A/N: I'm BACKKK!!! My mom came home from disney on Sunday, soo I've got my computer back!! Yay!! no more fifteen year old computer for me!! Also, I want to APOLOGIZE to everyone that reviewed last chapter. I normally personally reply, but as the computer I was on barely let me read the emails, I didn't want to chance replies. I will be able to reply from now on however! Forgive me? :D I knew you would. And you'll get a pretty SHOW spolier for May Sweeps at the end of the chapter! Hahahaha...! Also, I've started an NCIS:LA story. Check it out, Web of Lies (Callen/Kensi), on my profile! Warnings: Implied Kensi/Callen in this chapter
(Has NOTHING to do with my LA story, Web Of Lies). Ziva is out of character for this chapter. But wouldn't you be too if you had a broken heart?
Song: What Faith Can Do- Kutless (here come my various music tastes again!! lol)
Ziva stared at the non-typical office of the NCIS special project building in surprise. This was not a traditional office and she was shocked any work was being done at all! Gibbs was talking to someone named Callen. She'd never seen the man, but in recent weeks they'd heard a lot about them. McGee was right at home with Eric and Nate. That left Ziva standing alone and staring. No wonder Tony had wanted to come here! This place was a laid back office..jeans and everything- just his style.
And true to form, like every other time she thought of him, Ziva felt like she was going to be sick.
Everybody falls sometimes
Gotta find the strength to rise
From the ashes and make a new beginning
Forcing the wave of sickness back down, her eyes roamed over everything, including the small woman that was standing there watching the two groups of agents closely. This was the strangest place she'd been in a long time. And Ziva had seen some odd places in her time. Why were they even here? Gibbs had said there were no new leads on Tony-cue sickness wave- and just knowing he'd even been in the building was suddenly too much for her.
"Down the hall to the left," the small woman seemed to materialize next to Ziva, startling her. It took her a second to realize the woman was telling her where the bathroom was , because if she spoke, she knew words wouldn't be coming up, Ziva almost ran to the bathroom.
She knew nothing would come up, but it still didn't stop the tightening of her stomache or the acid taste that came back up as she dry heaved. And the tears started. She had no reason to hide them at the moment. She was alone, in more ways that one, and Ziva wasn't sure she'd be able to handle being in L.A. When she gathered herself together and finally opened the stall of the door, she saw a woman...Kensi? stadning on the wall by the door, her arms over her chest as if she'd been waiting.
"You alright?"
Ziva splashed water on her face. "Fine," she managed.
Kensi snorted. "Liar,"
Ziva stood upright suddenly and dried her hands. "It's none of your business," she said curtly.
"Look..Ziva, right?" At her raised eye, Kensi continued. "I just want to help. I know about you and Tony. He couldn't stop talking about you until I threatened to beat his car with a baseball bat. But I could tell that he was in love with you."
"It does not matter...He is missing and we are here to find him."
Kensi gave her a sad smile. "You know, I tell myself something similar almost everyday. Except mine goes something along the lines of "he'll never love you". "
Anyone can feel the ache
You think it's more than you can take
But you are stronger, stronger than you know
Don't you give up now
The sun will soon be shining
You gotta face the clouds
To find the silver lining
Ziva raised an eye at her again. "You are in love with Tony?"
Kensi laughed. "No. Not him. Someone else I work with. Yet he's too close hearted to even try for something other than a one night stand. SO I know what it's like to wake up with a broken heart and get through the day just watching, wishing you could say so many things. And yet you can't."
Ziva found she felt for the woman in front of her. "Yes, I know what that is like. I don't know why I can't stand the thought of Tony being gone. It just makes me so sick..."
"That is because you're holding on to all the could be's and what if's and regrets that you have between the two of you. You've got to let those go or they'll eventually eat away at you little by little, destroy you. I'm speaking from personal expeirance, Ziva. I may suffer everyday because I can't have more than a working relationship with my boss-"
"Your boss? Callen?"
Kensi waved her away. "Not important. Point is, if I held on to the same things you were, I'd be just like you. I was just like you for awhile after he got shot. I had to come to terms with the truth, which was more painful than you know."
"I cannot. Tony is not dead. He can't be. I..I need him." she hated the break in her voice. "We need him."
I've seen dreams that move the mountains
Hope that doesn't ever end
Even when the sky is falling
And I've seen miracles just happen
Silent prayers get answered
Broken hearts become brand new
That's what faith can do
Kensi reached out to her and gave her a quick hug. "You guys will make it through this, whether Tony is alive or not. You'll survive." Ziva blinked back tears and sighed.
"May I tell you something personal?"
Kensi nodded. "Of course. I can keep a secret."
