Underlined is said in Hebrew.

Italics is a flashback/dream/memorie.

Chaptor five – Can't hold it in.

The next morning Tony called Gibbs to tell him what happened but when he was done with telling, Gibbs didn't say anything about it only

'Stay with her Dinozzo'. And than had hung up.

Tony looked down at her, that night she had opened up, probably she didn't even knew it. At 3pm. She finally opened her eyes again. As soon as she realized where she was, and saw him '

Tony, why are you…' she began to ask.

'Just looking after you, orders of the boss' when he said that there came a little smile on her face.

She knew that if Gibbs really had told him to stay with her that wasn't the only reason why he was with her.

He got her something to drink, when she had drunken some he couldn't hold it any longer. 'Do you remember tonight' he asked.

She thought 'A little…I think', with a why look in her eyes Ziva looked at Tony.

'Do you remember your dream' shortly she saw it in her head, he took it as a yes.

'What happened, you screamed for your sister, and said it was you fault' that he shouldn't have asked. Because she turned her head away from him

'none of your business' then she went silent. After an hour she still hadn't said anything to him.

Her condition got better by the hour and after an other night she could go home. Normaly she would have to stay there for another day and night but the doctors were probably scared of her. Abby had drove her home, and did go inside with her.

'Are you really oké. Because I don't mind staying with you. So you can rest some more, I just sleep on you couch or should I call Tony to stay with you' she kept talking 'ABBY' Ziva almost had to scream to get her attention 'I'm fine go home'

With a lot of trouble she got Abby out. It had cost her a lot of her energy. She thought of what Tony had asked the other day. Her dream she remembered as is she was living it, she knew that she had woken up and cried for Tali. Something she normally wouldn't do. But it had been Tony who comforted her, apparently that she didn't really remember. It had to mean that he had heard her, that was not good. Okay, Tony was her partner but he didn't have to know much about her past.

In two days Ziva was back to work, only Gibbs didn't let her come to there crime scene so when the others were away she had gone down to Abby. When she came the music was out

'Abby' she said wondering if there was something wrong.

'o, Ziva wait' Abby answered before she came to her.

'What are you doing, Abby',

'talking to my mother. Well uhmm come one' she dragged Ziva with her to the Camera. On the flatscreen Ziva could see a woman standing. Abby began to sing something to her.

'It's my mom it's her birthday. Just wave', Ziva first didn't understand

'maybe I did only tell the team when Kate was alive. My mother is deaf' that made Ziva wave. The mother of Abby looked a lot like Abby, only without the gothness.

That made Ziva think of her mother. Once her father had said that she just looked like her mother. Only Ziva didn't know if that was true, she never would. It boiled up in her the pain. Than Abby waved good bye and Ziva did the same. Only before Abby turned the camera of she singed something ells. When the camera was off Ziva looked at Abby

'I said I love you to her' Abby said to Ziva.

Even so her mother was deaf, she still had been there for her daughter, and loved her. And Abby loved her mother just as much. That hurt Ziva even more. Her eyes begun to sting, she knew she was almost crying.

' have to go' Ziva said to Abby and than quickly left, leaving abby alone.

Back to work, Ziva thought, so she could concentrate on something ells. But it didn't work the feeling stayed. Ziva walked to the nearest bathroom and trow some water in her face. It didn't help, when she looked at her reflection. She saw the photo, her mother, she did look like her. Ziva and her mother looked the same as to drops of water, especially her eyes. Her eyes where now tears were fallen down from. She wiped them away and wanted to go back but by the stairs Tony grabbed her arm and took her aside.

Tony wasn't crazy. When Ziva had sit there working she wasn't herself, it looked like her eyes were foggy. He had to know if she was okay.

'let me go' she snapped.

Tony always with his stupid actions, he probably wanted to know more, her pain turned slowly into anger.

'What is going on Ziva' he tried to find her gaze. 'Talk to me. Ziva you screamed for your sister and said it was your fault and now you're crying something isn't right. Tell me' with an anger fire in her eyes she looked at him.

Than it hit him in the face, The woman who was here a few days ago, he knew she look familiar. Those eyes were the same, but than it had to be her mother, but her mother was dead she had told them. Still he had to try.

'it has to do something with your mother isn't it. I bet she isn't dead she just left because of daddy. Isn't it' he said.

Why he said it on such tone he didn't know almost if he was angry with her. Still it was the wrong thing to say to Ziva right now, because she snapped.

She hit him in the chest, the first time not so hard but the second was making up for it. Than she threw him on the floor and said

'it is none of your goddamn business' then she walked away.

Tony was totally not focusing on his work when he had stand up and went back to his desk like nothing had happen. Well exept that Ziva could hit really hard, and his chest hurt. One thing he knew for sure now. It had to do something with her mother, probably he was right she wasn't dead but how could he knew for sure.

When Mcgee had left he walked to Gibbs desk.

'Boss, Ziva's mom isn't dead is she. She was here days ago, wasn't she' the looked down at Gibbs who sat behind his desk and put his work down.

'you think Dinozzo' he said. But it wasn't as a headslap in words.

'but boss why would she…',

'Dinozzo she has to tell it you herself I'm not going to test her trust'

And with those words he send Tony home.

So what do you think, what would you think/like to see what happens,

question from me to you is the spelling better than the chaptors al ready in here, some mistakes I didn´t know who to make it right,

Does anyone knows a proper name for Ziva's mom