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Alert: the characters in this story curse a lot.

Our Dawn

Part III

Book 3 – Joy & Sorrow

Leah Clearwater

Chapter 19 – Walk Beside You

When Jacob told me about the deal he had made with the Italian leeches I thought he didn't love his kids enough, I thought he had been pretending to love us all these years. I felt betrayed but deep inside there was a chance that I was wrong, there was a small hope that I was overreacting, after all Jacob always seemed to care about his family and he was a great dad.

My despair had gained the best of me and I started doubting his feelings. I knew I was being a hypocrite but I strongly believed that I was a better parent than him because I had the conviction that if I were in his situation I would've never fall for the vampires' trap in the first place. I would've kept myself firm and my son's life would never be in any danger.

Jacob did lie to me for a while but he came around and told me the truth knowing that I would not react well. I let him blame himself when I should've been there to help Jacob to go through it. I was his wife, that was my job but instead I almost accused him of being weak when he was so much stronger than me. So could I really blame him?

I was being stupid though because in reality I hadn't been in his place for starters. I hadn't been tortured 24/7 by a fucking psychotic leech or lost all hope on seeing my family again. I was being selfish the whole time and if it weren't for my brother I wouldn't have understood the truth.

Jacob wasn't irresponsible or reckless. He had willingly stayed behind to allow the Cullens to bring our son home safely. I, on the other side, acted like a spoiled brat, maybe even like a bitch and I even made him leave us making the days and weeks turn so damn difficult to bear, especially when I was carrying a secret too. Fortunately I had the opportunity to fix my mistake on Rebecca and Embry's wedding's day.

The Cullen's plan to keep the Volturi away from William wasn't perfect but just like Alice had stated, it was the only one they had. It wasn't one hundred per cent safe and it would put Harry's life in danger too but we could actually win this battle. If there was a chance to actually prevent Will from going to Italy I had to take it and this time I had to trust Jacob.

I felt much better when I told him the truth about my condition. I didn't want to keep this away from him anymore. I had done enough damages during my first pregnancy. He was a bit shocked at first but he took the news quite well. I was terrified that he would be angry with me and even disappointed but he was actually happy and excited.

Jacob wasn't good at keeping secrets like this one so I knew that once I told him he would want to tell our families. And that he did. First we talked to the kids because it was important for them to know we were going to have a new baby soon. Harry and William shared Jacob's excitement.

"Did you call Seth?" Jacob asked while we were waiting for the kids. They were changing clothes in their bedrooms because we were going to have a family dinner over at Billy's place.

"Yes. He was surprised but happy."

Jacob called Harry and William again but I knew they weren't ready yet.

"Are you okay with this?" He asked.

"I think so. I'm sure it will work out much better than the first time."

He laughed.

"I guess…Do you remember Paul's face?"

I rolled my eyes. Of course I remembered. I could remember perfectly everything about that day. My mother made sure of that. She almost had a fit when she learned that Jacob was the father of my babies.

"Mum!" Harry called me pulling me out of my memories.

"What's wrong?"

"William says we can't play with the new baby."

"Of course you can." I said, taking Harry's hand in mine.

"We want to play with the baby now." He stated.

"The baby is still in mummy's belly." Jacob said. "After the baby's born you can play together, alright?"

"How did he get inside mummy's belly?" Harry asked with a curious expression.

Jacob and I exchanged an awkward look. They were still too young to know about that.

"I'll explain you in ten years, okay?" Jacob suggested.

"Why?" William wanted to know.

"Because you won't understand." Jacob said.

"But our teacher says we're really smart. We're the best in our class." William stated proudly.

"Fine, then ask her on Monday. I'm sure she knows how to explain." He grinned. He was probably imagining Mrs. Greys being confronted with two seven year old children asking her where babies come from.

"Let's go. We're late." I announced.

We decided to tell the news after we had dinner. While we were eating we talked mostly about Rebecca and Embry. Two days ago, after their wedding, they had left the country on their honeymoon.

Because Rebecca now hated beaches and islands, they had booked a trip to Thailand. None of us understood why would they choose such a place to have their honeymoon and for the first time in many years, we all agreed with Paul.

"She has him on a leash." He stated matter-of-factly receiving a small glare from Rachel.