" I'm afriad something may be seriously wrong with me......" Ziva told her while Kensi frowned in confusion.
Tony was ready. He maybe weak, but he needed to get out of here before they made him even more weak. Dom was weaker, but Tony had built up his strength by giving him any food they'd brought. Dom had protested at first, but Tony assured him that Dom was the weaker of the two and Tony could survive on water until Dom had enough stregnth to be able to fight.
It doesn't matter what you've heard
Impossible is not a word
It's just a reason for someone not to try
The next time they were given food or water, they would be ready. They were getting out here and Tony was going to go home to Ziva. Period. He refused to waste away in this dark cement hole and he wouldn't let Dominic do it either.
"You sure you're strong enough to help?" Tony asked. After all, the guy'd been gone for at least eight or nine months..
"I can do it. I'm a trained special agent, remember?" Dom grinned.
"Yea.. still don't make you strong enough to fight guys that are healthier and stronger than us." he said. "You've been here longer than I have."
"You've been here almost two months, DiNozzo. I've been here a few months longer. No big deal."
"How..how do you know how long I've been here?"
"Mental caluclations. I've got an internal clock. Like right now, its probably about 2am outside in the real world. "
"This would have been nice to know a while ago," Tony said sarcastically.
"Sorry. It didn't seem too important."
Tony sighed. Two months? Ziva had to surely know he was missing by now. And Gibbs. They'd be looking for him.....Poor Ziva was probably out of her mind with worry...at least he hoped she was. After all, they hadn't left on the best of terms, so if she wasn't loosing sleep over him it wouldn't surprise him either. Ziva could be cold and calculated when she wanted or needed to be and Tony hoped that hadn't been the case lately with her while he'd been gone.
Everybody's scared to death
When they decide to take that step
Out on the water
It'll be alright
Life is so much more
Than what your eyes are seeing
You will find your way
If you keep believing
Hours or maybe a few more days or even a week passed before Tony and Dominic got their chance. As the now familiar scuffle of shoes on the floor was heard outside their door, Dom and Tony took their places. Dom would surprise the man from behind and Tony would rush him from the front, both hoping they were stronger together and could over power the man.
The door opened and Tony winced as it almost hit Dom in the nose. The man- masked as always and with a flashlight, stepped into the doorway carrying a paper bag- their measley food. Dom slammed the door back into the guy's face and he howled, droping the flashlight that Dom immediatly went for.
"What the hell?!?" He grunted, though it was muffled and Tony hoped Dominic had broken the man's nose.
I've seen dreams that move the mountains
Hope that doesn't ever end
Even when the sky is falling
And I've seen miracles just happen
Silent prayers get answered
Broken hearts become brand new
That's what faith can do
Tony rushed forward and tackled the man around the legs, taking him to the floor. He and Dom scrambled over the guy, who was still struggling with his nose, and out the door. The moved down the long hall way and froze when they came to a T. They veered right and almost ran into a room full of armed men, only Tony's ears and quick thinking had stopped them in time.
"Now what?" Dom whispered, eyeing the door on the other side of the room. He hoped it would lead to the fesh air.
"We fight or die trying," Tony whispered back before the two rushed into the room- and most likely to their deaths.
Overcome the odds
You don't have a chance
That's what faith can do
When the world says you can't
It'll tell you that you can!
Kensi shook her head at Ziva. "I think you'll be alright. You'll make it through this entire thing. Watch, one year from now, you'll look back and say, "Kensi Blye was right.". And when you do that, I'll be waiting on a phone call."
Ziva smiled. "Thank you. You have helped me more than you know,"
I've seen dreams that move the mountains
Hope that doesn't ever end
Even when the sky is falling
And I've seen miracles just happen
Silent prayers get answered
Broken hearts become brand new
That's what faith can do
"Oh, I know. I've been in your position before and it's no fun," Kensi gave her another hug. "Come on, let's go see what we can find in Tony and Dom's case files,"
Ziva allowed Kensi to lead her back to their form of a bullpen and she smiled to herself. Kensi was right. Everything would work out perfectly.
That's what faith can do!
Even if you fall sometimes
You will have the strength to rise
A/N: I know.. I'm mean!!! Lol. But to make up for it...I have a lovely spoiler! :D Straight from EW.....
Question: NCIS season finale scoop, please! —Charlotte
Ausiello: The episode's titled "Rule Fifty-One," it airs May 25, and Gibbs ends up in Mexico for a showdown with a revenge-seeking drug cartel (cue the life-changing decision we've heard so much about). The cliffhanger ending, meanwhile, is so top-secret exec producer Shane Brennan decided to leave it out of the official script. Which leaves me no other choice than to track down the raw footage. And I will track it down.