Underlined is said in Hebrew.

Italics is a flashback/dream/memorie.

From now in it will probably take me a little bit longer to post.

Because now school is going as always angain and much more homework.

But still i hope you will wait.

Chapter Four – the trought out.

Ziva sat home on the coutch, see had said things to Gibbs she didn't mean. She had to talk to someone and Gibbs was the only one who would understand. She stepped in her car and drove to Gibbs' house. He always was home.

But when she drove her mind slipt from the road back to when her mother had left. She didn't see what was coming in front of her.

'I love you' said her mother and kissed her on the fore head.

At that moment Ziva heard a horn of a truck. She looked up and looked in the lights of the truck. She tried to avoid beeing crusst by the truck, but because it was raining her car slipt. At the moment her car broke the rail and felt in the water the only thing wat she could thing was

'I love you to, mama'

The men in the truck had stopped and looked over If he could see her car, the car of the woman who had slipped in the water. Before he dive into the cold water he called 9-1-1, for an ambulance.

He dived into the water with a big breath of air. He saw the car, he swom closer allmost completely full with water. He tried the door but couldn't get it open. He looked inside, and stared into the eyes of the woman in the car.

She was wunded, he could see the blood from her waiste and forehead. She looked at him when one singel air bubble left her mouth and her eyes closed. As quick as he could he swom back to the surface to take another breath.

Finnally he could hear the sirens of the ambulance, with another breath he got back to the car. By the presure of the water there was a crack in the window. He slamed at it and it broke. He took the woman and got her to the surface. He didn't know if she was breathing or not.

The people of the ambulance took them out of the water and took the woman out of his hands. With the sirens on they drove to the hospital.

As soon as Gibbs heard the news he drove to the hospital when he arrived he called the rest of the team whil walking to the reseption.

'Ziva David' he said to the woman behind the counter.

'I'm sorry sir, there still working on her' he barely turn around of Tony stood behind him. 'were's she' he asked but the look from Gibbs was enough they were stil working on her.

After an half an hour a docter came

'Are you family' he asked Gibbs and Tony.

'practicly' said Gibbs and he showed his badge.

'She is resting now. It was very strange. After we got her back, and the water out of her lungs and her wounds ficksted we almost lost her. It is not normaly is there something we should know' he asked only talking to Gibbs.

'No' he said 'where is she'. The doctor said 'only one can come'

Gibbs looked at Tony and that look said it all "go home, call the others I'm with her" Tony didn't really like it but as long as there was only one person who could be with her he couldn't do much for her.

He wanted to say something to Gibbs but Gibbs said 'yes I'll call you when I know more, now go'. And Tony took off.

There she was, laying asleep, resting. Gibbs grabbed a chair and sat next to her, hoping she was alright.

Two hours past before Ziva opend her eyes again. She wanted to say something but emidiatly a docter came and checkt her.

'are you oke' Gibbs asked, she nodded. He put his hand on hers and looked at her, when she past out again. Only to wake up an half an hour later.

Emidiatly she wanted to get up but Gibbs pusht her down.

'what happend' she asked Gibbs wondering why she was in the hospital.

'your car slipped into the river' he said calm to her.

It al came back, a crash, the water. 'you made us quit worry about you. The doctor said that when they had you back, you were lost for a while'

she thought why is he saying that to her.

'he also said that if there was something, it could have been te cause.'

Ziva didn't say anything. Her mind went to her mother

'Ziva' she was woken up by Gibbs. 'Ziva, just tell me. We're a team. A family, and family trust one another'. That was just the thing he needed to say to finally break her.

She looked at him 'Do you remember when' she sighted 'when I told you my mother was dead'

he didn't say anything but she knew that he rememberd it. 'well she isn't dead. She left us when I was seven. That was the last time I ever have seen her' tears welt up in her eye Gibbs squezed her hand telling her that she could trust him.

