Author's Note: Sorry for the length between chapters! A lot has been going on for me, one thing after another it seems. Anyway, thanks for your patience. I am back and I do promise to continue working on this story until it is finished!!

Robin was feeling anxious. She couldn't explain what was going on but even in this spacious cabin she felt penned in. She could feel Jason's eyes on her, questioning. He was trying to read her and find out what she was feeling so he could respond appropriately. Even in her anxiety she had to be thankful for such a good friend to help her through this.

"I need to get out of here Jason!" Robin announced suddenly as she headed out the door.

Jason was caught off guard by her sudden bout of anxiety but recovered quickly and hurried out the door after her. He caught up to her easily since she wasn't running. She was walking fast and sure like she had a definite destination in mind.

"Where are you headed Robin?" Jason asked calmly.

"Away," Robin answered immediately as she headed away from the cabin and deeper into the woods.

Jason was glad that they had plenty of daylight left. It appeared to him that Robin was in serious distress and he was not going to be a stressor for her if he didn't have to be. He really wanted to allow her to take the lead and work out what she was feeling and share what she had remembered when she was ready. Based on events so far Jason figured this was going to take awhile. He was very glad they had plenty of sunlight yet.

"Okay but what are you getting away from?"

"I was feeling closed in and I couldn't breathe all the sudden. I am not prone to claustrophobia so I don't know what happened. I just had to get out of there. I need more open space."

"There is a small river with a bridge over it about three quarters of a mile northwest of here. Would you like to see it?"

"It sounds wonderful." Robin replied nodding.

Jason pointed the way. She had already been headed north on her charge to get away from the cabin so he only had to point her slightly west so that they were headed northwest toward the river.

Jason matched his pace with Robin's. He could go faster or slower as the situation needed, it really didn't matter to him how long it took them to reach the river. He began to notice that once she had a sure destination that was "away" as she had put it that her breathing had slowed and so had her pace. She was feeling calmer now and it was showing.

Robin really wished she hadn't remembered some of the things that she had from the night that Patrick had died. As Jason led the way toward the river he had told her about she realized that she was filled with anxiety and then tended to withdraw into herself whenever she got close to talking about it. There were still some blanks from that night, periods where she didn't know what had happened and she wondered if her anxiety was tied to those memories or not. Honestly she was afraid to find out and Robin Scorpio was not used to being afraid or at least was not used to letting it control her. She tended to confront her fears and face them head on. She was afraid of this and began cursing herself for being such a coward.

Suddenly she felt Jason pushing through her thoughts. She returned her focus to him and realized that they were both standing still. He was right in front of her with his hands cupping her face. It was then that she realized she was crying again.

"No" Robin stated spontaneously. Jason eyed her curiously but said nothing. She moved back slowly and he made no attempt to follow her. "I'm not ready yet. Just show me the river and talk about anything else."

"Okay." Jason nodded easily. "You set the pace Robin, I'll give you as much time and space as you need."

Robin stepped forward toward him again. He remained still and she slid her hand into his. He smiled at her and interlaced his fingers with hers and gave her a gentle squeeze.

"I'm feeling kind of schizophrenic right now. Just bear with me."

"I understand Robin. I pushed more than I meant to by holding on to your face like that. I'm not trying to push you. Take your time."

"I'll get there." Robin stated in a confident voice. She said it with more confidence than she felt. Jason on the other hand held no doubt that she would indeed get to the right time to share her memories with him.

Jason nodded. Holding hands they started off toward the river once again. As they continued through the woods toward the river Robin found that holding Jason's hand served for more than emotional comfort; that it provided physical stability as well as the path got rocky in some areas.

"How are things going with your problem of the friend working against you?" Robin asked softly. She wanted to talk and to hear Jason's voice as well without delving into the memories of Patrick's murder.

"Resolved," Jason told her with a smile. "It looked like something it wasn't and when we talked I discovered that my friend wasn't working against me after all."

"I am so glad." Robin told him emotionally. "That kind of betrayal is hard to take."

Jason just nodded. Robin gave him an understanding smile. She knew how much he hated talking about himself or his emotions. He would talk to her, Sonny, or Carly about these areas more openly than he would with anyone else. However, he was a man of action and preferred to display his emotions through actions than actually sitting down and talking about them.

