Disclaimer-I don't own Glee or any songs
Thanks for reviewing everyone, it may or may not interest you to know that this story is strongly based on my own personal experiences being in love with your clueless best friend. Except I'm not gay and I'm a girl. And I'm not in school anymore. And obviously the whole Glee club thing is different. But basically, I'm Kurt, my best friend is Puck and Leanne, oh that bitch is all too fucking real lol.
Chapter 8-Why Won't You?
They broke up. After six and a half months, Noah and Leanne were no more. She had put an end to their relationship and a devastated Noah had come knocking on Kurt's door in need of a shoulder to cry on. Well, he didn't actually cry and Kurt would never have let anyone cry on that particular silk shirt.
Still, Noah did need the company of his best friend in his moment of heartbreak. He didn't explain why Leanne called an end to things and Kurt didn't need to hear it. He was just immensely pleased that Noah was single again.
Of course, that didn't mean Noah would suddenly look at Kurt in a different light and that the two would end up together and live happily ever after. Kurt was well aware of that. Although he had a soft spot for Walt Disney Classics and childhood fairytales, he understood all too well that love and happiness was a thing of story books and films. Real teenage love lives were filled with heartache, rejection and silent suffering.
As the two teenage boys lounged around in Kurt's basement, the owner of the room did his best to make the other feel better. Every time Noah complained how he'd messed things up and lost the best thing to ever happen to him, Kurt would immediately inform him that Leanne had never been good enough and that she was a vile creature with horrid fashion sense and the personality of a lettuce leaf.
Every single time Kurt made a bitchy but accurate comment about Leanne, Noah would rush in to defend her, insisting that Kurt didn't know her like he did.
Growing sick of all the Leanne talk, Kurt suggested they rehearse a solo each to perform in Glee club. Since Rachel did it all the time, Kurt didn't see why they couldn't. Although Rachel Berry clearly considered herself the star of New Directions, that didn't mean none of the other members couldn't take the occasional opportunity to shine.
However, Kurt's plan backfired horribly. The song Noah chose to sing was all about his misery over his break up with Leanne, which was understandable even if it was sickening. But as luck would have it, Leanne showed up to their Glee rehearsal to hear Noah sing and all she had to do was hold her arms open and Noah took her back.
They kissed in the middle of the choir room and it crushed Kurt's heart once more.
It was bad enough that he had to listen to the boy he secretly loved sing a song to someone else, but having to see them exchange saliva as they made up made it doubly worse. Then there was the fact that Leanne shot him what he took to be a triumphant smirk over Noah's shoulder, yet worse than all of that was the happy expression on Noah's face as he held his once again girlfriend in his arms.
At that point, Kurt wanted to run from the choir room and never look back, or for the world to swallow him whole, or Leanne to just suddenly die of some painful and incurable disease. But run Kurt did not. Instead, he took to the centre of the room upon Mr. Schue's instruction so that he could perform the song he had been rehearsing.
The song was for Noah, just like everything in his life was for Noah. He didn't mention that before performing of course.
"Anyone who ever loved, could look at me
And know that I love you…" Kurt sang pouring all his pent up emotions into the song but not daring to look at Noah too long for fear of giving the truth away.
"Anyone who ever dreamed, could look at me
And know I dream of you
Knowing I love you so
Anyone who had a heart
Would take me in his arms and love me too
You, couldn't really have a heart and hurt me,
Like you hurt me and be so untrue
What am I to do?"
As Kurt worked his way through the song, he was careful to shift his eyes from person to person and not look at the Jewish boy for too long a time.
"Every time you go away, I always say
This time it's goodbye, dear
Loving you the way I do
I take you back, without you I'd die dear…" At that lyric, Kurt couldn't help himself. His eyes flickered to where Noah was sitting.
Not that it mattered. For as Kurt stood there, secretly singing the song for Noah, the other teen wasn't even looking back at him. His eyes were fixated upon Leanne.
"Knowing I love you so
Anyone who had a heart
Would take me in his arms and love me too
You, couldn't really have a heart and hurt me,
Like you hurt me and be so untrue
What am I to do?
Knowing I love you so
Anyone who had a heart
Would take me in his arms and love me too
You, couldn't really have a heart and hurt me,
Like you hurt me and be so untrue
Anyone who had a heart would love me too
Anyone who had a heart would surely take me in his arms and always love me
Why won't you?"
The song finished, he received applause, he received praise but there was nothing from Noah. He was too busy gazing adoringly at Leanne to even notice Kurt had sung at all. It hurt. Oh, how it hurt and Leanne's smug smirk only added to the sting.
After a further six weeks of Noah and Leanne being sickly sweet and lovey-dovey, they were fighting again. What they were continuously arguing over, Kurt wasn't sure. Every time he'd tried to ask, Noah had ended up snapping at him. He apologised almost instantly afterwards and would hold Kurt softly in his arms as he gently explained that he didn't want to talk about it and that Kurt needn't worry.
After a rocky two months, Noah and Leanne split up again. This time, Kurt had barely any time to rejoice the fact before the two were on again. That's how it went for a while. The couple had a very unstable, unhealthy and dysfunctional relationship. One minute they were kissing and cuddling and the next they were stood feet apart hurling insults at one another. It seemed they had a love-hate relationship going on and Kurt hated to witness it.
Every time the two called it off, Kurt was at Noah's side listening to him complain about Leanne only for the complaints to turn to words of love before he was calling her up and begging her to take him back.
Nothing Kurt said to his friend made any difference. He tried to help Noah realise that Leanne wasn't good for him, that they only made one another miserable, but his advice fell in deaf ears.
It would always be the same. Noah would rant, pout and sulk asking again and again what he was doing wrong.
"Why doesn't she want me?" Noah would ask pitifully every time the stupid girl dumped him. "I think I love her. Why won't she love me back?"
Why can't you love me? Kurt would think to himself every single time, biting down on his lower lip so his thoughts wouldn't be given verbal life.
On one occasion where Noah and Leanne had broken up again, Noah had somehow convinced Kurt to drive to Leanne's house in order to persuade her to give Noah another chance.
To say the girl was surprised to see Kurt standing on her doorstep would be an understatement. Kurt reasoned that her shock was the only thing preventing her from slamming the door in his face. She didn't invite him in, but she did raise an eyebrow at him expectantly waiting to hear what he'd say.
Taking a moment to gather his thoughts, Kurt rested one hand on his hip before telling Leanne exactly what he thought of her. He relished the look on her face as he insulted her in a most articulate manner. But he couldn't leave it at that. After insulting her in a most brutal fashion, he said, in a softer tone, that despite her obvious flaws as a human being, Noah really cared for her.
Hearing this, a sweet smile settled on Leanne's lips and she cocked her head to the side as she looked at Kurt.
"You really are a good friend to him." She stated.
"I'm the best." Kurt replied, a hint of bitterness to his voice.
"Well, Hummel," Leanne said as she took a step closer to him, invading his personal space. "Just remember that a friend is all you'll ever be to him. Ok, fag?"
The temptation to strike her had been overwhelming but somehow Kurt had managed to control himself and simply slipped back into his car and drove away from her.
He didn't tell Noah what his on/off girlfriend had called him. He didn't tell anyone.
To Be Continued
Kurt's song-'Anyone Who Had A Heart' by Cilla Black
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