Underlined is said in Hebrew.

Italics is a flashback/dream/memorie.

Chapter three – wish I could tell you.

Ziva was home in no time. When she got back tomorrow Gibbs wouldn't be verry happy, but right now she didn't really care.

She knew that it hadn't been a prank of Tony, than he would be sitting smiling behind his desk untill she noticed it. It had to be her mother, but why. Why now, and why had she said to Tony that she wasn't coming back. What if she had been there, if she didn't had gone for a walk. Than she had her mother now, she would have more than memories.

She hoped that Tony didn't open the envelope, than he would ask questions. Oke she had told the team once that her mother had died. But that was only to protect herself, protect from think about it.

It seemd if the tears in her where dried up, she couldn't cry, couldn't think, couldn't sleep.

Gibbs had gone home, and Mcgee was just grabbing his coat and wanted to walk to the elevator when he turned around and stared at Tony.

'What' Tony asked, Mcgee sighed 'never mind'. Than he walked away.

The most people were gone but Tony stil sat at his desk, staring at the envelope. He couldn't help himself he had to know what upset Ziva. He opend it the back in the front. There was somting writen on it, but it only looked like stripes to him, he turned the photo on and saw what Ziva had saw at first.

A woman and a child. Why would this upset her he thought. But when he looked closer he could see it, her eyes and her smile were the same. It looked a lot like the womans eyes and smile. He knew it for shure it was Ziva on the photo. He would recognize her smile everywere.

But still it seemd strange to him. Ziva had told them her mother had died years ago, why did it still upset her so much. His mother had died to but he wasn't like that when he saw a picture of her.

There was something Ziva wasn't saying and he would find out what.

Gibbs was working on his boat, aloud him to think.

There was something going on with Ziva, she normaly didn't let emotions slip trough. But what, he was so worried about her. They were a family the team and he, and Ziva was a part of it. So automaticly he wanted to protect her form what ever was nagging her.

He had asked Tony again what he had done. Only this time it wasn't something that Tony had done. Than she wouldn't have walked away. He said to himself that he would ask it her the next morning. If, she was there.

It was lets say 11pm when Ziva couldn't bare it any longer. She had to do something, she picked up the phone and without that she noticed it she dyled her fathers number.

'Ziva' she could hear on the otherside.

'yes, papa' she anwserd, already regretting what she had done.

'why is it you call', at that moment she wanted to trow the horn on the phone but she knew that her father then got suspiciously.

But it becan to sink in. It was his fault, his fault that her mother had gone she had asked him once but…

'papa' she had asked. He had let her in his office and sit down on the other side of his desk.

'why has mother left'he hadn't anwsered. She took a big breath before asking him 'had it anything to do with you' the look he had given her was undiscribeble.

He had stand up 'I don't need to tell you that. You are just a child and I didn't leave this family' he had said firmly.

'this family hasn't been the same since mother has left, or have you forgotten. Tali is dead because of you. Because of Mossad. If mama had been there…'.

That went Eli David a little to far for the first time in ever he walked up to his daughter and grabbed her arms.

'I will not tollerate this behaviour of you Ziva. This family is part of you if you want it or not. And I expect you to behave as part of it. Do you understand' he took stronger hold of her arms, so strong it hurt her. She looked in her fathers eyes, when hers got foggy by tears that came up

'yes' he had let go of her and she walked out the door.

'Are you still there' he asked.

'I'm sorry, I just. I was thinking of Tali and I guess I wanted to hear your voice' her father had asked if she was feeling alright

'just a little bit tired.' After saying goodnight to her father she hung up.

The next morning she was broken, her face was wet when she woke up. She didn't even remember how she got in to bed but she knew she had cried herself to sleep. Quick she ate not much but at least it was something, before she was going to work.

Luckly Gibbs wasn't there but Tony was. Before she even could sit down he asked. 'Are you alright' but not on the tone she expected, this one was warm and ful sympathy. She nodded, he handed over the envelope 'you forgot this' than he sat down at his desk and began to work.

But in his head it was going crazy. She didn't need him now interrigating him if she was really of he could wait a day, or maby a fiew hours.

Ziva didn't understand she had expected to be interragated but he didn't. She tried to catch his gaze but he was staring at his screen, so she just got to work. Untill Gibbs had arrived, he walked by her desk. He had been staring down at them from the balcony and dicided that it was about time.

'come' he had said, ziva did obeyed him, even though she was afraid that he was going to ask questions.

They stept in the elevator, it was only just on it's way down when Gibbs turned the switch and it stopt

'What the hell is going on, Ziva' he said on a calm but firm tone. But she looked away form his gaze.

'Tell Me' he snapped. Allmost so that Ziva wanted to cry, let it all came out, but she knew how to hold herself together.

'common Ziva, we're your team, your friends' she still didn't look at him. Gibbs was thinking to himself that he couldn't break her this way.

So he tried it diffrently, 'is it about, Tali, your father' she flinched for a second.

'my father has nothing to do with this' she replied.

'Well Ziva, what is. You know just as well as I that something isn't right'. And he was right she knew she wasn't herself all this time.

But he wouldn't understand just like her father. But he wasn't her father so maby.

'No, it is none of you're goddamn business' she turnd the Emergency switch on and as soon as the elevator arrived back at the squad room she got out.

Leaving a confused Gibbs behind. She didn't spoke to him all day long, she didn't even say goodbye.

so tell me what you think.