'And the other day in the office she had been there, but I wasn't . She had left a photo with Tony, and said that she wasn't going to be back'.

The first tear left her eye 'it is just my fault, everyone I love go's away or dies. My sister Tali, my mother. And Air who I killed for you' tears were now falling down her cheek , and she begun to shake. 'there all gone' she cried. Gibbs stood up and took Ziva in his arms. She was crying against his chest

'sssshhhhh, it's not your fault' he said to calm her down. After a while of crying she slipt away again. Gibbs carfully put her back in the pillows and tuckt hur in.

That strong and dangeruss mossad agent looked so vonurble and breakeble right now.

He called the team that she was oke. Barrly ten minutes later they all were there. Abby who wanted to rush to Ziva but after a look at Gibbs she waited. Mcgee who didn't know what to say. Ducky who kept saying that Ziva was strong and would be out the hospital in notime. And Tony who had sliped trough Gibbs defends and sat down at Ziva's side.

He didn't leave her for a moment, not even when everybody was going home after two hours of waiting. But the doctor had said that she shouldn't wake up till tomorrow in the afternoon,

Gibbs came in and wispherd 'Dinozzo go home '.

Tony looked at his boss 'No. I wont leave her there has to be someone here and you havn't slept for over 48 hours because of the case from yesterday. I'll take care of her' with those words he got his boss to go home.

He grabbed her hand, outside it was allready dark, the only light was from the moon, who shined a smal stroke of light on her face. But she didn't seem to notic, as she lay there. Softly he stroke over her cheek, it looked like she was in so much pain and he couldn't even help her.

That night turnd into a nightmare for Ziva.

In Gibbs bacment, Ari pointed the gun at Gibbs. But she had pulled the tricker. Trough his head went the bullet. He fall on the floor and stared at nothing.

Ziva slightly moved when she was dreaming. It woke Tony he had fallen asleep with his head on the matrass. What was she dreaming about he wonderd.

'I am sorry Ziva, your father… I just' a tear came down her cheek. 'I love you' than the woman kissed her on her forhead, turned around and walked out the door. `Mama. Mama please come back` she had screamed when she ran outside and saw the car of her mother drive away. She run after it, even when she couldn´t see it anymore.

'No', she mumbled in her sleep. Her movments became stronger as did her pain. Tony was still staring at her wondering if he could help her.

That was a beatifull day, that was it. She had run to her sister, she had been away on a mission for two months and had missed her.

'I missed you so much'she said to her sister when she hugged her.

'yeah, I love you to'Tali had answerd. 'wait I have left my purch inside wait here' but than it happened.

Just when her sister almost was back inside. A bang, fire, a bom Ziva knew the instand she was throun away. When she stood up again the half street was burning. Her sister where was her sister. She stood op stil shaking, there on the floor not far from where she was. As fast as she could she got to her sister.

'Ziva, don't forget me, like with mom, I love you' Tali wishperd with her last breath. 'Come back, Tali, please don't leave me here alone' tears running from her face. She had screamd, screamd of the los, the pain it cause her, the pain she got.

Tony now didn't knew what to so Ziva shook so heavily that he thought there was something going on. Where were thoos damn nurses when you really needed them. But than Ziva becan to scream in her sleep and cried. Tony rust to her and grabbed her. 'Ziva' He said trying to wake her up.

'there gone, dead, Tali. please' she cried, that was she first time Tony heard Ziva mention her sister.

Her really didn't know what to say 'wake up Ziva it is just a dream' what he didn't had noticed whas that when she had spoken up she was awake, most of her the other half was still asleep.

'There gone Tony, it is my fault' and with thoose words Tony pussed her against him and she cried. For the second time she past out crying. Tony couldn't sleep anymore. Now he knew with howmuch pain Ziva did live every day, and how he couldn't help her.

So this was it for chaptor 4. Tell me what you think about the stor sofar/ what will happen with Ziva/ her mother / Tony