"Kiss, Kiss" – part 2

Summary and notes in part 1.

Disclaimer: Do NOT own Degrassi! (I'm not even Canadian!)

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And now he had reached his destination. Fiona Coyne's apartment. He knocked three times and waited anxiously for her to answer. After what felt like an eternity she opened the door.

"Adam!" she said happily. "You're here early."

She looked just as he remembered her. He wanted to freeze this moment and live in it forever. He could see the affection she held for him in her eyes. Would she ever look at him that way again? He mentally shook himself. She had to. She had to forgive him.

Fiona stood aside. "You're not going to stand there all day?" she teased.

Adam gave her a small smile and stepped inside.

He walked over to the kitchen counter as she locked the door. Memories of time spent here filled his mind. Unpacking Tapas on the counter the day they first kissed. Eating breakfast the morning after he first stayed over. Working side by side throughout the evening as they studied for finals. Tears came to his eyes.

Fiona came up behind him and wrapped her arms around him. He tensed in her embrace. She released him and stepped back.

"Adam, what's wrong?" she asked concerned.

It almost felt like another lifetime ago, but his motto had been, 'it's better to rip the band-aid off.' He wasn't sure if he could do it.

"Something happened," he said in a shaky voice. He nervously wrung his hands.

Fiona felt sick. Adam's whole demeanor was scaring her. She wasn't sure if she wanted to hear what he had to say. She looked into his eyes, searching for reassurance that this wasn't as bad as she feared. He looked away and she felt a pain in her heart.

"Tell me," she heard herself say. Her tone sounded strange to her ears. It came out deathly calm when she was full of nerves inside.

Adam swallowed. "Bianca and I… kissed."

Fiona blinked. Her breath was caught in her throat. She stared him for a few moments. All at once she could read the guilt and regret in his eyes. He walked in with it and she hadn't noticed. She could feel her world shifting on its head. Adam, the love of her life, the one she trusted with her heart, the guy who swore he would never hurt her – had.

Her silence unnerved him. Adam took a step toward her, "I'm sorry! I didn't mean to!"

Fiona stepped back. "But you did," she cut him off.

He had to explain. He had to make her understand. "She kissed me—"

"And you couldn't move away?" Fiona yelled, her anger finally reaching her voice.

Adam paused. Eventually he did, but that wasn't until later. It wouldn't make one bit of difference to Fiona. He decided to throw himself on the mercy of the court.

"Fiona, please. I'm sorry and I wish I could take it back!" he pleaded. She turned away from him. He continued, "I love you. I don't want to lose you!"

She wanted to stay stone faced. She wanted her words to be cold. She didn't want him to see her cry. She didn't want to show how deeply hurt she was. But hearing him talk, the sadness and desperation in his voice got to her. How did they end up here?

One minute they were happy and in love. The next he's cheating on her with the girl who endlessly taunted and harassed him last year. Bianca had a reputation as a boyfriend stealer, but she never thought Adam would be one of those boys. She was a vile person. A sleazy, skank. So why did she draw boys to her like a moth to a flame? And more importantly, why did Adam take the bait?

She couldn't forgive him for this. Not now. Possibly, not ever. What they had was ruined, because the Adam she loved would never hurt her this way. Apparently he wasn't who she thought he was.

Fiona was openly crying now. "It's too late for that."

Adam looked her with a pained expression. "No," he protested. "I love you!"

"I love you too," she said sadly. "But it's not enough."

Adam was crying too. He felt like he'd been punched in the gut. He hated himself right now. He didn't mean to hurt her. He couldn't imagine his life without her. She was everything to him, and he screwed it up. He never thought he would be that guy.

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tbc

A/N: And now we know how Fiona feels. Certainly can't blame her…