Theme song: Sooner or later By: Breaking Benjamin

I hate you Shinji…I hate your stupid yellow piss pee hair…I hate that damned sparkling smile…I hate your shifty grey eyes…I hate the way…I can't hate you entirely…

He left me…I'm not going to be hurt again… I told them calmly.

Is that why you ran away? Kurai asked, I felt my head nod.

You should at least apologize to that Toshiro boy… Awai told me, I hated it when she was right…

I found Toshiro at fifth division talking with Momo, "Then she just ran away…" he said, his voice sounded hurt as I was filled with guilt.

"T-T-Toshiro!" Momo shouted, "I don't care about her! I just care about you! Why can't you see that!? Why do you only care about her?!" what?! This surprised me more then anything…

"I-I-I'm sorry Momo…I love you…but not like that…your like a sister to me…I love Kurenai…" he said the guilt and honestly in his voice was firm, "I-I-I DON'T CARE ANYMORE!" She shouted as I hid she ran out her face was all twisted up full of pain it hurt to look at it…is that what Toshiro looked like when I ran away? Toshiro let out a sigh as I approached him.

"Hey…" I said I didn't know what to say all of the sudden my heart sped up and I found my self stumbling over my words, "I- Well, um, I just, you see, I kind of, well," I sighed…this was all they're fault… "I jut wanted to…apologize…" I said sheepishly he smiled as I my heart felt like it was going to burst out of my chest…

"I-I-I don't know what's going on right now…" I muttered…he laughed it was surprisingly filled with happiness, it fit him…usually he's always glum and serious looking…when he laughed it made him seem more like a boy…

"Don't worry bout it…I'll wait…" he said…waiting…maybe that's what I should've done…wait…what is Toshiro to me? Was he just a substitute for the pain? I didn't want to think of him as that it seemed a bit…well, selfish…using him for my own personal pain reliever…

"Well Kurenai, later…" he said as he left I realized he called me Kurenai!

"It's growing restless again,"

"Can you hold it back?"

"I'm trying!"

"Sooner or-"

"I KNOW!"

"Should we tell her the truth?"

"NO! Not yet…she's not ready…"

"I don't think she'll ever be ready but she needs to know…"

"The truth's going to hurt, but she'll have to learn to accept it,"

"What she does after she learns the truth is entirely up to her…but I'm worried what she'll do…"

"Well we've got to confront her…"

"Lets just let her have a little bit more time with her new pain reliever as she put it…"

"A rather odd way to put it if I do say so myself,"

"pft, yeah…"

The next day I fought back a smile as Toshiro came into the office the next day, "Good morning Captain," he said, back to his usual self eh? Today he came in carrying a box of chocolate and other sweets.

"Who's that from?" I asked not looking up from my paper work.

"Captain Ukitake…I wish he'd stop treating me like a kid!" he said with a venting edge to his voice.

"No offence…but you are a kid…" I said mater of factually.

He made a humph sound and said, "Well! I do look like a kid but I'm actually ninety years old!" he protested, this shocked even me! Of course I was still a lot older but he only looked twelve!

"Well it's true that soul's age a lot slower then humans…" I said mostly to myself as a hell butterfly flew in and landed on my finger.

*ALL CAPTAINS AND LIEUTENANTS PLEASE REPORT TO FIRST DIVISION HEAD QUARTERS IMMEDIATELY!*

"Did you get that?" I asked Toshiro he nodded his face was back to its original determined look, I was about to grab my Zanpaku-to when I realized…they weren't there…oh well I didn't have time to search and if a battle came up I could just use Kido. I flash stepped to first division Toshiro followed close behind, I was the fifth captain there…the head captain, Soi Fon, Unohana, Aizen and there Lieutenants were all there as we walked in I saw Momo give Toshiro a dirty look, Toshiro just sighed, every captain was there except third divisions captain Ichimaru, he was thirty minutes late…once all the captains were there the head captain began.

"I know this is sudden but an I have good reason for calling this emergency captains meeting! Exactly one hour ago all shinigami patrolling the perimeters of the Rukongai were all reported dead," gasps of surprise erupted.

"The purpose of these sudden deaths are unknown but we request all shinigami have there zanpaku-to's at all times! We need two captains to volunteer to look into this along with Captain of second division Soi Fon," he waited for one second as I stepped forward at the same time as, to my surprise Aizen, he rarely volunteered for this type of stuff…

"Very well! Captain Kurotsuchi has the information you'll need report to his division in exactly one hour!" I wondered if that'd be enough time to find my zanpaku-to…

Awai! Kurai! Are you guys there? I asked, I felt insane talking to myself inside my head.

Yes, but we're a bit busy! Kurai said, what could they be busy with?

Mind telling me where you are?

Do you need us right now? Awai asked, I told them about the Captains meeting as I walked back to my room I found them there.

Any clue why Aizen would volunteer for this? I asked them.

I don't know but be careful of him. Kurai warned again, I sighed.

Yeah, yeah, I responded lazily.

This is no joke! Take this seriously! Awai commanded, it was unusual for her to protest on something that trivial… was it just me or is everyone acting crazy today?! I was about to knock at Aizen's office door when I heard Gin and Tosen all there talking…those three never converse! I knocked as they paused.

"Oh! 'Ello captain Urahara!" Gin greeted me with that huge grin…it reminded me a bit of Shinji…GHA! NO! I refuse to even think that name! I told myself as Tosen turned to nodded to me I took that as a hello, I noticed Gin had his sword out and it was soaked in blood he followed by eyes and quickly sheathed it and smiled again, Gin and Tosen left as Aizen greeted me as politely as ever…I also noticed there was a blood stain on the carpet.

"U-Um Captain Aizen…" I said a bit unsure, Any idea why Aizen is suddenly having in-depth conversations with Gin and Tosen? I asked them curious.

Well Gin used to be Aizen's lieutenant…Kurai said, his voice trailed off as if he knew more but was unwilling to say, as I realized it had been one hour!

"Well we should probably get to twelfth division!" he said standing up…