Also, I've got to say sorry because as I wrote this I felt I over-used the word 'fuck'. But they are teenage boys and its sort of how my boyfriend and brothers all talk to each other. I think they think they're gangers... Haha! ;)

Oh yes, and please excuse my spelling if you spot any errors :)

I've dealt with so much crap for so long that I now believe I can ignore the 'feelings' for Grimm and maybe have a normal sort of relationship with Rukia.

Because I know, if I tried, I could come to love her very much.

Despite knowing this I can't help but have a secret fantasy.

Me and Rukia are having sex. Like crazy, animalistic, passionate sex; then Grimmjow storms in and punches Rukia in the face, claiming me for his own.

Or I wish he'd pin me down or beat me up or something, and tell me to never go near her again.

But he doesn't, so I continue to like her.

I figure I might as well get a grip and try to be happy with what I've got.

I try not to sigh or look too put out as we continue our way to school.

Grimmjow cheers me up slightly by trying to persuade me into revealing every little detail about my evening with Rukia.

I shove him so he stumbles off the pavement, telling him to fuck off; but this only results in him chasing me to school with a bit of stick and finally getting me in a choke hold.

We go off to our different classrooms; I wave goodbye and promise to come find him at break.

"Ichigo!" As soon as I walk into class, Rukia is up from her chair and making a bee-line towards me, her face cracking into a small smile. I can tell she is a lot happier to see me than she's letting on; for some reason that's one of the things I like about her.

"Hey, midget." I smirk as she scowls at me, but there's no real heat in her expression. How could we argue after last night? I throw an arm around her shoulder, pulling her against me, and lower my head as if to whisper something to her. Instead I lick her jaw, trailing up to her ear and she flinches, gasping softly.

Honestly, if Grimmjow doesn't stop me, I might just fall for her.

"I-Ichigo!" It sounds like she might be trying to scold me, but the effect is sort of ruined by her blush and trembling voice.

Then the moment is gone as we are swarmed by Keigo and Orihime who are impossibly lively. Others join us and the day rolls onwards. To be honest I find myself looking forwards to break with Grimm. I agree to eat lunch with Rukia alone on the roof. I wonder if we'll have sex again? Last night was pretty cool.

"Alright girls?" I call to Grimmjow and his gang, when I enter his classroom at break. He greets me with a grin and I sit down next to him with Ulquiorra, Ikkaku and Yumichika.

Despite the fact that Ulquiorra's an Emo, Ikkaku's a bloodthirsty bully and Yumichika's a gayboi, I find myself most at home when I'm sat with them. Ulquiorra's in the same class as Grimm, and Ikkaku and Yumichika are in the year above.

"Hah, Yumi's got a bigger vagina than me." Grimmjow quips, sending Yumichika a teasing smile and a wink.

"AHAHA! Oh Grimm-chan, you are sooo funny! Excuse me whilst I piss myself with my uncontainable laughter!" Yumichika is quick to defend himself, whacking Grimmjow hard on the back, as if to compliment him on his quick wit. All sarcastic, of course.

They are all so laid back. Yumichika doesn't take it personally and Ikkaku doesn't decapitate Grimmjow for teasing him, like he would with anyone else.

"Oh my god!" Ikkaku suddenly exclaims, covering his mouth with his hand in a way very similar to Yumichika. "Qui-chan, have you put more weight?" He asks Ulquiorra (the skinniest of us, might I add) who is slowly munching an apple.

"Do you want me to cut you open?" Ulquiorra asks rhetorically, icy glare fixated on Ikkaku.

It's a sort of demented inside joke. Basically we all tease Ulquiorra about being fat when he's probably very underweight.

Its cruel, it heartless, but once we managed to crack a smile out of him using this harsh joke.

We were in Yumichika's sister's car. It's a soft top with just enough room for 4 people, so either two of us would have to bunk up, or one of us would be spending the drive in the boot.

As it happens Ulquiorra ended up sitting on my lap.

When we got home from wherever we went (I forget where...), Ulquiorra got off my lap and when I made to stand up, I fell flat on my face. I mean I literally head butted the floor.

Laugh all you want, but when I got home I needed 3 stitches.

Anyway, I called Ulquiorra a fat bastard because his knobbly ass had given me the worst bout of pins and needles ever experienced.

Then Ulquiorra smiled.

We all stared at him mystified as he fought back a chuckle.

So from then on, whenever one of us remembers to, we always make a comment. He doesn't get annoyed because it's about his weight; he gets annoyed because he knows we have all seen him with his defences down.

We all harass Yumichika about having a vagina. It's not because he's effeminate, it's because when he was younger, despite his intelligence, he always insisted and spelt the word 'vagina' with a 'J'.

Vajina.

Now he's older and has accepted his wrong-doing, we pester him about it till the cows come home.

Ikkaku is a bully. He likes to pick on people to make himself feel better than them. We let him do this to us as well because he had a bit of a shit upbringing with violence and abuse.

However, as soon as he opens his mouth with the intension of telling us a story or a piece of news, he adds in so many unnecessary details, unable to condense the information.

"One time, when I was about 8 or 9... No wait, I was 10! Anyway, I was wearing my granddads wellies which basically consumed my entire legs, and I thought it might be fun to run into the back garden and, like, run around... Oh yeah, I was chasing a cat!" and so on...

"So basically Ikkaku, you put on your Grandads wellies and went for a run?"

"Err... Yeah, I guess."

"Right."

Then we will all laugh at him as he goes red.

We all tease Grimmjow about being a rapist, basically because he will fuck anything.

I don't really like it when the others tease him about this. It makes me feel like he's just fucking me for the sake of it. This is probably the case, though.

And me? I'm teased because I'm ticklish. In fact there's probably a condition for what I have because I don't laugh when I'm tickled, I scream.

So, of course, when it's Lets-All-Gang-Up-On-Ichigo-Day, I am usually very close to pissing myself by then end of it. Sometimes I can't walk from laughing so hard and it's up to Grimmjow to carry me home.

"Oh, oh – Look at this!" Grimm suddenly exclaims, pulling me from my daydream. He reaches into his pocket and tugs out his phone, leaning into me to show me a picture on it.

Before me are the biggest pair of breast I think I have ever seen.

"I'm gonna be titty-fucking them in no time at all!" He passes the phone around and Ikkaku blanches.

"Are those-?"

"Yes!" Grimmjow is nearly shouting with excitement.

"No!"

"Yes – Nelliel Tu Odelschwanck. The clue is in her name."

The others gaze at him in wonder and he passes his phone back to me for a further look. They really are inhumanly big.

Then, as the Ikkaku and Yumichika talk animatedly about boobs, Grimmjow speaks so only I can hear him.

"Nothing like Rukia's, huh?" He speaks in a sort of lonely voice, almost as if he wishes I wasn't dating - No - I will not think like that! I can't think like that...

I snap my eyes away from the picture to glare at him, but truth be told my heart is breaking.

Well if you don't want me too, just say...

But he doesn't.

Instead he jumps to his feet and cranks on a smug grin.

"Well ladies, time to pick up my date! I'll be in the storage room off the sports hall, if you need me. But try not to disturb."

He winks at us and is gone.

SEX IN THE NEXT CHAPTER! :D That should get you reviewing! ;)