"I'm sure Embry doesn't mind spending a week on Thailand. At least he finally left La Push for a while." Rachel said.

"Whatever…I mean what's the purpose to go on a honeymoon trip if they're going to spend the whole week inside a bedroom?" Paul smirked.

"Not everyone is a pervert like you Paul." Jacob spat.

"Really? What did you do on your honeymoon then, Jake?"

He got us there. We didn't base our honeymoon's entire trip on sex but it had obviously been our favourite part of it and I was carrying the proof of that.

"You do know I'm a wolf too, right?" Paul continued, clearly proud of his realisation. "I can count the heartbeats in the room and there's someone who wasn't careful again…"

"What the hell is going on?" Billy cut Paul off to avoid Jacob to attack his brother-in-law. I noticed then that Jacob was shaking slightly and his face was red.

"I'm pregnant." I announced.

"For real?" Rachel asked.

"Yes, Rachel…For real." I rolled my eyes.

"That's awesome." She said enthusiastically. This time her reaction was definitely better than the last time I had told her I was expecting her brother's child.

"Congratulations." Billy smiled at us with tears in his eyes. "I wish your mother was here to witness this."

He glanced over at the small living room where William, Harry, James and David were playing and he took three months-old baby Daniel in his arms.

"We're going to have another baby in the family." He said happily and Daniel giggled as if he understood what his grandfather was talking about.

"More like babies. I'm listening two heartbeats." Paul informed.

I froze. To have twins wasn't so bad and there was a high possibility that I had twins again because it was something that ran in Jacob's family but I wasn't prepared to have two more babies, especially when I had another set of twins to take care of. It would be too stressful and I was afraid I wouldn't be able to handle it on my own.

"I don't hear two heartbeats…only one." Jacob said but I knew he was only trying to calm me down.

"You need to go see Carlisle." Rachel said.

"Well I'm sure you're going to have twins again. It would be nice if you had twin girls, right?" Paul inquired with a wink and Rachel nodded in agreement.

"There are only boys in the family so far. A girl would be nice." Jacob confirmed.

"What do you think about the name Erika?" Rachel suggested lightening up my mood a bit.

"It's pretty but if I'm having a girl I'll name her Sarah." I stated.

"Really?" Billy asked holding my hand.

"Yes."

"What if you really have twin girls?" Paul asked. The bastard was really pushy.

"I really need to see Carlisle." I said trying not to lash at him.

"Sarah and Erika sound nice." Rachel suggested happily.

"What about Brittany? Or Jade?" Billy tried and I faked a smile.

The enthusiasm about my pregnancy remained during the rest of the night. Billy was from far the most excited person on the house. He even tried to convince me to call my mother so that she and Charlie could join us but I wanted to tell my mum in private.

"I'm going over to Charlie's place tomorrow and then we're going to call the Council." I said. "So keep your mouth shut this time, Paul." I added.

"I won't tell anyone." He said quickly.

We left Billy's house a few hours later. The twins were almost asleep in the car and we had to carry them inside.

"It went well." Jacob said softly when we finally went to bed.

I didn't answer. Comparing with the first time this was a piece of cake but Paul's words about listening to two heartbeats were still on my mind.

"Paul is a jerk. He doesn't even know the difference between his head and his ass." Jacob said holding me tightly.

"I want to go see Carlisle next week." I announced.

A few hours ago I would never dream about saying that. In my opinion the Cullens were exactly where they should be: away from us. But Carlisle would have to be my doctor again, for obvious reasons.

"Even if you have twins…I'll help you…okay?"

I turned around to face him.

"I won't lie to you Jacob. I'm a bit scared to have twins again…but that doesn't mean I don't want this baby. I'm happy that I'm going to be a mother again. I'm happy that I' going to give you another child."

"I know and I'm sorry if I wasn't much of a help with Will and Harry."

"You were too young…You still are."

"I won't let you down this time."

We kissed and for a minute I thought he was going to pursue something more than just a kiss but curiously he didn't.

"Let's have some sleep, okay? I'll have to face Sue in the morning."

I rested my head on his chest and soon I was asleep.

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It was actually hard to decide who was happier with the news: my mother or Billy. This time she didn't lecture Jacob about being irresponsible and confessed she couldn't wait to hold her new grandchild on her arms.

