Underlined is said in Hebrew.

Italics is a flashback/dream/memorie.

it is a short chaptor but with easter i'll put up another chaptor or to.

or maybe tonight well for me night. Need you help though does any one know a name for Ziva's mom

Chaptor Six – I need you

Ziva was sitting behind her desk it was round 10pm, thinking about her mother. She knew it for sure now, She was going to find her, but she couldn't do it all by herself. She needed the help of her family.

She turned the light of and went to her car. It took her not long to come where she was going. The door wasn't locked as normally, she walked in the hall to the stairs that lead down, there was only a light of a lamp.

'Hello, Ziva' she heard

'how did you knew' she asked not sure he would tell

'what are you doing here' Gibbs asked her when he pointed a place to sit.

'I am here because I want you to ask to help me, not the team just you'

He looked at her of course he wanted to help her but he couldn't, and he thought the team should know, have the right to know. Each one loved Ziva, like a sister or a daughter, and cared for her 'Ziva, you know I have to tell the team, no you have to tell them.'

Ziva didn't know what to say she didn't wanted the rest to know,she was afraid they would tread her with sympathy and maybe even more she didn't wanted that, but it was true only Gibbs couldn't help her. She needed the rest of her team her family to help her too.

It had become a long night, with Gibbs she didn't have to talk. She only had to see the look in his eyes, it was enough. But still Ziva couldn't sleep. She was afraid for tomorrow, afraid that they would hate her that she had lied to them. Nothing seemed to calm her down, no hot shower, no warm tea, when she finally was in her bed again her thoughts seemed to be frozen. Suddenly she began to hum a song, she didn't even know what it was, only the melody. With that she fell in to a sleep full of nightmares.

The next day at the office Ziva was really stressed although she didn't let it show. She didn't wanted whole NCIS to know it so she had said to everyone to come down to Abby's lab. They were all there, only Gibbs wasn't Ziva wondered why. Now she couldn't go back she had to tell the truth.

'Well, you are probably wondering why I let you all came down her' she said when she looked at them. 'I've told you that my mother had died but…' she couldn't do it she just couldn't but than she saw Tony's eyes looking at hers. They were speaking warmth and love. 'but she is not, I need your help to find her would you please help me'

For a moment nobody said anything Abby was the first one to speak up.

'of course we'll help you' than she gave a big hug to Ziva.

'And we will all my dear' Ducky had said.

After a few more yeses and hugs they left, Ziva got one final hug from Abby when she stepped in the elevator. What she didn't know was that Tony was right behind her. When the elevator was just on its way up he stopt the elevator. Ziva only looked at him, not entirely sure what to say.

'Why didn't you say anything before'

'I didn't thought you would understand' Ziva said while turning her eyes away from him.

'Didn't understand, Ziva, I'm your partner you can trust me, I know you' he said trying to meet her eyes. But she looked away.

'you don't know nothing about me' She turned the elevator back on. When they were in the squad room again they both didn't say a word.

Tony looked at Ziva when she sat behind her desk working if nothing had happen. He wanted to hold her, not like Abby but really hold her. Understand everything that went on in her mind, staying with her forever. But he knew that wouldn't happen, so he better focus on finding her mom, than maybe she would smile her incredible smile some more. And he would feel like helping her, understanding her a little bit more. Because she was right there wasn't much he'd understand about her.