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Song-'Ever Fallen In Love'-Stiff Dylans (cover)

Chapter 9-All About Love

An ever enthusiastic Mr. Schue called for silence as he looked over the members of New Directions. He then wrote a single word on the board in block capitals, LOVE.

As the Spanish teacher spoke the word aloud, Kurt briefly looked at Noah through his eyelashes.

Mr. Schue delivered a well rehearsed speech about love and the emotions that walked hand in hand with it. He informed them that the majority of all songs were written about love. Coming to a stand still he looked at each of them individually before asking them to think about what love meant to them.

After giving them all a few minutes of silence to contemplate this, Mr. Schue asked a few of them to give him an answer. The usually quiet Matt mumbled that love was a disturbance of mind leaving it's victims with a severe mental handicap. Polishing his glasses on his shirt, Artie said that love was blind which greatly confused Brittany who had always firmly believed in the expression 'love at first sight'. When the ditzy cheerleader had asked how it was possible to fall in love at first sight if love was blind, nobody had been able to provide her an answer which confused her further.

Rachel had babbled for a near ten minutes how love was a gift and a rare treasure that was often underappreciated. Santana had scoffed that love was just a pretty sounding word with vey little meaning as it was tossed around so carelessly.

Mr. Schue had then pointed to Kurt asking for his opinion on what love was.

"Painful." Kurt had answered simply receiving multiple looks of surprise.

He supposed they all expected him to sigh and swoon and declare that love was a many splendid thing. Perhaps there was a time when he would have given such an answer, but not now. Since falling in love with his ex-bully turned best friend, Kurt had learned the hard way that love wasn't all butterflies and rainbows.

For Kurt, love was a litter of snakes squirming around inside of him and coiling around his heart squeezing the strength out of it. There was no sunshine in his life and no hint of a single pretty rainbow, for him, life was a never-ending storm cloud hanging permanently over his head.

Moving on, Mr. Schue instructed them to select a song to rehearse and perform to one another to demonstrate what they thought of love. He also informed them that they would all vote for the performance they thought best and the winner would perform their solo piece at their oncoming Invitational.

Upon hearing this, Rachel was instantly on her feet and rummaging for pen and paper as she muttered ideas under her breath.

As the club said their goodbyes to Mr. Schue and one another and headed home, Kurt found himself alone with Noah. They walked to the parking lot together and came to a stop at Kurt's car as it was nearest.

Leaning casually against Kurt's vehicle, Noah mentioned a few titles of potential love songs for him to sing. The song would be for Leanne of course, Kurt knew that. He supposed in a way it was kind of sweet that Noah had long since abandoned his womanizing ways and now cared for a single girl so much, but taking into account that said girl was Leanne, the thought was rather nauseating. Though Kurt would never admit it out loud, he truly believed that Rachel was a far better choice for Noah than Leanne.

Even though Rachel was many things, highly annoying, conceited, fashion challenged and psychotic to name a few, she was at least a good person at heart and accepted people for who they were. If Rachel and Noah had been a couple for longer than the one day they had, Kurt was sure the Jewish girl wouldn't have tried to change Noah in any way or keep him away from his friends. And having grown up with two gay dads that she loved very dearly, Rachel would never have called Kurt a 'fag' like Leanne did.

After Noah had finished listing his own song ideas, he asked Kurt if he had any plans what he was going to sing yet. Kurt shrugged before opening his car door and preparing to leave, but Noah caught hold of his arm.

The Jewish boy looked at him carefully through his deep brown eyes and softly asked what was wrong. Kurt sighed and gently removed Noah's hand from his arm. He looked up at his friends face, taking in his gorgeous features and wanting nothing more than to push himself up on his tiptoes and steal a kiss. A proper kiss.

"What are you thinking?" Noah asked looking at Kurt in question as he tried to fathom the shorter boy out.

