Theme song: Fall to pieces By: Avril Lavigne .com/watch?v=BGh0CcbVoPQ
"You were the last one and your hollowfication wasn't complete you still had a chance…so Shinji erased your memory to keep you from coming after them, and Kisuke sealed the hollow…he left the rest of it to us but he knew we wouldn't be able to hold the hollow off forever so he didn't erase our memories…" Kurai told me.
"Shinji and the others were banned to the world of the living and Aizen framed Kisuke for the hollowfication incident…" Awai finished.
"What'd he do with the Hogyoku?" I asked, when I saw Awai and Kurai share a glance as I moaned and yelled, "Are you seriously keeping MORE secrets from me!?" they were silent as I rolled my eyes and moved onto the next question, "Why hasn't Aizen tried to kill me?" I asked them next playing with a strand of my hair.
"He had no reason to kill you…if he killed you he'd have to cover up another death and for no reason, but now he does have a reason…" Awai said, it made sense I guess…
"Do you know where Kisuke and the Vizards are now?" I asked them.
"We have an idea where Kisuke is, as for the Vizards…" Kurai began.
"We have no clue…and to be honest…some of them may not have survived the hollowfication…" Awai said sympathetically but sympathy was the last thing I wanted right now!
"GOD! SO YOU DECIDED NOW TO DROP THAT BOMB! OH! WELL THANKS! THAT HELPS A LOT!" I shouted I just wanted to beat the crap out of something right now…I didn't know what to do now…
"What do I do?" I asked them through clenched teeth, they sighed again.
"From now…it's your choice…" Kurai said.
"I DON'T WANT CHOICES I WANT MY LIFE BACK! I WANT THEM BACK! I WANT…!" I shouted. As I collapsed on my knees, "I-I-I…I just want…" I wanted to burst into tears, I wanted his arms wrapped around me…I wanted to hear his voice whisper in my ear that everything would be okay…
"What do I do…?" I asked in a whimper, Awai nuzzled my cheek.
"What do you want to do?" Kurai asked I sat up on the bed regaining myself.
"A battle you can't win…that's what it feels like…no matter how much you cry, pray, wish, beg, shout, scream…the worlds not going to change…neither is the past…" I sighed as I looked into Kurai's vibrant silver eyes and stroked Awai's shaggy white fur, "I can't make Toshiro and Ukitake go through what I did…but I want to see Shin- Him again…I need to find Kisuke…and I want revenge on Aizen…" I told Kurai and Awai.
"So what are you going to do about it?" Kurai asked…well I needed to know…
"My inner hollow…how do I control it?" I asked them, they looked at me like I was insane, "Well I'm going to need to know!" I protesting proving my point, as Awai said a bit unsure.
"Well…there's only one person who we can think of who would know how to do that…" she paused as Kurai finished, "Your brother…Kisuke…" I sighed…of course it had to be him! Damn…
"Oh well…" I sighed…I'd just have to use other means…but I was going to hurt Ukitake and Toshiro…badly…I was selfish…stupid… but I wanted to do this…I wondered how many other people I'd hurt in the process, there was absolutely no person in the world I'd hate more than myself once I did this…
"I'm going to need your help…" I told them.
"Please don't be rash!" Awai begged.
"I'm gonna need to go to the world of the living…" I told him.
"That! Would be along the lines of rash!" Kurai shouted.
"I don't care anymore…I'm going to be rash…I'm gonna be half dead by the time I finish…but I don't care…not anymore…" I told them…
The next day went on pretty normally…I didn't really care much anymore and it felt great not to care! After lunch I was called to a captains meeting…
"Yesterday Captain's Aizen and Urahara investigated and found out about the Menos but there's still the mystery about the shinigami that were killed by sword," The head captain stated when Soi Fon stepped forward and said, "Yesterday Captain Aizen made an interesting proposal," I hid a smile…perfect…
"The suggestion of Vizards and Arrancars," Kurotsuchi said as he stepped forward, "A Vizard is a Shinigami that has acquired the powers of a hollow, an Arrancar is a hollow that has removed it's mask thus gaining shinigami like powers, these are both interesting suggestions both of these acts are illegal within the soul society so it's highly unlikely…"
As I stepped forward and asked emotionlessly "Yesterday, the head Captain said that this was most likely the work of rouge shinigami is it possible these rouge shinigami some how turned into Vizards?" I saw the head captains eyes narrow as I said the word Vizard, the meeting was adjourned after the head captain said that they would look into it…as I was leaving someone caught my arm, I spun around using Yoruichi's flash step with a turn move.
"Ukitake?" I asked emotionlessly, "Yes, Kurenai, would you join me for tea?" he asked it didn't seem unusual but I had a feeling he knew…but of course he couldn't approach me with it directly so he would try something like this…
"I'd be delighted…" I said not betraying a bit of emotion, as I followed him, as we sat down.
"Kurenai…what are you trying to do?" he asked I blinked and let my self show a bit of ignorance.
"What do you mean?" I asked, he sighed as he looked down and shook his head.
"When you woke up from that coma…do you remember anything from that night?" he asked trying not to push it too much, I sighed and looked away.
"I've told you this before…I don't remember anything…as much as I wish I did…" I muttered, he sighed again and said, "When you woke up, and they were gone…I know it must've been hard…Shinji and you were close…Hiyori and-"
I jolted up and yelled, "Did you invite me just to remind me that my life sucks?!" I shouted it letting anger sink threw my words, as I stormed out and left I remembered that I had to play ignorant…Aizen probably suspects something too if Ukitake was smart enough to pick up on that Aizen probably thinks something of it too but that's exactly what I want…
I can't believe after everything I've told you your really doing this! Kurai scolded I smirked…
Well believe it!