AHHH, I HATE crickets! There is one outside my window, and it is honestly driving me insane! For some reason, I'm in a crazy amount of pain tonight. I keep getting distracted by my guitar. Haha. CHECK my YouTube page of guitar compositions if you are bored, ahaha and want to make me happy: /legogirleight
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She was the same way. Elphaba, her Elphie, her roommate and best friend, was gay. Glinda had never been happier. Her mind, as of late, had been consumed with self doubt and confusion which were neither emotions Glinda was familiar with nor emotions she particularly liked. But now this, Elphaba's confession, changed everything. Glinda liked Elphaba; there was no doubt about that in her mind. And Elphaba liked girls. Glinda was a girl which meant that it was in the realm of possibility that she could like Glinda and Glinda was now convinced that would happen.
"Say something, please." Elphaba muttered quietly. It was then, her celebratory thoughts interrupted, that Glinda realized that she had been staring off into space for a good two minutes leaving Elphaba in suspense after her confessions.
"Oh Elphie!" Glinda squealed, pulling her friend into a tight hug, revelling in the feeling of having her arms wrapped around her green skinned roommate. Elphaba couldn't help but notice the stark contrast between the creamy pale colour of Glinda's skin against the harsh green tone of her own. "I don't know what to say! I'm just so relieved!"
"Relieved?" Elphaba furrowed her brow.
"That you don't hate me! Or think I'm committing some moral crime or something." Glinda babbled quickly. The addition of 'and you can like me!' Glinda decided, was better left in her head. For now.
"Yes," Elphaba laughed uneasily. "And I don't have to worry about similar expressions coming from you."
"Exactly." Glinda nodded, bouncing happily before bursting out into a fit of giggles.
"What's so funny, Glin?" Elphaba asked, suppressing a smile herself at how unbelievably cute the blonde was whilst bubbling and giggling in sheer happiness for no apparent reason. A little overwhelming, but cute nonetheless.
"How likely was it that two girls who were complete opposites accidentally ended up rooming together and eventually becoming friends?" Glinda pondered.
"Well, it happened to us." Elphaba quipped, well aware that was the point Glinda was attempting to accentuate.
"Of course, Elphie, that's what I meant!" Glinda laughed. "And we're both gay! How likely was that?"
"On top of everything else, very unlikely." Elphaba agreed.
"It's almost as if it were meant to be." Glinda smiled wistfully, before realizing that though she was determined it would happen Elphaba was not yet hers. "You know, so we can support each other... and talk about things..."
"Right." Even Elphaba, who was not anywhere near as socially graced as Glinda, noticed the painful awkwardness lurking about the explanation behind Glinda's words. It's almost as if it were meant to be. Both girls, at Glinda's suggestion, became lost in their imaginations.
"I wonder how Boq and Nessa are making out. Did I tell you I suggested that they go for a picnic lunch together this afternoon to talk things over?" Glinda decided to break the comfortable silence that overtaken the room.
"No, we got off that topic before you mentioned that." Elphaba noted. "I really do hope that goes well. Boq doesn't like Nessa as much as she likes him, even I can tell that. But maybe after he's over his obsession with you he can." Glinda sighed awkwardly at this. She wouldn't attempt to deny that Boq felt something for her; she wasn't dense. Besides, Pfannee, Shenshen and Milla reminded her almost constantly whether simply to annoy her or out of jealousy, Glinda wasn't sure.
"I feel so badly about that. I mean, I've tried everything I can think of to convince him to get over it politely, and well, even bluntly before I became less... like I was before I realized what a bitch I was being to well, everyone." Glinda rambled and Elphaba felt badly for mentioning Boq's crush on Glinda so candidly.
"There's not much you can do. The heart will do as it pleases despite what our heads may want." Elphaba reasoned, knowing all too well that it was true. "Besides, I can't really blame him. You are beautiful." Did she really just say that out loud? Maybe Glinda wouldn't notice because she heard it all the time. Maybe...
"Did you just call me beautiful?" So much for Elphaba being the blunt one.
"I... I didn't..." Elphaba stammered momentarily before taking a breath and gaining her composure. "Yes. I think you're beautiful. It's not really my opinion. You are beautiful. I guess I've just never felt comfortable enough to say it before."
"I think you're beautiful." Glinda replied before even realizing she was opening her mouth. Filtering her thoughts was apparently not her forte tonight. In fact, at the moment, her train of thought consisted of little more than: she thinks I'm beautiful, she thinks I'm beautiful, and what did I just say?
"You don't have to say that, Glin." Elphaba smiled. "I'm hardly beautiful like you are."
"How can you think that, Elphie?" Glinda asked softly, bringing her hand up and running her fingers across Elphaba's cheek.
"I'm green, Glinda. Green is hardly beautiful." Elphaba pointed out.
