Sorry to everyone who's been waiting for the next update!
There will be lemon in this chapter! (Forgive me but I've been fanfiction-ing since before 2007, is lemon still used? Or is it mostly referred to as smut now? Either way, here you are!)
Total disarray overtook the house by storm, crawling up the walls and filling up the air. Composure had been lost for a good while after Nagisa's arrival, his sobs loud and heavy with unwarranted guilt after seeing Rei's condition. Ever considerate of others, Rei cursed himself at his inability to console the blonde, his own emotional footing slipping. Nagisa's arms flung out, wrapping themselves around Rei's body, falling into the taller boy's form. Nagisa and Rei stayed like this for quite a while, Rei being slightly closer to his classmate than his sempais. When the group finally settled down, they all sat on the floor of Haruka's bedroom, around the center table. Nagisa'a face was wrecked with tears, Haruka's usually monotone face was scrunched up in nervousness, Maokoto's intense with concern, Rin looking downwards and away from the group, and Rei's eyes flushed red, and perhaps the rest of his face would have been too if not for the black and blue.
Makoto took it upon himself to break the queasy silence in the room, eyes flickering towards Rei before cautiously asking, "Rei... can you tell us what happened? Were you in a fight? Or an accident?"
Rei avoided Makoto's gaze, nearly biting down, again, on his already split lip. His eyes stole towards the shark sitting right next to him and from behind the table, Rin gingerly ran his thumb over Rei's knuckles. Rei was grateful for the gesture, knowing that Rin was trying the best he could with empathizing, but his heart was pounding out of his chest. Rin looked at him with worry-stricken eyes as Rei's breath became more labored and he could feel the tremors in his hand. But Rei, of course, forced his rising panic back down, trying to maintain the beautiful front he had worked so hard to create. Pushing himself to look back, Rei shakily breathed out, "It was my father."
He flinched at the shocked look on their faces, their eyes wide with disbelief and mouths open in caught gasps. Green eyes met blue, blue eyes met pink, pink met red, then all back to Rei's lavender. Rei watched anxiously as his team mates struggled to find words, mouths opening and closing, wild eyes shooting back at eachother, eyebows upturned. He felt the familiar vibrating up his arms and legs as shadows slowly crawled up his back. A hand, Rin's, grasping tightly at his wrist brought him back to reality and he whipped his head up, continuing hurriedly, "I-it's", a second of faltering, "It's been happening for many years. I have strategies for covering up. I can handle the situation with my own means."
Rei hoped he sounded confident enough to convince his team mates. They shot eachother confused looks, before Makoto insisted, "But your-"
"Tattoo... tattoo cover up." Rei interrupted sharply. They sat in stunned silence, mouths dropped open, words dying in their throats.
Rei thought he was going to die and wither away under their eyes, his body burning with a desire to run. This had been a mistake.
"So every day," Nagisa said, breathless, wide eyed, "you've come to practice like this and we just... never saw?"
Rei shuddered guiltily under the words, but nodded. They sat together, still, until Nagisa pushed himself to break the silence.
"Why... didn't you tell us?"
Rei swallowed thickly, eyes down to his lap as he struggled to form words. "It's-" Rei felt himself suffocating, his emotions locking him down. "It's not beautiful." Tremors rocked his body as he tried to cough out, "I didn't want anyone to know... You're not supposed to talk about your personal problems. About your isues, about what goes on at home. I wanted to be a top student, perfection, not... not this weak... not the shameful neighborhood freak show."
"THAT'S-" Rin bit his tongue back after his outburst, a yell loud enough to cause Rei to shudder back, eyes knitted into a sharp glare at the wall, rooting himself back to the floor. "That's not something you should ask, Nagisa." He finally mumbled out. Nagisa shakily nodded and apologized. They all knew it, too. The horrible stigma that came with revealing you had less than a perfect life. No one talked of mental illness, no one talked of abuse, or dysfunction, things like alcoholism or divorce, lest you be outcast by the community. You were expected to either deal with your problems in any way you could, or wallow silently in them. They all sat there, everyone looking in their own direction. Rin cast a look over at Rei, who's eyes were cast downwards as he subtly, mindlessly scratched at his legs with a steady rhythm. Haruka took notice to Rin's reoccurring glances and boldly asked, "Rei, how did Rin become involved with this?"