She also believed I was expecting twins and so she kept on babbling about it the whole time we were expecting for the Council to assemble. The more she talked about it the more I wanted to go to fucking Canada to see Carlisle.

Because I couldn't wait to get out of there and go home, I allowed my mother to break the news. I knew Jacob was only interested in watching Sam's reaction. That was why he was standing right in front of him.

Just like I was expecting Sam was surprised at first and he didn't congratulate us. He just faked a smile and excused himself saying that Emily needed him at home. Jacob was about to follow him but I grabbed his arm preventing him from leaving.

"Don't do this, Jacob." I said.

"Don't do what?" He asked innocently.

"I've told you before that Sam has nothing to do with us anymore. Whatever he thinks about this, I'm not interest. I don't need his opinion or his approval."

"I know."

"Then stay here."

"I need to give him a word. I'll be right back."

I couldn't forbid him to go so I let go of his arm and I sighed in defeat.

He did return a few hours later. I was at home watching the twins doing their homework. He didn't seem to be hurt but I knew he had been in his wolf form.

"Are you okay?" I asked stupidly. He looked fine.

"Sure. We arranged patrols. Sam detected a weird scent two nights ago."

I followed him to the kitchen and closed the door so we could talk properly.

"Is that all?"

"Yes. Why?"

"Don't give me that crap, Jacob. I know what you wanted to tell Sam."

"If you know why are you asking?"

I shrugged.

"I really don't know. I just thought you had put all of that behind. I thought you weren't such a child anymore." I scolded.

"I'm not a child but I did enjoy the look on his face when I told him that he was wrong about us all along."

"Since when do you care about what he thinks?"

"Since he had the audacity to come here on my absence to convince you to go back to him!" he almost shouted.

"I would never go back to Sam." I stated firmly.

"What if I had died in Italy?"

"If I weren't expecting your child right now I would phase right here and kill you myself! Sam has Emily and I don't love him. Period."

"Be honest with me, Leah. What would you do if I died?"

I was sad to know that our pasts were still hunting us. We still had to cope with the fact that if Bella hadn't chosen the mind rapist and if Sam hadn't imprinted on Emily, we would've never been together in the first place.

Jacob would be with Bella and I would have married Sam. Harrison and William Clearwater-Black would've never been born.

"No matter what I tell you, you'll never believe me." I said sitting down on a chair.

"What do you mean?"

"I know I don't have the right to criticise you because I think about what you had with Bella all the time. I think I'm not good enough for you. I'm sure she would've been able to make you happy more than me. She was your first choice. You thought about a future with her. Having kids with her beautiful brown eyes, growing old together…"

"Why are you saying that?"

"You told me to be honest…If you didn't want to hear the truth you shouldn't have asked me that."

"Maybe we shouldn't talk about this now."

"We have to. You started it. So the truth is sometimes I still feel like I'm just second best. I feel like a shadow in your life. Too faint to be noticed…"

"I don't love Bella."

"And I don't love Sam, but we can't erase our pasts. The only thing I know for sure is that although I chose Sam first, he wasn't the right choice. You are Jacob. I am what I am now because of you. I don't picture myself having kids with anyone else and death would not keep us apart. I wouldn't go back to him. I will always be yours. I'm really sorry that you can't see that, I'm sorry you don't trust me."

"I do." He said with an apologetic smile. "And I trust you."

"Really?"

"Yes, I guess I never thought you'd the feel the same as me."

"Seriously? I mean why does Sam still bother you?"

"Because I keep thinking I'm not the one good enough for you. I've let you down too many times before and I don't want to do it again especially with a baby on the way."

"We shouldn't keep doing this Jacob."

"I love you too much not to think about it."

His answer surprised me. All of his childish attitude and jealousy about my past relationship with Sam had a motive: his undeniable love for me.

"Don't ever think you're not good enough." He whispered. "It's not that I want to hurt Sam…I just need to feel that he keeps his distance. I…wish he could just stay away from your thoughts."

"I hardly think about him. It's you I think about all the time."

"I'm sorry about acting like an idiot." He apologised.

"I'm already used to it."

"Thank you so much, baby. That really hurt my feelings, you know?" He said playfully.

"Your ego is too big for that." I laughed.

He approached me and pulled me up cupping my face. He kissed my forehead, then my nose, my cheeks and finally my lips. I felt suddenly weak on my knees.