"Do you think I'm beautiful because I'm white?" Glinda asked. "You've got beautiful features, Elphaba. No one notices because of the green, maybe, but I do."
"Maybe Nessa was wrong," Elphaba smirked, "Maybe you're the one who's delusional today."
"Oh Elphie," Glinda sighed sadly, "I wish you could see what I see when I look at you."
"I wish I could too." Elphaba admitted. "But after years of being taunted and shunned based on my appearance I think my chance at having a healthy self esteem in that regard is shot."
"You can't do that." Glinda brought her hand away from where it had been resting on Elphaba's face and intertwined their fingers once again.
"Do what?"
"Let being green define who you are, how people perceive you. You're beautiful, and you're quite possibly the smartest person I know. You're talented and caring and everyone should see that."
"How can anyone see that if I can't even begin to?" Elphaba had never been this comfortable with discussing her skin colour and general self image with anyone before and had someone told her even weeks before that she'd be having this discussion with her gorgeous, perfect roommate she would have laughed in their face.
"Look at me, Elphie." Elphaba looked up and her breath hitched slightly as her gaze locked with Glinda's. "Look at us. Right here, right now. It's just you and me. One and one, green and well, white. But there is no minority here. We're different, but who can tell which one of us is normal?"
"But out there, Glin..." Elphaba began only to be cut off.
"Out there doesn't matter right now. Only in here, that's where it counts. Out there no one knows anything about us. Out there everyone thinks I'm in the most perfect heterosexual relationship on campus when really I'd rather be here with you." Glinda decided she really had better turn her mind's filter back on or she was going to get herself into some serious trouble here!
"Okay. But you're my best friend, Glin, you have to make me feel better about myself, isn't that what best friends do?"
"What happened the last time I said that to you?"
"Good point."
"Elphie, you don't have to believe me if you don't want to- I'm just telling you how I feel." Glinda shrugged, feigning indifference. "But also take into account how I used to be and who I am now. Who I am because of you. If you can win me over and turn me into the person I have become around you I don't think there's much you can't attain." Except you, Elphaba added in her head. If only Glinda knew how she felt. Then maybe this speech of hers would have taken a slightly different route. Or maybe she wouldn't be here at all. It was one thing to know that Elphaba liked girls, but another entirely for Glinda to know that it was only one girl in particular that Elphaba liked: Glinda. She expected Elphaba to accept her preferring women and that was okay because it wasn't as if Glinda would like her. This ... crush, or whatever it was, could change everything.
"I... thank you." Was what Elphaba finally decided upon as a reply. Elphaba's complete lack of ability to take a compliment was adorable, in Glinda's opinion, and she was suddenly overcome with emotion for the girl who's hand she held in her own. Wrapping her arms around the green girl again, she made no move to end the embrace, memorizing the feel of Elphaba's body against her own. Elphaba was also quite enjoying the embrace. She loved the way Glinda, so much shorter than herself, seemed to fit perfectly into her arms. She loved the feeling of Glinda's breasts pressed against her own, only it was almost too much to handle. Pulling away, Elphaba allowed Glinda's hand to slip back into her own but found she had no words that seemed appropriate in this situation. Glinda was, once again, confused. She had complimented Elphie, she had hugged her, tightly, more than once, she had been brutally honest and now she was holding her hand. Elphaba hadn't yet confessed her love for the blonde and this, to Glinda, was disconcerting. No boy could ever resist her, why could Elphaba?
"I have to say, Elphie, I'm a little confused." Filter be damned, Glinda knew what she wanted and by Oz, she was going to get it.
"Confused? At what, Glin?" Elphaba asked, now confused herself. What had transpired in the past few moments to spur this sudden confusion?
"You, Elphaba." This time the use of her full name was not in a cold, upsetting tone as it had been before, but rather in a sweet almost dangerous tone that made Elphaba feel more than a little nervous as to what was coming next.
"Me?" Elphaba gulped.
"Yes, you." Glinda smiled coyly, shifting ever so subtly towards her friend. "You're ever so confusing." Glinda, satisfied that she had Elphaba's full attention, smiled broadly and batted her eyelashes.
"I... I am?" Elphaba had, against her better judgement, allowed herself to fall under the spell that was Glinda. She was at her disposal now and could only pray to the Unnamed God that Glinda didn't coax anything too embarrassing out of her.
"Yes," Glinda nodded, slipping her hand which had previously been intertwined with Elphaba's to rest just slightly behind where Elphaba was sitting resulting in Glinda nearly straddling the green girl's lap. Elphaba swallowed forcefully again. What in the name of Oz was Glinda trying to accomplish? Elphaba could never remember being so far out of her mind before. The way Glinda looked, the way she smelled, how close she was to Elphaba, was driving the green girl insane. Her eyes looking up into Elphaba's filled with a mischievousness that had never been there before, her lips looking so tantalizingly inviting...
