Disclaimer: I don't own SVU

AN: well the last chapter was short this is a bit longer, im gonna try and make them somewhat longer, it just sometimes needs to be edited in certain places. I kinda realised I was writing the character of Lewis and imagining Alex Karev from Grey's Anatomy, does anyone else get that?

Anyway, enjoy this instalment and ooohhh it's a long-un...

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Chapter Thirteen

Juiced

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He was back. She was pretending to be asleep. He knew she was awake. He'd lain awake some nights and watched her sleep. Really sleep. He could tell she was faking. He just let her.

"How she doin?" Olivia recognised Fin's voice and pretended to stir and go back to sleep.

"She woke up briefly yesterday. I don't think she'll remember."

"Have they done a kit?"

"Yeah, but I dunno if it'll come to anything. There was no forced entry at the apartment. There was no-one else there."

"Any news on Richard?"

"No. Not yet. It hasn't been 48 hours so he's not technically missing for another five hours."

"I'm gonna go get something to eat. You want anything?"

Olivia didn't need to open her eyes to know he'd shaken his head. She heard Fin leave. "Liv, I know you're awake." Oh crap.

"How'd you know?" she said, opening her eyes

"Let's face it, you're a terrible actor and I've seen you asleep for real." (AN: which is ironic because Mariska is a totally awesome actor)

"Creep." She laughed which made her start coughing. He got up and helped her into a sitting position.

"Here." He gave her a cup of water. "So. Feeling any better?"

"I feel like total crap. How long have you been here?"

"Not long. Maybe a half hour or so."

"Ok, if I'm a bad actor I don't wanna know what the hell you are. You're a terrible liar. Plus you're wearing the same shirt I last saw you in, so you haven't been home to change."

"I went home to grab a few things. Amy was up earlier she left about twenty minutes ago."

"Oh. Umm. What happened? How long have I been here?"

"You were attacked, in my apartment."

"Do you know who it was?"

"I was hoping you could tell me."

"You're emotionally involved. You can't formally question me."

"I'm not. I'm just making conversation."

"Elliot."

~~SVU~~

"Dude, seriously. You're totally flaking on us, man. Come on."

"Hey. I need to know what happened last night."

"Nuh-uh. Not until you tell me why you were so juiced."

"Juiced? I had a few drinks. Ok so maybe I had some more and a little E. But I wasn't juiced. Was I?"

"You totally were."

"Shit."

"What?"

"I've fucked up. I have really fucked up."

"How?"

"I think something happened last night. Something bad. Something in my dad's apartment."

"Well, when you left I called your dad's place and told Olivia you were whacked."

"Oh God. Olivia."

"What?"

"I am so dead."

"What the fuck, man? What did you do?"

"I don't know. I think I did something really bad. I think I hurt Olivia."

~~SVU~~

"We ran a kit. We found some fluids and hair samples. They've been sent to your lab for analysis."

"Ok. Thank you Doctor Winston."

"The doctor did a kit while she was asleep, they got some fluids and hairs. The lab will be able to tell us more."

~~SVU~~

"When you say you think you hurt Olivia, do you mean..." he gestured for him to continue.

"No. At least, I don't think so."

"You have to hand yourself in"

"No. Uhh." He scrubbed his hands through his hair "No, when I said I was so dead, I meant it."

"If you come clean now..."

"Or I could go and find her and-"

"No! Listen. Dude, you're not thinking straight. We'll go to the precinct and find your dad."

"No. Last time I saw him was when I was loaded. I can't go. I haven't a clue what I said, or what I'm gonna say."

"Rich, you're panicking. We can go down and talk to someone else. Maybe she's ok. Maybe it was just a hallucination from the drugs and stuff."

"No. Something bad happened. I know it. I have a really shit feeling in my gut."

"That's probably the hangover."

"No. I'm over the hangover. This is a gut feeling. I know something happened. I just don't know what I did."

~~SVU~~

"Results back yet?"

"No. The lab's backed up they're trying to clear their backlogs. They said they'll let us know when the results come through."

"It's just the waiting"

"I know. Go home, get some rest."

"I need to be here when she wakes up again."

"The doctors say they've given her enough for at least ten hours. Go. I'll hold the fort down here."

"What if the results come back or if she wakes up and I'm not here."

"I will call you if they come back. please go home. Olivia won't be pleased to see you haven't slept while she has. You know what's she's like."

"Do I?" he said more to himself. Who was to say this wouldn't change her?

~~SVU~~

"If you just go there and tell someone you think something bad happened they'll go a little easier on you for coming clean as soon as you can."