"I'll see you later, okay?"

"Where are you going now?" I asked impatiently.

"I still don't like Sam that much but I believe he has a reason to be worried about this new scent."

"Why?"

"He thinks it's a newborn."

"You're going to hunt a newborn alone?"

"Of course not. Sam and Brady are going with me."

He kissed me again and smiled widely.

"I almost feel sorry for the leech. He has no chances against three wolves." I said. "Be careful."

"Always."

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Next week Jacob called Carlisle saying that we were going over to Canada to visit them. Charlie had already told his daughter that I was pregnant and I was sure that all the vampires were already asking themselves when I would make my first appointment with the leech's doctor.

I didn't really want be responsible for another scene orchestrated by drama queen Bella Cullen, that's why I didn't mind Charlie mentioning my pregnancy. I could still hear Bella's voice in my head when she discovered that Jacob was the father of my child. If we had been alone I'm sure she would've attacked me.

This time however everything went smoothly. Jasper, Bella and Rosalie were hunting so when we arrived at their house Edward and Carlisle took us upstairs. Jacob was with me the whole time. Carlisle checked my blood pressure, ran a blood test and then I had an ultrasound that showed us our little baby. Jacob's eyes were shinning bright when Carlisle pointed out our child on the screen.

"How many?" Edward asked reading my thoughts.

"How many what?" Carlisle asked confused.

"Babies." Edward replied containing his laugh. "She's afraid something happens like the last time."

"Oh…Well…in my defence, I can't really be blamed for what happened. One of the twins was blocking our view completely and the second was in the same position so the ultrasound only showed one."

"What about this time?" I asked impatiently.

"Well…this time I'm taking precautions and we're going to do an extra examination. The new technologies will allow us to see your baby in three dimensions."

I was amazed when I saw my baby on the screen. I felt Jacob's hand squeezing mine and we both smiled.

"It's just one baby." Carlisle confirmed.

I was going to kill Paul when we met again. The stupid jerk was actually lying when he said he had listened to two heartbeats.

"Do you want to know the sex of the baby?"

"I think it would be more interesting if we didn't know yet." I suggested.

"Okay…" Jacob agreed.

"That's nice of you." Edward stated. "Thanks for thinking about our little bets."

"They won't let you bet mind rapist." I replied.

"Yeah, I know…But it'll be fun since I know who'll win."

"Awesome." I mocked. "Good for you."

Everything was normal and Carlisle told me the baby was fine.

"Do you have any questions?" Carlisle asked.

Jacob was about to speak when Edward cracked down laughing.

"You're hilarious." He stated. "You should've worried about that before not now."

"Shut the hell up leech." Jacob snarled.

"Fine…I thought pregnant women had mood swings."

When my medical appointment was over we joined the leeches in the living room. Rosalie, Jasper and Bella were back and they couldn't help to look at me strangely. I knew Emmett wanted to make a joke, Esme wanted to congratulate us, Alice and Jasper wanted to know about my condition, Bella was probably feeling jealous because she had just realised how stronger my marriage had just become with a third child on the way, and Rosalie's eyes showed a mixture of jealousy, happiness and disappointment.

"Don't assume things you don't know, Leah." Edward stated. He didn't like me to doubt Bella's feelings for him.

"It's not like you probably never thought about it."

The fact that vampires couldn't have children was a touchy issue for a family like the Cullens. There were four women, two of which had always wanted to embrace maternity. Rosalie had a violent past and I had listened several times that she wasn't given a choice when she was turned into a leech. As for Esme she had lost a child.

"Next time you should bring Will and Harry along. We miss them." Rosalie said.

"They've been asking about you lately." Jacob stated.

"As soon as vacations start, they'll come with us." I assured.

"So they're not allowed to come here without supervision." Bella spat. "That's really nice…first you get rid of us and now you start invoking your paternal rights to keep Harrison and William away from us."

"Why do you keep doing this, Bella?" Jacob asked. "I told you we're not enemies."

"Please…you don't have to fight about this." Esme said.

"We were in Canada before." Alice stated. "This is not so different."

"We chose to leave that time. But now…he decided to make that choice for us." Bella accused again pointing a finger at Jacob.

"Bella, we've been through this." Edward said glancing over at Jasper.

