How To Become A Girl
Chapter Four
Ow Ow Ow...Damn! Did that hurt or what? I slapped my forehead and massaged it. I'm having a really bad migraine, you know? I put my arms back to my sides frustratingly when I realized that nothing will make it go away at this point. Unless, I take some painkiller or something. Yep. Probably the best idea.
You know the worst thing about having full mirrors right across your bed? Your state in the morning will surprise you more than the scariest of movies.
"AAAHHH!!" I just didn't see myself naked. I was in bed, alone. How could've I possibly? When? Who? What in the fucking world happened last night?! Ugh. I don't like this. "Oh! My! God!"
Good thing I was able to wrap myself with the comforter before Emmett literally barged in my room.
"What the hell, Bella?" He asked frustrated that I disturbed him with what he's doing. Then his eyes widened with realization. "Holy crap! Are you naked underneath that thing?!"
"Em! I have no idea how this happened! I just woke up and ooowww! Damn it." My free hand flew to my forehead. God knows that I never sleep without anything on.
His booming laugh was shaking my room. "Jazz! Bella just got laid!"
"Huh? What?" He peeked in my room. And cue laugh. "Who was it, Bella?"
"I have no idea. I was just swimming last night. With my clothes on. And then I...I really can't remember anything clearly. I remember, I think Edward was there. I remember drinking two more glasses of that yummy red drink. And then I remember he pushed me back into the pool with him. And then...crap. I can't remember anything anymore!" I said, frustrated.
"Wait? Edward?" Emmett looked back at me.
"Maybe. I don't know, Em! I can't remember!" I felt hot tears rush down my cheeks.
Then their faces became serious.
I sat back down on the bed.
"I'll call him." Jasper turned away.
"Damn it, Em. It was my first time. I...I could've had my first kiss last night." I sighed. I wiped the tears away. Stupid traitor tears! "And I can't even remember anything clear! Could it be you or Jasper?"
"Impossible. I didn't even get drunk last night. I was with Rosalie and Jazz and Alice all night. You and Edward were missing, though. I thought you went to sleep early. Because you weren't in the pool when I checked." He explained.
"Jesus. How could I've done that?" I turned to him and Jasper entered the room.
"He's not answering his phone. I'm sorry, Bella." He shook his head. "I'll try to head over to the Cullens later today."
I sighed again. "Just go. I'll get dressed for the day."
Jasper threw something on the bed. "It's for the headache."
"Thanks." I smiled at him and then took a bath.
So, suspect numero uno is Edward Cullen. Since I trust my besties, I'll believe what Em said although that doesn't flick them off my list. Could it be anybody else? I only remember Edward. Maybe it is him. Oh crap. I do remember that there was something going on. I remember that part. Of course, I would remember that part because every touch engulfed me in flames. I was like being electrified the whole night, last night. I just can't remember with who and how, you know, like, details...Damn it.
I hopped off the tub and noticed my clothes on the counter beside the bathroom sink. It was like one wet blob. I put it in a bag and asked Dorota to send it to the cleaners. I finished dressing up quickly. Just in my loose jeans and shirt.
Seriously? How could I have? I've been protecting my cherry for years and what? It's just going to be popped by some guy I barely even know! How could I, Bella? How could I? I feel disgusting. It's really frustrating, too. To not know who did it and I really feel like it is Edward because he was the only one who was with me in the pool. And I'm still holding him responsible for the fact that he gave me two more rounds of my favorite drink.
Just then, Alice plops down on the couch next to me.
"What are you doing here?" I asked her.
"Ouch, Bella. I know we haven't really known each other so much but I like you and it hurts when you look at me like I'm some stranger." She looked at me with a sad face.
"No. That's not what I meant. I mean isn't it too early for you to be here?"
"Actually, no. And it's not the morning anymore. It's way past lunchtime. I was actually wondering what kept you in that room of yours." She shook her head.
"I, um, I was just trying to figure out something." It was the truth.
