Bella POV

"Jake…how?" Was all I can say, too choked up to say a full sentence.

Now sitting down on the cool grass, looking across at my once werewolf best friend.

As I can see, my expression mirrors his. "Exactly what I want know from you Bella," he says etching a little closer, eyes locked on my deep red irises.

I look down nervously, "I-I'm sorry…", was all I can say to him, knowing if he knew the whole truth would not help one bit. I then shoot my head back up, "But I didn't want this! Any of it!", I motion towards my body.

He had his head turned down when I looked up, his whole frame starting to shake. "Bella, who did this to you then?", he demanded.

I instantly remembered Damien, realizing I shouldn't have said that. How could I tell Jake that Damien was the one who changed me but wasn't actually the one who took away my life?

Jacob shot up, "Was it Cullen?", he spat has last name as if it was rotten on his tongue.

I flinched at the name, "No, it wasn't him, None of them either. It was this vampire named Damien…", I said hesitantly.

"I swear, this leech will pay for what he did to you.", he said with such reassured determination as he turned around.

"NO!", I blurted out. He spun around so fast I'm sure if I was still human I wouldn't be able to catch it.

"What?", he said incredulously. "Wh-what I meant was…he didn't take my life away."

"Bella, what do you mean," he says with a hint of agitation.

I don't want to lie to my best friend, but then again I really don't want him to know the truth…of what I did…of how they left me…

Jacob snaps me out of my train of thought by making a gruff noise. "I need to know what your talking about, now.", he orders.

As I'm still sitting down, I fidget with my fingers, a human trait I don't think I will ever grow out of, "I don't know where to start."

"How about the beginning."

"Well…I was in the woods, I was taking a…walk. And I got lost, soon I was faced with a very steep cliff,", I hear him take in a sharp breath, "oh and you know me, always uncoordinated even on a well-paved sidewalk." I joke, trying and failing to relieve some of the tension in the air.

"After I fell, I was thinking, this is it, this is really it. Then I fell unconscious. Thinking I past away already, I was really surprised to wake back up, but in a cave. Damien asked me if I wanted to rid myself of the pain so obviously, not thinking straight, I said yes. The change took three days to complete. So you see, he didn't just snatch my life away, he actually saved me instead." I say, proud of how I told the truth but not exactly the truth.

"You think being you right now is better? You think a blood-sucking leech is better then dying? 'Cause I sure as hell don't." he snaps.

I automatically flinch when those words left his mouth. He'd rather have me dead then have me as I am now? In his own words, a blood-sucking leech?

Instantly realizing on what he said, he quickly tries to apologize, "Bella, oh my god. I'm so sorry, I didn-,",

I put a hand up and interrupt, "No, its okay. That hurt, and yes you did mean it but I fully understand why you think that way, really." I pause, "But back to you, can you explain why my best friend is a scary big brown wolf?" I quirk my eyebrow up.

Then it hits me, the Quileute legends Jacob once told me when I went to the bonfire at La Push beach. "Oh.", was all I can say. He registers my epiphany and smirks, "Yeah, you took it a lot better when I found out. I forgot you do good with weird, considering your with that one leech."

It feels as if a hole has been punched into my stomach by just referring to him. I clutch my chest, holding tightly to keep myself from falling apart in front of Jake.

"Where are the Cullens anyways? Didn't they leave a few days ago? ", he questioned.

"Um, yeah, they did," I say quietly.

"Why did they leave you then? Weren't they supposed to protect you?"

"They didn't leave me," I snap, "They…went to go visit their old friends the Denalis up in Alaska. They were going to come back in three weeks to get me but now I think I should go to them and show my new changes."

"Wait, what do you mean they were going to come back to get you?"

"In three weeks I graduate, and I'm already eighteen ( hint: I kind of sped up the story, I know Bella doesn't graduate till Eclispe. I just needed that cause she's lying to Jacob that they were to come and get her, and we all know their gone for good) so I was going to travel parts of the world with them before I start college.", I lie smoothly.

"So you're going? Can you handle yourself Bella?"

Relief filled me, he believes my bittersweet lie. "Well it's obvious I can't stay here. And yes I believe I can handle my thirst, I found out I have very well restraint on my self but I can't take that chance with Charlie."

A few minutes of silence passes between us, he glances up at the moon. "You know I will miss you.", he says softly. I look at his face, seeing a sad smile play along the edges of his lips. It almost breaks my heart, that kind of expression doesn't belong on his usual cheerful face, it just doesn't seem right.

I stand up and walk closer to him, wanting to comfort my best friend.

My movement is rewarded with a scrunched up face set firm on his russet skin.

"Bella, no offence but you smell."

I let out a genuine laugh, "I'm glad I amuse you. None taken, back at you"

We laugh for a few moments, it feels as if it were old times, just Jake and I hanging out in his garage.

Feeling my body tingle, I look down and gasp. My perfect porcelain skin being replaced with my human one, my wings starting to etch themselves back in to my back.

"BELLA?" Jacob says jumping up and running over, grabbing a hold of my arm.

"What just happened?", he said breathless.

"I don't know, I was just remembering a memory with you and me in your garage and this happened.", I said, examining my fragile looking body.

"So you have a power?," he asks. I look up, "what?". "Well you do have wing's, maybe you have more then one power."

"Maybe," I say in awe.

I look down, realizing I'm still wearing the over extravagant gown, "Um Jake? Can I have a change of clothes?"

"Oh! Yeah, I'm sure Emily will let you have a pair of clothing. And I suggest you stay how you are to make the situation a little easier."

I nod. We start running, Jacob stealing glances at me as if I'm going to run away. We stop at the treaty line, I hear more wolves coming our direction. 'Okay, you wait here, the pack is coming to…monitor things. I'll be right back."

Sure, their just coming to monitor me in case I don't slip up. I roll my eyes as he leaves, feeling a little aggravated that I have to be babysat by a pack of foul-smelling wolves.

He said that the Volturi are in Volterra, Italy. Maybe I can sneak in my room to get my passport, Damien did say I have exceptional self restraint on my thirst. I look back on such the turn of events that completely changed my life and it hasn't even been a whole week. I know how Charlie would be disappointed that I would take my own life. How he would be devastated to lose me but then again he would lose me anyways since I cant take a chance on slipping up with my own father. I made my decision.

A chorus of howls break me from my thoughts.

Well here goes nothing.