"Okay, fine!" Jacob snapped. "If there was someone in this damn house who should be angry it should be me!"

"Jacob…" Carlisle said trying to break the tension. "There's no need to be agitated."

"Agitated? I'm not the one agitated. Bella is…"

"Shut up, Jake…You're a hypocrite. You kicked us out of Forks…You hurt me, my father, our friends…everyone."

"You want to talk about pain, do you? What do you know about it Bella? Did your heart break when your best friend chose a leech over you? Did you hurt when your insides were pulled out of your body when you saw someone you admired and cared about throwing away the only chance to have a normal and happy life? Everything you did was choosing…and you know what? I'm glad you didn't choose me."

"Really?"

"Oh yeah…and you know why? Because then I would see how you real are…and I wouldn't like it."

"You're saying that because you want to believe that, Jake. Because you want me to hurt the same you did. You want vengeance for what I did to you even though I never meant to hurt you."

"Well in that case you've failed miserably because you've been hurting me since we met. You almost made Leah have a miscarriage, you tried to manipulate me and you still expect me to follow you."

"That's not true! This is all your fault. You're the one who comes here flaunting your pregnant wife before us when you know exactly that we can't feel the joys of being parents."

So that was the real motive why Bella was acting like this. She was jealous. She wasn't jealous of Jacob being with me, she wasn't jealous with the fact that we were having another baby, she was simply jealous because she would never bear a child and she would never feel the bliss of holding in her arms a baby conceived by her and her loved one, but honestly I didn't give a flying shit because she knew what she was doing when she chose Edward.

"Well I'm sorry if your father-in-law is the only doctor my wife can see."

"Enough." Edward half yelled. "Come with me Bella, please."

By the look on the mind rapist's face I knew they too would fight for a while but that was hardly my problem. I saw them leaving to the forest and Jacob's expression softened.

"So, are you sure it's just one?" Emmett asked his adoptive father with a hint of disappointment.

Before I had the ultrasound I had heard him speaking to Esme and telling her I would probably have triplets this time.

"Yes, it's just one Emmett." I snarled.

"I was just checking. I mean Carlisle was wrong before."

"Alice and I are going shopping tomorrow morning. Can we buy a few things for the baby?" Rosalie asked.

"I guess. Clothing would be nice but you don't need to rush it. I mean we don't even know if it's a boy or a girl." I said.

"It's a girl." Jacob said firmly.

"Two hundred dollars on a girl." Emmett said.

"I say it's a boy." Jasper contradicted.

"When are you due?" Esme asked.

"December."

Carlisle kept on recommending me to be careful. He advised me to stop working in a couple of months, to eat properly, to rest as much as I could and not to phase under any circumstances.

"Would you like to stay for lunch?" Esme proposed.

"No…actually we need to go." Jacob said.

I fell asleep on our way back home and when I woke up the familiar landscape was everywhere. "I think I saw a wolf." I said.

"It's normal…We're already in Forks. Quil's patrolling this afternoon."

"Alone?"

"Embry can't miss work anymore this month and with you and Seth unavailable, we don't have a choice."

While we were slowly approaching La Push I watched the trees calmly, with an uneasy feeling. I didn't know what it was but I was sure that something was going to happen.

A/Note 3: I've realised that there is some confusion about this story being divided into Parts and Books. I'll try to clear it up for you. Our Dawn Series is divided into three parts so far: Our Dawn 1, Our Dawn 2 and Our Dawn 3. Because I decided to use different POV in Our Dawn 3 I had to divide it into three Books, just like SM did with Breaking Dawn. So Book 1 is called Weakness & Strength (from chp 1 to 8) and it's in Leah's POV, then Book 2 is called Confidence & Vulnerability (from chp 9 to 18) and it's in Jacob's POV and finally we have Book 3 – Joy & Sorrow (from chp 19 to ?) in Leah's POV again. Our Dawn 1 and Our Dawn 2 aren't divided because the POV stays the same along the story (except for the Epilogue in Jake's POV in Our Dawn 2 but the Epilogue is separated from the story in general.)

There is a possibility that I'll write a fourth part: Our Dawn 4, but I'm not sure yet because it will depend on how Our Dawn 3 will end. Any doubts please feel free to ask. Thanks for the feedback.

Karisan