Robin felt Jason stop and she did too. She looked around to see if there was a problem. When she didn't see anything she looked at Jason and realized that he was listening but he did not seem alarmed. She relaxed again.

"If you listen you can hear the river from here," Jason told her. "It is just over that little rise ahead of you."

Robin listened to the sound of the water running. She could tell that it was a little river as Jason had said but she wanted to see it anyway. There was something calming to her about standing on a bridge and listening to the water. It was somehow life affirming and peaceful.

"Ready?" Jason asked

"Oh yes. I really want to see it." Robin told him immediately. She always managed to feel better when standing on a bridge and listening to the water running beneath her. She could hardly wait to get there.

Just as Jason had said they could see the river as soon as they reached the top of the slight hill. They headed down to the river without saying a word. Robin listened to the water flowing beneath her as she stood on the bridge. She enjoyed the feeling that always accompanied it; it was like a physical reminder that life marches on even when you think you can't. The water always continues running and it was a feeling she treasured deeply especially when she was hurting badly.

"Robin" Jason said quietly as he lightly touched her arm. As she looked up at him she felt the tears running down her face.

"The blood was everywhere Jason!" Robin screamed suddenly. She leaned against the railing and tried desperately to concentrate on the water and the view in front of her and to push all the blood from her mind.

"Okay. Don't push yourself; it will come when it is time." Jason said in as soothing a tone as he could. He wanted desperately to pull her into his arms and let her cry it out and tell her that he would take care of it. The truth of the matter was he didn't know what was going on and he would need every one of her memories to find out. One thing was certain though; he was not willing to lose Robin in the process. If it came to it, he was willing to let the murderer get away in order to avoid destroying Robin in the process.

"What the hell is the matter with me?" Robin demanded of Jason a moment later.

"You are the doctor here Robin," Jason said with a smile. He remained close to her but did not touch her. He wasn't sure right now if she wanted him to or not and decided to leave it up to her. "My guess though is that you are in shock."

"I was in shock the night it happened. I should be better by now." Robin said as she paced back in forth across the width of the narrow bridge.

"Let's go put our feet in the water," Jason said suddenly. Robin looked at him like he was the crazy one for a moment. When he reached his hand out for her to take, she realized that he was serious. She took his hand and they crossed the bridge.

Jason led Robin down a small pathway toward the water. Just before they reached the edge of the river she saw a bench that was anchored to the heavy tree behind it. She and Jason sat on the bench and removed their shoes and socks. Jason stood up and offered his hand to Robin. She just looked at him for a minute and he sat down right next to her.

"Robin, I am not a specialist or anything but I am betting that the trip to the funeral home this morning set off another case of shock for you. The memories coming back like that is hard on your mind and your body. You are dealing with a lot right now."

"There is a lot that has to be taken care of Jason and I need to do it."

"Why?"

"What do you mean why? Because it is my responsibility, that is why. Patrick was my husband and it falls to me to give him a proper burial, assist the police in catching his murderer, and to raise this child that we created."

"You don't have to do it alone. Look, I understand that you have a hard time asking for help, we are a lot alike that way. However, letting someone help you is not a sign of weakness. Sometimes it is the only reasonable thing to do."

Robin nodded slightly without looking at Jason. He decided to continue in case some of it was getting through to her. "When a patient needs surgery do you do everything yourself?"

"Of course not," Robin replied immediately. "We have a whole surgical team that all work together for the good of the patient."

"Well then my dear, I would suggest you put together a surgical team and let them handle the operation. The only thing you should have to do is show up and take care of yourself and that precious baby. Leave the details to everyone else."

"I can't do that."

Jason stood up and held out his hand to Robin once again. This time she took it and they walked a few steps to the edge of the river.

"You can do anything in the world Robin. I've seen you come through a lot before and I know you can do it. Your parents are coming in tomorrow right?"

Robin nodded as she dipped a toe into the river. She pulled back quickly because of the extreme cold. She had expected it to be cold but this was worse than she imagined.

"Let them lead the operating team for you then. They will want to do something that can be of some real help to you and I think that would be perfect!"

"Okay," Robin stated thoughtfully. "There is a condition."

"What?"

"We go back to the cabin without walking around in that freezing water!"

"Deal," Jason told her with a smile and they returned to the bench to put on their shoes and socks.

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