"Oh. You were also gone last night. Is there something wrong, Bella?" This time, worry covered her cute little face.
I contemplated if I should tell her. I mean telling Jasper and Em wasn't really that helpful. And besides, Alice is a girl. Maybe she'll understand to a certain degree or something.
And then my thoughts tried to remember what really went on last night. Hmmm. Party. Drink. Party. Drink. Edward. Drink. Jazz' folks. Edward. Bar. Edward. Drink. Edward. Drink. Edward. Emmett. Pool. Swim. Guests leaving. Attempt to go up my room. Edward materialized. Pool again. Drink. Edward. Drink. Edward in the pool with me. Blurry vision. Somebody held me while I danced my way up my room. Bathroom with some random person(or maybe it was Edward). I didn't care. I don't know why. Bed and he popped my cherry. Sleep.
Oh God! For the first time ever I felt like a slut. And this is why I never liked guys in that way. They tend to use girls to their advantage.
I didn't even know if I liked Edward that way!
My own tear ducts betrayed me again.
"I'm so sorry, Bella." Alice hugged me.
"No, no. I'm fine." I wiped my tears away.
"I can see that you're not. Do you want to talk about it?" She asked.
Maybe Alice is my only chance. I'd really rather not talk to Dorota. "Um. Do you remember who I was with last night?"
"Yeah. Edward. You were having a pretty good time last night in the pool." She almost giggled then remembered to stay serious.
"Well...I might have slept with him. I don't know. I just woke up naked today and I don't ever go to bed naked. I wouldn't even care if I slept in my wet clothes." I dropped my head and fiddled with my fingers.
"Oh. Well, maybe he removed your clothes and didn't know what clothes to put you in so he left you...naked." She murmured the last word, also unsure.
"Maybe. But I remember the sex, Alice. And last night, I might've had my first kiss and my first ever sexual intercourse and I can't even remember what exactly happened." I looked back at her.
"Oh my god." She shook her head. "Are you on pills or something?"
I wasn't. And that just made the situation a little worse.
It was my turn to shake my head.
"Oh my god. Do you feel uneasy? Are you nauseous? Dizzy? Those are usually the first signs. I better go and get you something." She hopped up and grabbed her bag.
"First signs of what?" I looked at her with worry.
"Pregnancy." And with that one word she was running already.
"Wait. Alice! I'm in perfect shape to have safe...sex last night. I'm cool with my menstrual cycle." I told her. "I guess we'll figure out in a week."
She sighed. "I really want to help you, Bella."
"I'll just have to go and deal with it for now." I looked at her and smiled, "Thanks again."
"Anytime, sweetie." She hugged me again. "If it's any help to your little investigation, we left with Edward last night. Well, this morning actually. And he was drunk. Not crazy drunk, though. Just drunk, drunk. And he might not remember anything at all, too, if the alcohol has triggered his brain."
"Huh. Thanks." It is possible that he finished me off first before he went to go home. So...we were both drunk. So...we might not have any clue of what happened. So...but still! He took almost everything from me and he walked away. With it. He walked away from the situation. He fucking walked away! Gentlemen, from what I learned from my buddies, always respects the ladies. He didn't treat me like a lady. Well, technically speaking, I'm not that much of a lady. But I am one. I'm born as a lady. But...you get what I mean. He didn't do it right. Then I'm not returning the favor to him.
Good thing we're not in Forks or else this thing will spread like gossip. Well, it will turn into a gossip eventually. If Charlie ever finds out, he will kill me!
Oh damn! I bet Charlie called last night! What if...Edward answered the phone call? Oh God! Please, please, please, NO. I stood up from my couch to get my phone on the bedside table. There was only one message. From my father. Charlie apologized for not being able to call. He had to some work. I replied that I was completely fine and asked how he is. There was, however, a note flashing on the screen of my phone that says, "Sorry, Bella."
Huh. Could it be? Well then, sorry my ass.
