the look he always gave me in school. I knew what was going to happen but i didn't stop it, Brooke. I let him kissed me and I...I actually kissed him back."

She bit her lip and I knew there was more. "I stayed longer than i expected to." I knew what that meant. "And it continued like that for a couple weeks, and the weeks turned into a month. I feel so ashamed of it, Brooke. I knew I was engaged, and I love Lucas, but I don't know what came over. It was just like, I don't know. Like I was trying to make up for those years he wasn't around and I guess a part of me still loves him or something. He knew my wedding was coming up soon and then decided one day to just get up and leave town again. He told me and I couldn't see him leave again, but I had to." She stopped and I sat there. I would've never guessed Peyton would cheat on Lucas. It was true, Lucas cheated on me with her. This time, she actually cheated on him. I couldn't get over that. And it wasn't a kiss, it was the whole thing. And with Jake. I never figured him to be the type, but I guess people prove you wrong. I had thought that was the end of the story, but she started talking again.

"That's why I couldn't marry Lucas. I couldn't live with that. It was just too hard. I couldn't be standing there when He told me he'd love me forever and would always be honest with me; never leave me or do anything. And here I was. I had hurt him and I didn't tell him. But it would've been worse if I had told him while we were married or engaged. I mean, married is for your whole life. Engaged is about to be. I guess I could've always broken it off, but like I said, I still loved him and couldn't bare to just leave him. The sad part is, I don't regret it. I feel ashamed and guilty, but I don't regret it."

I sat there still. I hadn't moved. For those of you following along, Peyton, my best friend, had slept with Jake. Not once or twice, but during the time span of a full month. She's pregnant and engaged. Lucas doesn't know any of it, and apparently I'm the first to know. Not to mention she just left Lucas at the alter for it and hasn't told him why she left him. Yea, God's out to get me. I know it.

"Peyton..." I couldn't find the words to describe what I felt inside. In a way, it didn't exactly shock me. I mean, I knew she was capable of this, but I still didn't think that she's cheat on Lucas. That's the part that won over me. I never thought Jake would do anything either. I also felt a bit of rage because I knew how Lucas felt, being in the dark about something like this. Of course, I wouldn't tell him if Peyton didn't want me to and the rage was buried up. "Peyton, why? Lucas loves you. I mean, I just don't understand. Please fill me in on that." Those were the best words I could think of. Anything else would've been too harsh or too soft.

She shrugged, looking down and playing with the blanket over again. "I don't know, Brooke. I told you. It just...happened." she said softly. Yea, I bet.

I sighed and ran a hand through my brunette hair, looking at her. I could never understand why someone would cheat on their boyfriend or girlfriend or whoever it was. I don't think I ever would. To me, I guess it was just from the prospect of seeing it though the way of already being cheated on, that I could never do it. I saw it just as unfaithfulness and a way that someone wasn't satisfied with their relationship. Much as I hated to admit it, I also saw it this way for Peyton. She was my best friend, yes. She had been there for me and vice versa, of course. But I still couldn't see how she could do it. I just, I didn't even know at the this point.

"Say something, please, Brooke?"

I didn't know what to say. There was so much, yet, if I said anything, it'd just hurt my friend. Or I could've gone the other way around and tried to comfort her. She would have seen through that though, and that wasn't how i felt. I wish it wasn't me. At this point I wished I wasn't Peyton's best friend, that I didn't know Lucas. That I didn't know anybody and never lived in Tree Hill. All it's done is cause me trouble; the town that is. It was like my tongue was frozen with words I wanted to say but didn't. I just shook my head instead, starting to get up. "I don't know what to say, Peyton." I bit my lip. I couldn't take anymore, not today that was. "I, um, I gotta go." I managed to get out.

I placed a hand on my head as if I had got a headache, though it wasn't the case. Lowering it, I made my way out of the hospital room. Out the door i went, but not before I heard Peyton call my name out once almost softly then quit. My intention was to get out of the hospital as soon as I could and I reached my goal three minutes after getting out of the room my friend was in.

I wanted to call Lucas. To tell him everything I had just learned. My hand reached for my phone in my pocket and I was almost at the L in my contacts before realizing what I was doing. This was Peyton's battle. She had to tell him, not me. I knew I wouldn't be able to keep my mouth shut for very long, and that meant Peyton had to act fast. I bet almost a 100% she knew that too. She knew me. I could keep secrets, but not something like this for so long especially if the person I knew was involved and didn't know it. I let out a soft sigh, putting my phone back and starting the my car I had gotten in. This was a hell of a day. The sad part was, I knew this wouldn't be last of them.

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WHOO! :] I'm finished! haha. Like I said, I was planning for this to go up sooner. So sorry about that. :] Um, this is by far the longest time I've worked on for a chapter and the longest one yet ha. Usually I'd finish it in a night or two days. But I've been at this one for i think today makes three days. Anyways, I'll try to get the next one up soon.

Hint: It's gonna be Lucas' POV. :] Ain't that exciting? Haha; knowing someone else's thoughts besides Brooke. Alright, enough of my ranting. Leave me some love, won't ya? ;]