(Listent to "Moonlight Sonata" for Edward POV)
Edward POV
"Come for a walk with me," I said as I held her hand. The look on my angels face was unbearable, she knows something is wrong with my voice and the way I'm acting to wards her.
I grabbed her hand and was hauling her to the dirt trail path in the forest.
Not even walking too far, I stopped. I know she gets lost easy.
I lean against the tree, then looked up at her with my cold eyes.
She gasped and fell back. I was about to rush to her side and pick her up but restrained myself. No Edward, this is for her sake, she can't live the rest of her life with a monster like me. I'll give up my life before I make her into one of us, a soulless, blood drinking, monster.
She stood up without meeting my eyes, "Okay, lets talk." She's trying to be brave.
"Bella we're leaving."
"Well okay, in a week or so? Okay, I still need to get my things packed and I still need to makeup an alibi for Charlie," she says as she starts walking in my direction.
I look up at her with my cold eyes again, Bella, I love so much, I'm sorry for coming into your life.
She stops walking towards me.
She starts to comprehend what my words actually meant as she stays quiet for a moment then looks back up at me.
"When you say we—" she said before I cut her off.
"I mean my family and myself," I say in a clipped tone.
Bella, don't cry, its unbearable to even see you shed a tear, even more when I'm the source of causing them.
She stays quiet for a moment, lost in thought. What I would give to have a look into her mind…
"Don't do this, I know you feel bad about the party but that's nothing! Edward it's nothing!" She shouted with anger towards me.
"You're right, it is nothing, it was exactly to be expected." I agreed.
"You promised! In Phoenix, you promised that you would stay—" She said before I interrupted again.
"And you believed me?" I said looking at her.
Bella, stop, please stop arguing, I don't have much self restraint when it comes to hurting you my love.
"No! This is about my soul isn't it?" She shouted, her tears coming down her blushing cheeks, but from anger.
"Carlisle told me about, and I don't care, Edward. I don't care! You can have it, it's yours already. I don't want it without you." She choked out.
Bella, don't you know I'm doing this all for your soul?
Oh God, I can't do this, I cant hurt my Bella like this, maybe I shouldn't. Maybe we can run away together so I can protect her from harm. No, I'm leaving because of just that, I am the harm.
I look back up, holding her eyes. "Bella, I don't want you to come with me." I said in my detached voice.
She looked at me, trying to find if I am lying to her.
"You…don't…want…me?" She choked out.
"No," I said, hoping she can just give up, for her to just move on so she wont be in anymore pain I'm inflicting upon her, she deserves more then this. More then me.
"Alice wont like this… your family won't leave me," she tried to say with determination though her voice was filled with uncertainty.
I let out a chuckle, her head snapped up looking at me again.
Don't make me hurt you more then is necessary love….
"Bella, they left already, they completely agreed with my proposition, we do care for humans, they know we aren't like you. That it felt wrong for them spending time with you."
I knew my words are hurting her like I just slapped her but it needed to be done, she is trying to find a way for us to stay together. Oh how I wish that can happen.
I stopped her out of her reverie, "Bella, I have to leave, I just needed to tell you that last thing and bid you farewell. Don't worry, I won't come and disturb you again from your life, my family or myself."
"Just promise me one thing, don't do anything reckless…For Charlie's sake."
She stood there her arms shaking as her knees were about to give out.
I ran in front of her and kissed the top of her chocolate brown hair, wishing I can hold her into my arms and sooth her it will be alright.
"Goodbye Bella," were my last words to her before I ran and was out of her life in seconds.
I ran, I was going to our meadow one last time. Oh how I wish this agony can go away. I had to stop myself many times before trying to go back to her and tell her how I really felt. But no matter how much she is hurting, I know she will move on without me, only a matter of time. But me, no I will never forget my Bella, the love of my entire life.
Bella POV
I woke up to the same pain I felt when I died, was I dead? If it is then I'm either in hell or my afterlife. Either one is agony when I'm not with Edward. Edward, even thinking about him brought on a new wave of panic and rage. While I'm contemplating where I landed up, I feel someone watching me. I try to turn my head once again and a shooting pain shot all over my body. I can't move, parts of my bones are still broken. Why am I still alive? My own personal hell doesn't even want me?
"Hello Bella," an unfamiliar musical voice said through the darkness.
I jumped then bit down on my lip hard, the shooting pain protesting from my movement.
"Who's there?" If I'm not dead yet, then I will be soon considered from my large amount of blood loss from my little stunt.
"Do you wish to be rid of your pain?" The musical voice asked.
Without a moments thought, "Yes just kill me, please," I said from my mangled lips.