Dropping his gaze, Kurt let out a quick laugh void of any real humour. If Noah only knew the truth of what he was thinking. He wondered for a few moments how his friend might react if he knew the thoughts that often passed through his mind. Would Noah be flattered by Kurt's feelings for him? Angry, afraid or uncomfortable? Would he shrug it off and make a joke about it? Or would he freak out and look at Kurt in disgust? Would he call him a 'fag' as he had done in the past?

"Kurt?" Noah called snapping his fingers in front of Kurt's face to gain his attention.

Meeting his friend's eye again, Kurt noted that the other teen looked concerned.

"My apologies, I was fantasizing about sharing a large stage with Lady GaGa." Kurt lied.

"Liar." Noah stated knowingly. "Babe, what's up with you? You look like some fucker just ripped your heart out."

"I have to get going." Kurt replied avoiding the question. "My dad needs some help at work this evening. I'll see you tomorrow."

He wanted to kill himself. He wasn't being an over-dramatic teenager; Kurt seriously and truly wanted to end his life. He had witnessed some barf-worthy things during his time in the Glee club, but never before anything of this measure.

"Shoot me, stab me, strangle me," Kurt pleaded to Noah in a whisper. "I don't care what you do, just do it quick."

"It's not that bad." Noah reasoned.

Kurt just whimpered before slamming his eyes shut so he didn't have to watch Rachel and Finn prancing around as they sang 'Up Where We Belong'.

It wasn't that the two were bad singers, and the song wasn't terrible even if it was a little cheesy. No, it was the intense and crazy expressions on Rachel's face along with the dopey and slightly frightened look on Finn's face that made it so difficult for Kurt to sit through. And that was without taking into account Rachel's tartan tweed pant-suit.

Finally, the nightmare duet ended and Kurt's need for immediate death became almost non-existent. He still couldn't bring himself to let his eyes rest upon Rachel's outfit though. He thought perhaps he should show some charity and offer to take Rachel shopping and then burn the contents of her current wardrobe.

As Rachel and Finn sat down, both of them glowing from having performed and staring adoringly at one another, Noah moved to the performance area with his guitar in hand ready to sing his love song.

"Hey," He greeted. "I'm sure you've already guessed but my song, it's for Leanne."

"How sweet." Santana mocked as she resumed the task of filing her nails.

Ignoring the Latina girl, Noah strummed his guitar skilfully and sang his song.

Watching the boy he loved perform, Kurt teased himself with pretending that Noah was singing for him. It was only a fantasy, he knew that, but if a fantasy was all he could get then he would take it greedily and hold on for as long as possible.

It was stupid, Kurt knew that. Living in a fantasy world would only increase the pain when he was unceremoniously returned to reality. In all his life, he'd never loved someone so fiercely, so completely, never wanted anyone so desperately.

This wasn't some brief infatuation or what grown-ups called 'puppy-love'. This was real love. It had to be, why else would it hurt so intensely? Kurt was sure it could be different. If Noah could ever return his feelings then they could have something remarkably beautiful, something good, and something happy. Something that didn't make him feel as though his heart was repeatedly being stabbed with rusty acid covered knives.

As it was, Kurt's love was unrequited. The worst love of all, it was devastating and heartbreaking. Love was supposed to be a blessing but for Kurt it was a curse. To fall in love, that ought to be a marvellous thing. But to fall in love alone as Kurt had done, that was a world of pain.

Still, as Kurt watched Noah perform, he found himself becoming… hopeful. Noah was looking at him, a lot, more than he was looking at any of the others. There was something in Noah's eyes, not the usual look best friend's gave one another. It wasn't like how he ever looked at Leanne; it was something different, something that made Kurt's insides feel delightfully gooey.

The song finished, applause rang out and Noah smiled fondly at Kurt as he moved towards him.

"I love you, baby." Noah said and Kurt became breathless.

Before he could even fully process what Noah had said, the larger teen was leaning towards him, his eyes closing, his lips parting.

This was it, Kurt thought as his heart rate increased dramatically. All his dreams were coming true, Noah had confessed his love for him and now they were going to kiss like actors did at the end of a romantic movie. Oh he sincerely hoped his breath smelt good.