"You mean not evading arrest."

"Dude, that's not what I meant"

"It was, stop denying it" he said raising his voice

"You're being paranoid"

"No I'm not you're just trying to cover your ass."

"Go visit Lizzie then."

"Lewis. Get out of my face. I'm going to find someone who'll help me for real."

"All I said was to go visit."

"SHE is in the same hospital."

"Olivia?"

"YES. Ten grand goes to Lewis the GENIUS. We all BOW to your GREATNESS your majesty"

"Shut the fuck up, man. Seriously though. You should go see how she's doing."

"WHY DON'T YOU?"

"She's not my sister"

"I'm not blind though. Stoned, yes. Drunk, yeah, a little. But not blind, or stupid. You are OBSESSED with my sister."

"You're taking her getting hurt badly, because you're so close."

"Oh thank you, Doctor McAdams. Thanks for the diagnosis."

"No need for sarcasm, man."

"Coming from YOU? The self proclaimed 'Captain Sarcasm'. Yeah right"

"I miss the old you. Before all the drugs and crap you shove into your system."

"That guy was a stupid naive kid. This is who I am now."

"What about later in life? Huh? What about when you're trying to explain what all the scars are on your arms are to your kids, or grand-kids."

"Kids? You think I'm going to waste my time having a family. Getting married? It's all a show put on by lonely idiots to please other lonely idiots."

"Marriage is a sacred bond between two individuals who love each other and wish to show their commitment to one another."

"Nice recital of bible class trash. Sounds like something my hypocrite of a father would say. And don't even try to say I have 'daddy issues', cos that's a pile of bull."

"I'm gonna make a call"

"Don't bother. I'm out of here." he slammed the door behind him as he left.

~~SVU~~

Elliot's cell rang, jerking him out of his doze by his daughter's bed. He didn't bother checking caller ID and answered "Stabler. What have you got?"

"Um, actually, Mr Stabler, it's Lewis."

"Hi, Lewis. What's up?"

Lewis then proceeded to tell Elliot of his son's ranting and raving. "He's real bad, sir. He went into my closet, thinking it was the front door and I've barricaded him in here. I called your boss, he said he'd send some people to come get him."

"Thank you, Lewis. You did the right thing. I'll go down to the precinct to come see him."

"I don't know if that's a good idea. He got real mad when I said to go see you or Lizzie. The cops are here. Looks like your captain came as well (he's in here, sir). Do you wanna talk to the Captain?"

"Sure. Thanks again, Lewis."

"Elliot. We're bringing him to Mount Sinai."

"What?"

"He's unconscious and there's not readable pulse. He's on his way to the ambulance. I'll keep you posted. Do you want me to call Kathy?"

"No. I'll tell her. She just walked in."

"Ok. What about your kids?"

"Call Maureen. She'll pass it on. Don't say too much though."

"Ok. I'll be sensitive and look after them when they get here."

"Dickie?"

"Our son has involved himself in drugs. He went round to his friend's house and had a breakdown. He went into the closet, thinking it was the front door and Lewis barricaded him and called Cragen then me."

"Oh. God. What have we done? This is all my fault. I pushed him away."

"This is his fault. He made his own mistakes. Not you."

"He could have died. Where are they taking him?"

"Mount Sinai."

"I need to go and-"

"No, Kathy. You stay here, with Lizzie. We both will."

"But-"

"He wasn't exactly our most loyal fan before the drugs. His friend, Lewis said that it wouldn't be a good idea. Cragen's gonna stay with him and I told him to call Maureen."

"Ok. How's Lizzie doing?"

"Better. Brain activity is up. They think she should wake up pretty soon. It's just a question of waiting."

"And Olivia?"

"She's good too. She's being discharged tomorrow."

"Any idea who put her in hospital?"

"Not yet. She won't tell us. I think she knew them. There was no forced entry at the apartment."

"How are you?"

"Fine. Considering the circumstances. Still in one piece. What about you?"

"I'm good too. Better now I know she'll wake up soon and he's been found."

"I'm gonna go and get some things together for Olivia. I've managed to get us moved into her apartment. It's a good thing she didn't technically move out. It's a slightly nicer apartment and she'll be more comfortable there."

"That's good. If you help need with anything else, you know where I am."

"Thank you." he kissed her lightly on the forehead, the reflex action so natural in the current moment.

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this is going somewhere despite how long and dragged out it seems

Also, this is not my view on marriage and stuff, it is just a drug addled mind rambling which he will later regret