"I'm sorry Bella…" he paused, "I can't do that."
I feel sharp incisions on my neck. What is this person doing?
Then it hit me, he's a vampire.
He is making me one of them.
He. Is. Turning. Me. Into. A. Vampire.
I should be overjoyed, I used to always beg him to turn me. but things are different, he doesn't want me, he never had. What is the purpose to live for eternity when it's without him?
Seconds later, the venom starts to spread and my body is on fire. I jumped off a cliff, but that misery is nothing compared to this one. I let out screeches, digging my nails into the dirt floor. Before I was welcoming my physical pain so it can take my mind off the internal one. All I want right now is numbness, absolute and complete numbness.
All the while, I'm in his lap, stroking my blood covered hair murmuring soothes.
Damien POV
I was passing through the Washington border searching for a coven when I heard a ear-splitting scream followed along with the most amazing scent of fresh human blood. Well I haven't fed in a while so a snack would be nice, though I never kill my prey. Some other nomads think its silly to just feed and hypnotize them into forgetting our encounter, I see it a way of life. It's unbearable to kill an innocent life because I'm just hungry, but it was very hard to survive on animals. I made a compromise with my thirst. Finally I saw my prey and was about to pounce, then I saw her face. I stopped dead in mid tracks, something I never done when I'm in hunting mode. Her face. She is a spinning image of my daughter Anastasia from my human life. I would have thought it was actually her but she had rouge colored hair that she inherited from her mother.
Another one of her screams broke me out of my reverie, my head snapped up while seeing her jump off a cliff.
It is unbelievable when she hits the rocks and is still alive, barely though.
I make a decision I never thought I would do, I run over, pick her up, and rush her to a secluded cave twenty miles away from there.
Three Days Later
(Listen to "White Demon Love Song" by the killers)
Bella POV
I don't know how long this affliction of tormented fire has been running through my veins. I have somewhat gotten used to it, in a twisted sort of way. It has dimmed a twinge, feeling my heart kick into gear. It feels like my heart is racing, running from that deadly venom that is dominating my body. Thumping loudly for its last moments, then resigns in defeat.
Right when my heart dies, I flick open my eyes.
Hearing forest animal's scurry through the thickets, seeing miniature cracks spread out above the ceiling, smelling the trees and something else…something mouthwatering.
I sit up in a split second, readjusting to my new inhuman speed and look over to see a man and someone else lying on the floor.
I fangs extract, realizing the figure on the floor is human.
The vampire next to it lets out a gasp, I flick my eyes over at him.
"You have fangs?" The vampire asks.
I touch my canine teeth and feel them with awe.
"We'll talk about that later, here, drink this," he picks the human's head up.
I hear the blood pumping through its veins, and the smell, it is something I would love to sink my teeth into.
I snap out of my daze, no, I will not kill a life just for my thirst.
I stop in mid-step and hiss at him.
He looks at me in disbelief for a moment. "How can you stop yourself when you have a frenzy going through your mind?"
"Because I know it is not fair to him to let his life get taken away for my satisfaction," I said angry, the tone of my voice leaving me in admiration.
He shook his head, "Well anyways, don't worry, I do not kill either when I feed. This is just an exception since this is your first feeding. And also, don't feel pity towards this man, he has killed mercilessly all his life and will continue if we let him go," he points to the human that is unconscious.
I walk over cautiously and lean down, touching the side of the humans arm, and let out another hiss.
A flood of images go through my mind, seeing the human beating his three year old son, snatching a teenage girl while walking to school, even shooting a elderly man while taking his stroll one night.
I look down at him with crazed eyes and bite into his neck, all too happy to rid this awful man from society.
My taste buds burst with flavor as the warm red liquid runs down my throat. I have never tasted something so delicious; then again I never attempted to drink blood.
I drink, and drink to my dead hearts content.
While the now dead man is drained from blood, I wipe off the excess smudges on my mouth and stand up in a swift motion.
I look down at the vampire, "What is your name?" I say.
"Damien," the vampire says.
"Well Damien, we need to talk," I say through clenched teeth and stalk out of the cave.
As the night air hits me, I feel a sense of calm. I glance at the trees and take it all in. Oh how beautiful the scenery is when I get to see it with my new eyes.
I completely lose myself and inhale the earthy smell while closing my eyelids.
Another gasp is let out and I glance over behind me.
"Yo-, you…have wings?" Damien chokes out while pointing behind me.
I turn around and see a breathtakingly and gorgeous pale white pair of wings.
They are so beautiful, no words can describe how something so pure belong to someone like me, a monster.
I turn back around, my back facing Damien and let out a sigh.
"It's as if God is cursing me, a white pure, angelic looking demon."