Then suddenly, his heart stopped. How could he have been so foolish? Noah hadn't been singing to him, looking at him, or preparing to kiss him at all. It was for Leanne, it was all for Leanne who had obviously invited herself along to Glee club to watch Noah and taken the seat behind Kurt where she was now sat locked lip-to-lip with Noah.

Clearing his throat, Mr. Schue reminded Noah and Leanne that there were other occupants in the room. Smirking slightly, Noah slung his arm around Leanne's slim shoulders and gave the Spanish teacher a very false apology.

Mr. Schue then looked to Kurt asking if he'd liked to go next. In truth, Kurt did not want to perform. He certainly didn't feel like singing right now. All he wanted to do was scratch Leanne's eyes out and cut off all her hair. However, his vicious thoughts remained locked in his brain as his feet led him to the performance area.

Nodding that he was ready to the band, Kurt readied himself to sing. His hand was not on his hip like usual. Today, Kurt had taken on a decidedly more manly posture. He wasn't graceful and poised, instead he slouched a little.

"You stir up my natural emotions," Kurt sang in a grittier voice than usual.

"Make me feel like dirt, I'm hurt

And if I start a commotion

I run the risk of losing you

What is worse?" Looking at his audience, Kurt saw that the male members seemed to be enjoying the number a great deal more than the girls.

The boys were nodding their heads to the beat whereas the majority of the girls looked confused over Kurt's song choice. Apart from Brittany, Kurt realised. The normally confused cheerleader actually had a look of understanding in his eyes as she gazed between Kurt and Noah.

Trying to remain calm, Kurt forced himself to keep singing praying to the spirit of Alexander McQueen to keep anyone else from guessing what Brittany had seemed to work out.

"Ever fallen in love with someone

Ever fallen in love, in love with someone

Ever fallen in, in love with someone you shouldn't have fallen in love with."

As the song progressed, Brittany's smile grew wider and she was clapping along. In contrast to Brittany's enthusiasm, Leanne was looking very sour as she grumpily crossed her arms over her chest and threw Kurt the filthiest looks she could muster.

He glared back at her a few times but he didn't think anyone else noticed. He was aware that Leanne knew the truth about his feelings for Noah but he'd long since stopped caring. It didn't matter if she knew, not really. It made her more smug to be sure, but it didn't really change anything. The girl could easily tell Noah but Kurt wasn't worried about that. Although the bitch might threaten to do such a thing, he couldn't explain why but Kurt was fairly certain she wouldn't tell.

It now seemed that Brittany had worked out the truth also. That was a much bigger worry in Kurt's opinion. He knew Brittany was a sweetheart and wouldn't purposely tell anybody with malicious intent, but being as ditzy as she was, she could easily let it slip to one of the others.

"I can't see much of a future

Unless we find out who's to blame…" Kurt glared particularly hard at Leanne.

"What a shame

And we won't be together much longer

Unless we realise that we are the same

Ever fallen in love with someone

Ever fallen in love, in love with someone

Ever fallen in, in love with someone you shouldn't have fallen in love with."

When Glee club was over, Kurt ran after Brittany and dragged her to a secluded area.

"You're in love with Puck." Brittany smiled once they were alone. "That is so cute. Are you two gonna have babies? If you have a girl I think you should call her Brittany."

"I'm a boy." Kurt pointed out. "I can't have babies, only girls can."

"Oh yeah." Brittany laughed airily. "I think I remember my Science teacher saying something about that."

"Brittany." Kurt sighed as he placed his hands on the girl's shoulders and looked her in the eye, hoping she'd realise how serious this all was for him. "Promise me you won't tell anyone."

"I won't tell anybody, Kurt." Brittany replied with a roll of her eyes. "But I think they already know you're a guy."

"No, I mean don't tell anyone that I love Noah." Kurt told her.

"Noah?" Brittany asked as her brow furrowed in confusion. "I thought you loved Puck."

Suddenly, Kurt felt like crying and bashing his head against the wall.

To Be Continued

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