Harshly yanked from his thoughts, Rei struggled to find something to say, mouth agape. He hadn't told his team mates anything about life at Samezuka, let alone come out to them at all about homosexuality and his boyfriend. He tried to fabricate a story out of no where, when suddenly an arm draped itself over his shoulder.
"We're together," Rin grunted, stone faced. "Got a problem with things of that nature?" The shark and dolphin stared at eachother with unfriendly, irritated faces.
Rei stared panicked at Haruka, trying to gauge a reaction, when Haruka shrugged and drawled, "I don't see why I would, right Makoto?"
For the first time of the night, Makoto hummed contently and nuzzled lightly into Haruka's hair. Now Rin's stunned expression matched Rei's. The mood quickly turned when Haruka brought them back to reality with, "So, no that that's out in the open, what are we going to do about this now."
"Room supervision's strict at Samezuka." Rin cut in bitterly. "I can only keep a guest there for a few days at a time." Everyone traded looks, but when no one spoke up, Rei unconsciously hunched over, caving into himself.
"Stay with me." Rei's face shot up as he faced Nagisa's crystal pink eyes. "You can stay with me, Rei-chan."
"Me too", Makoto echoed hurriedly. Haruka nodded in confirmation. "It'll be hard and inconvenient for you... but what if you stay at all of our places for a little bit until we can find something permanent? Spend a week at my place, at Makoto's, Nagisa's, Rin's, back to mine, none of us would mind at all." The other two Iwatobi swimmers grinned in excitement and agreement, but Rei began stuttering uncontrollably.
"I-I couldn't, there's no way I could ever, ever burden anyone of you like-"
"It wouldn't be a burden, God fucking damn it!" Rin spat, giving Rei a flick on the nose. Drawing back, Rei stared incredulously at him, then all around at his team mates determined faces. He tried to protest, but all he could do was swipe his arm across his face to capture the tears that began to leak out.
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"Fuck, Rei, stop sulking!" Rin growled from the other side of the futon, but Rei just 'hmph'-ed and turned his face farther away. They sat in the tense atmosphere of the guest bedroom in Haruka's house, not sure how they were supposed to share it for the night after the conversation they had just had with Nagisa.
"I'm surprised you too ended up together after the joint meet fiasco." Nagisa teased the two after the housing for Rei had been settled.
"Joint meet?" Rin and Rei asked in unison. Nagisa and Makoto looked at each other curiously before Nagisa turned back and questioned, "You two don't remember meeting at the Iwatobi and Samezuka joint swim practice?" Rei and Rin jolted back in surprise, staring at each other with open mouths. 'He was there?" They both thought to themselves. 'Of course he would have been, but why don't I remember him?' Rei struggled to answer himself.
Mischief glistened in Nagisa's eyes as he mocked, "Rei-chan, Rin-chan was the guy you said had an attitude problem. And Rin-chan," Nagisa giggled maliciously, "Rei-chan was the speedo swimmer who almost drowned."
Both their jaws dropped to the floor as the spun to face each other and scream, "THAT WAS YOU?"
"I can't believe that was you." Rei huffed, arms crossed. "Makes sense, though." Rin rolled his eyes and demanded, "And I can't believe I got stuck with the king of all losers, fucking drowning at entry level. So, what are you going to do for the rest of the night? Pout?"
Rei's eyebrows knitted together as he sighed heavily and groaned, "I just... don't want to think about anything right now."
Rin watched the glasses wearing underclassman for a few moments, an eyebrow raised. After a while, he drawled casually, "You know, I've never met someone who could force their own panic attacks down." Rei finally whipped his head to Rin and looked away, frustrated. When he didn't get a response, Rin continued, "Does the medicine help?"
Clenching his fists, Rei wished Rin had never found the bottle of anxiety meds while they were packing to leave the house. It was one of his more gaurded secrets, and to have the topic passed around so casually. "Are you making fun of me?" Rei tested. Rin stared at Rei before sighing and reaching into his own overnight bag, the one he had packed thinking he would be spending a calm night with Rei, and flinging something at the megane. Snatching it out of the air, Rei looked and saw- a bottle. He lost his breath for a moment after reading the label.
"Are these... anti-depressants?"
Now it was Rin's turn to look the other way, huffing while crossing his arms. It quickly dawned on Rei. The violent outbursts, short temper, lack of social relationships, how hard he was on himself over his swimming and failures. He almost missed it when Rin continued.