I returned back downstairs and Alice was talking to Jasper.
"Bella, Jasper's going to Edward now. Do you want to go with him?" Alice said over Jasper's shoulder.
The last thing I want to see now is his goddamn face! Hell! I don't even care if he's uberly hot! "I might combust in anger if I see him. So, no. Not now." I shook my head and sat back on the couch.
"Okay. I'm sorry. I'm heading over to the drugstore. Wanna join me?" Alice invited.
Did I need anything from the drugstore? Pregnancy tests? Just in case? Yep. Definitely.
I nodded at Alice and Jasper dashed out of the door. I rode with Alice. She was driving a Porsche 911 turbo. Damn, rich kids.
"Are you alright, Bella?" She asked sweetly when she turned off the engine.
"I'm fine. I just really can't get over what happened last night." I shook my head hopefully pushing away the blurry images.
She got off the car and I followed her into the store. She seemed to be heading to where I was heading. I let her follow and guide me through. Pregnancy...Pregnancy...Pregnancy. I searched for it among the shelves. Ha! There it is!
I got one and turned to see Alice smile at me.
"I was hoping you actually get one." She nodded.
I looked at her hands. Pills. I might as well get those, too. She saw me eyeing her merch so she handed it to me and asked for a new set.
"Thank you, Alice."
"No problemo."
"So, Alice...Do you like Jasper?" I narrowed my eyes at her and she blushed.
She nodded.
I didn't feel bad towards her. I usually did to anyone who was dating my bestfriends. But there was something about Alice that wouldn't let me feel that towards her. Maybe it's how caring she is.
"Jasper's great." I told her as we paid for the stuff.
"I know. He's so awesome. Last night, he kissed me on the cheek before we went home..." She squealed and then continued to tell me about last night. She dissected every action from Jasper and told me. It was kinda weird at first. Listening to someone speak about your bestfriend in that way. I never really saw Jazz as a romantic person. Maybe Alice is good for him. Better than Stanley or Spalding. And I really like Alice. Like I don't want to attack her everytime she speaks or moves. She doesn't have such a nasal voice. Her voice is sweet and high but appealing. She was cute in her own way. And she doesn't look like she's trying so hard.
I didn't realize that we have entered a boutique until latter. I was too absorbed in her story. About my bestfriend. I laughed.
She scrunched her eyebrows.
Oops.
"It's just funny that we're talking about Jasper. I've kinda known him since the start of highschool. You know how weird that is, right?"
She laughed, "Yep."
"Anyway, what are we doing here?" I raised an eyebrow at her.
"This is PixieDesigns. My own boutique." She grinned. She looked like she was so proud about this. I couldn't help but smile.
"Wow. Cool." I was fascinated. Ha! I knew she called herself a pixie!
She giggled. "Well, Jasper wanted me to hand you some clothes. All the in season clothes. Those'll fit you, don't worry. I sort them by size. You can have those. You really need to improve your appearance, no offence. Not that you look dirty or something. Just have some style." She pushed a large cardboard box at me.
Despite her comment on my appearance. I still couldn't hate her. This is her living and she was willing to give it to me. I'll be willing to pay for it to make her happy. I wasn't sure if I really liked these stuff.
"I'll pay for it. But I really need to get a job first."
"No, no. I don't sell the ones in boxes. They're either for Rose or for me and we don't sell them. So...yeah." She waved her hands.
"Are you sure? I really want to pay for it." Besides I really need clothes and I pay for my clothes.
"Yes. I most definitely sure. Now...for that job of yours. I can help you look for something." She shoved the box in the backseat of her car and we drove around town looking for something.
Alice is awesome. Somehow, she made me feel a little better. It's either she's a real and she has awesome magic or she's just really good with people. But still...I think I'm starting to love Alice.
Two chapters in a day! That felt nice. :D Tell me what you think, okay? Because it matters so much! :D By the way, I rated this M. Just in case. :D