"Glinda," Elphaba managed to get out. Glinda smiled triumphantly at her success. Elphaba definitely didn't not like her!
"Yes, Elphie?"
"Maybe we'd both feel a little less... confused, if we perhaps got a drink, or took a walk. I'm feeling quite overheated, myself." Elphaba suggested and part of Glinda wanted to shake her. This was when Elphaba was supposed to confess her feelings and madly kiss her, not suggest they go for a walk!
"But it's so chilly outside today, Elphie! Are you sure you're not sick? Maybe you have a fever?" Glinda teased, feigning concern. She was feeling rather overheated herself. "Or maybe removing some of your clothing would help? If you're warm that heavy frock cannot be helping." Glinda smiled wickedly.
"I don't think that's a wise idea." Elphaba countered faintly. It was almost as if Glinda was doing this on purpose. Almost as if... "What is this about? If this is some sort of game I really don't appreciate..."
"Appreciate what?" Glinda prompted after Elphaba trailed off. She was getting so close!
"You playing with how I feel." Elphaba answered quietly. Had Glinda not been sitting entirely too close to her, she may not have caught the words.
"And how is that Elphie?" Glinda asked seriously, inching just the slightest bit closer and using her free hand to tilt Elphaba's chin up so that their eyes met.
"I like you, Glinda, I like you a lot. And you sitting there so close to me, looking like you do, saying all these things... it's misleading and if you make a habit out of it, I can see why you have an abnormally large amount of boys following you around." Elphaba tore her gaze away from Glinda's in fear of her reaction to the confession.
"Elphie," Glinda sighed softly. "Elphaba, look at me." She didn't. "Please?" The quiet almost pleading tone to Glinda's voice possessed Elphaba to lift her gaze to once again meet the blonde's. "I'm not playing with your emotions, and I'm certainly not misleading you."
"But if you're not misleading me, that would mean..." Elphaba realized what Glinda was implying. "Oh."
"I knew you were smart." Glinda giggled.
"I don't understand." Elphaba sighed in frustration. "I mean, I think I do understand, but seriously. Me? Of all people, me, Glinda?"
"It's always been you, Elphie." Glinda smiled. Elphaba smiled brightly at her, making Glinda giggle again. "You're even more beautiful when you smile, you know. You should smile more often."
"Just for clarifications sake," Elphaba began, "If it's always been me, what would you have proceeded to do had I not confessed my sexual orientation?"
"Why exactly what I did." Glinda shrugged with that same mischievous glint in her eye.
"Why Glinda, I'm shocked." Elphaba teased. "You would hit on a straight woman?"
"I could have converted you!" Glinda replied seriously. "You would have never been able to resist me."
"Are you sure? Because now, come to think of it, Fiyero is pretty dreamy." Elphaba joked.
"Elphie! Don't even say that!" Glinda pretended to pout. "All this talk about Fiyero is making me feel neglected." Glinda had gotten her confession and now she only had one thing on her mind: her kiss. Elphaba's lips, even while teasing Glinda about Fiyero looked absolutely delectable.
"And what do you suggest I do about that?" Elphaba, similarly, wanted nothing more to discover if Glinda's full, pink lips were as luscious as she imagined them to be but having never, as Nessarose suggested earlier, had experience in a relationship, she was unsure how to go about finding that out.
"Kiss me."
"What!?"
"Kiss me, Elphie."
"Are you serio-" Elphaba began only to be cut off by Glinda pressing her lips against her own. Her eyes fluttered shut at the unexpected, but highly anticipated, contact as her hand buried itself in Glinda's blonde curls. This action was just enough to finally set them off balance as Elphaba fell backwards onto the bed taking Glinda with her. Neither wanted to break the contact as Glinda probed Elphaba's mouth open with her tongue eliciting a moan though from which it came was unknown to either girl. Hands tentatively began to explore until breathing became an issue and they were forced to break apart. The position they ended up in was rather compromising: Glinda lying nearly completely on top of Elphaba, their legs entangled creating a mess of limbs.
"Elphie?" Glinda asked softly, tracing up and down the green girl's side with her fingers.
"Yes, my sweet?" Elphaba answered, her eyelids fluttering open and shut at the feelings Glinda's fingers were creating and at the perfection of the entire situation.
"There really was no mystery man."
"No mystery man, indeed."
A/N: OKAY. So, basically, that wraps up the majority of the story. I have a bit more I could write in some form of epilogue, but maybe we'll have a little vote to see if anyone wants that, or if this is a satisfactory enough ending? Endings are really not my strong point. I hope you have enjoyed my first attempt at femslash and well, basically my first attempt at Wicked Fanfiction! Reviews make my world brighter!
Thank you, everyone, for reading!