"It runs in the family. Gou doesn't have it, thank God, but I've been on them for a while. It can be similar to anxiety medicine. The side effects, you know," He said almost monotonously. "My dad died a few years back. And I'm not advancing as fast as I thought I would be in swimming. I can't... talk to my family. And I don't have many friends."
Rei stared at his lover and adjusted his glasses.
"Why are you telling me this? Why are you still here? After what happened tonight, what you saw, it'd be much more logical to cut things off. We haven't been involved for long so, you're not attached, why are you doing this?"
"I'm telling you because I'm pissed that you didn't tell me." Rin finally spat out. "I'm telling you so next time, you'll tell me too. So you can't give me a bullshit excuse about not knowing how I'll react, or about it not being okay to say that kinda stuff yet." They sat in eachother's company an Rin gritted his teeth and forced himself to continue. "I'm... sorry for all those times I got too physical... raised my voice... my temper. I didn't know. I'm trying my best, okay? So...fucking help me by letting me know what's going on."
They locked eyes, narrow wine red meeting narrow lavender. Rin quickly closed the gap between their bodies and gently pushed Rei down to the ground on the futon. Their mouths met and Rin ground his hips into Rei's. Rei moaned softly into the razor toothed boy's mouth and fluidly pushed his hips back. Breaking their lips apart, Rin kissed down the bruised jawline and grabbed a fistful of hair, tugging softly so Rei would expose more of his neck. Shivers ran up and down his spine as kisses and nips were places all over the finger shaped marks around his throat.
"Rin-sempai, you-"
"You said you didn't want to think of anything tonight, right?" Rin teased, giving a soft suck to the bend between Rei's neck and shoulder. "Don't worry about me. I'll focus on you. I'll make you forget." Rei shivered underneath those words and felt hands slip up his shirt. He'd never played with himself very much in the first place, let alone experiment with his chest, so the pleasure he felt from Rin playing with his nipples was a new feeling to him. His dick twitched in his pants at the sensation and he went dark red.
"I-I didn't know men's... worked like this." He said shakily. Rin lifted Rei's shirt off of him and began licking down his chest. "So there's a subject you don't excel in, hmm?" The maroon haired upperclassman mocked. "It varies. Mine aren't very sensitive at all, but you seem to be feeling it, huh?" Rei was grinding back into Rin, his glasses slightly askew. Rin smirked and reached over to his bag on the floor. Pulling out a bottle of lube, he momentarily thanked that troublesome Seijuuro for putting those gushy thoughts in his head. Before going to Rei's, he had packed these 'supplies' just in case something happened.
Kissing down the navy haired swimmer's stomach, Rin pulled down Rei's shorts with his teeth. Shooting a look back up, he smirked even harder at Rei's red, breathless face, biting down gently on the injured lip, eyes glazed over. Jolts ran up Rei's back and soft kisses were placed all over his hip bones.
"Rei," Rin said, slightly breathless as well, lubing up his fingers, "let me try going inside, okay?"
Rei tried to get his body to kick Rin in the face and scream 'NO WAY', but lust and curiosity won out. Nodding, Rei took a shaky breath as he hooked his hands under his knees to hold himself open, and eyes clenched shut as he felt a finger on his entrance. Rubbing the entrance slowly while using his other hand to stroke Rei's length, Rin waited until the tension left Rei's body. Feeling a finger go in finally, Rei forced himself to relax as Rin got him used to the feeling of thrusting.
"I-I would have assumed this would have been more pleasurable." Rei whined. Rin shhh-ed him and said, "It'll get better, let me find it." Rei's research had told him that Rin would have probably been referring to the prostate, but he bit his tongue as Rin pushed a second lubed finger in. At this point he was considering asking Rin to stop and just give him a handjob, when a flick of Rin's fingers sent something ripping through his body. He threw his head back and let out a cry. Taking in a weak gasp, Rei looked back at him and said, "D-Do that again."
Nodding, his own erection pressed tightly against his pants, Rin drew his hand back and with a surge of confidence, he began rapidly finger fucking Rei. Crying out loudly with each thrust of the fingers, Rei's back arched completely off the floor as Rin grabbed his cock and stroked it in rhythm to the thrusts. Although there was a slight pain from the sudden assault on his not fully prepared body, Rei found himself drowning in the feeling from having his insides played with.
"R-Rin-Sempai, it's- AHH, it's too f-fast- AHH, please, please HAH, I can't, MMMM"
Rei panted and his body shook, the hot sparks of pleasure causing his stomach to tighten. He thrust back into the fingers, moaning shamefully at how Rin was able to get that little bit deeper. "Play with your chest." Rin commanded and Rei, who would have normally fought Rin for that dominating tone, found his hands crawling across his pecs.
"Sh-shit, Rin-sempai, shit, I-I", "Does it feel good?" Rei threw his head back and whined into his throat. Rin's dick went rock hard at the sight before him, licking his lips unconscionably as he enjoyed watching Rei's body writhe beneath him, getting excited at how the cursing that was of rare use from the usually eloquent teen. Cries and moans filled the room as Rei pinched at the nubs on his chest, head thrown back, his stomach clenching tighter and tighter and mind growing fuzzier.
"I'm going to-" Rei gasped out and Rin gave one last burst, thrusting and stroking his hands as fast as he could. A cry ripped from his throat as Rei came harder than he could have imagined, splattering across his own stomach, panting from the afterglow as Rin slowly slipped out. Figuring he had succeeded in distracting Rei from his thoughts, Rin decided he could finish himself off on the bathroom. A hand snaked around his wrist when he tried to stand and his eyes met the glazed over gaze of the bruised boy. Rin could see Rei's legs shuddering uncontrollably from the intensity of the orgasm.
"I haven't forgotten." Rei said aggressively. It went straight to Rin's dick and he tried to gain control of himself, insisting, "Are you sure you're ready?"
"Put it in." Rei growled, and Rin absolutely lost it. Ripping a condom out of his bag and onto his length as fast as humanly possible, Rin hooked his arms under Rei's legs and forced them apart as he slowly slid in. He groaned softly, overwhelmed with the tightness and heat. Rei let out fast gasps, hyper sensitive from his first orgasm. Rin quickly lost control of himself, thrusting into Rei relentlessly, basking in the cries he was rewarded with.
"I didn't think you would- ah, be so enthusiastic, Rei. Is getting fucked that, mmm, good?" Rin teased cruelly, teenage hormones taking over. Rei could only grasp at Rin's built arms and cry out, thrashing underneath the sensation of a second orgasm growing.
"Rin, please, I, I-" Rei couldn't form coherent words, but Rin had an idea at what he was getting at. Making a mental note that Rei absolutely lost his shit while getting fucked, something he's definitely have to exploit, he began pumping Rei's cock in time, making sure to pay extra attention to the red tip dripping with precum. Rei screamed out Rin's name, scratching his nails down the muscled arms, tightening down, all helping throw Rin over the edge as well as they both came.
They stayed panting for a few moments, Rei's body shaking violently. When the post-orgasm waves of pleasure finally dulled away from Rei's body, he groaned painfully at his sore body. Rin guiltily helped him sit up, realizing that perhaps fucking someone raw wasn't the best idea a few hours after they've received a beating of a lifetime. Fishing painkillers out of Rei's backpack, they laid together quietly waiting for them to kick in for Rei. Rei ran his hands over his own bruises and marks and reflected upon what had just happened- their first time.
"I'm topping next time." Rei sniffed arrogantly. Rin looked at him smugly and said, "I don't know, you seemed to like getting fucked."
Rei went completely red and grabbed Rin by the collar, shaking him and screaming, "It's wasn't even that good! Your form was terrible! I lost a solid 15% of possible pleasure from your uncalculated thrusts!"
The two bickered all the way through the clean up process, while getting ready for bed, and in eachother's faces as they laid together in the dark under the covers of the futon. They glared irritably at each others faces when suddenly they heard Haruka's screaming from downstairs.
"Fuck, Makoto, FUCK- AH!"
Rin and Rei froze, staring into the other's eyes in the dark, when Rin cracked and began laughing crazily.
"HAHAHAA, someone was bit too loud and got Haruka and Makoto worked up, HAHAHAHAHAH!"
Rei's entire body and face went red, shooting up in bed, grabbing fistfuls of his hair and screaming, "NOOO, HARUKA-SEMPAI, MAKOTO-SEMPAI, I THOUGHT YOU LEFT FOR DINNER!"
So before I start working on the next chapter, there are 2 general ways I can take this. I can progress the story as I had originally planned (which is moderately angsty), or I could introduce an extra conflicted (which would elongate the story by a few chapters and add a handful more angst). Please review and tell me which you'd prefer