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Italics is a flashback/dream/memorie/thoughts

Chapter 14 - If i would die this very moment

When they arrived at NCIS Ziva brought her mother to Abby before she left for the squad room. By the time she arrived there Tony was finally in.

After his sort of talk with Neorah, the other day he had realized something. He really did love her. He had loved Jeanne, but he had never been in love with Jeanne. Not unlike with Ziva, it hurt him every time she was on a date. Not to speak about the time that Damon came back. He needed to tell her how he fell, he owed her that much and more. But first he had to talk her apart.

They were the whole day out in the field an easy case, by the night they were done with it. Except the paperwork. Ziva and Tony were still behind their desks, when Mcgee bid them goodbye and left. Now they were alone, Tony stood up and looked to see if there were more people. The last one just left, so he walked to Ziva.

"Hey" he said not sure how to begin.

Ziva only looked up shortly before returning her attention back to her work.

"Can we talk?"

"sure, go ahead talk" Ziva said coldly

"I mean really talk Ziva, together" she looked up at him.

"What is there to talk about?" he could see the pain in her eyes. Even though she tried to hide it so strong.

"About what has happened, in the past few days. Even the last few years. I know you blame me for that your mother had to come here"

"Maybe because it is your fault"

"You know just as well as I that I had orders. You were the one that told me to follow orders"

She just stood up and grabbed her bag she wanted to walk away. But Tony grabbed her arm just as she was about to walk away.

"Ziva just listen, please. I know I have been a bit of a jerk. And I am not only talking about what happened with your mom. I am also talking about Jeanne, I should have trusted you, you're my partner"

And that is all I will ever be to you Ziva thought.

"Tony just spear yourself the trouble" And she walked to the elevator and pushed the button. Great she had to wait.

Tony did not give up he blocked the elevator.

"And when I shot Michael, it was not as if I wanted him dead. Ziva just trust me"

"Trust you" Ziva said: "why should I trust you after all. Because when I trusted you, you murdered my boyfriend, and before that you lied to me, about Jeanne. Go. Let me leave, I honestly do not understand why you even dare to talk about it. I have heard enough Tony goodnight" When she stepped in the elevator

"you also lied to me Ziva, I am not the only one. And you know damn well what I am talking about" He rose his voice. No this is nothing like he planned it to go.

"Let me leave, I honestly do not understand why you even dare to talk about it."

He could not let her leave not now he had come this far "Ziva you know why I did all the things I did. Well I did them for you because I "

"I have heard enough Tony, spare me more lies. Goodnight" she stepped in the elevator and left for Abby's lab. Letting Tony stand in front of the elevator.

Defeated he walked back to his desk, giving it a hard kick.

The next morning came to early for all of them.

It was hardly 0600 when they got a call from Gibbs. Another Saterday that wasn't going to be free.

Ziva did not like it because she would see Tony the memories of yesterday still to good in her mind.

Tony because he would see Ziva, the memories were still fresh in his mind maybe he had screwed up.

"Ima, I just got a call from Gibbs. I have to go to work. Will you be okay?"

"yes, darling. And yes I will be here if you come back" With that reinsurance Ziva left. When she entered the crime scene Mcgee and Gibbs were already there. Shortly after she got out Ducky and Palmer arrived. Of course Tony was late as always.

She was just interviewing a few witnesses, when his car drove in. immidiately her attention went from the witnesses to Tony. He turned his car off and got out. He was just out of his car when their gaze hold.

Tony POV

When I turned off my car I saw her. The woman that had stolen my heart. If I should die this very moment I wouldn't woman that I love does not love me back, why would I be happy if she is not in my arms.

Third POV

He had walked about five steps away from his car when it happened. Gibbs had looked up with worry, Mcgee had looked up from the sound. Ducky stopped his endless long storys, and Palmer had looked up in shock. But that was not nearly as bad as Ziva. When it happened her world stopped, it seemed as if her heart was ripped out, and thrown into flames. When the bang came she saw the look in his eyes. She saw him get blown away and land a few meters further. She let the witnesses behind and run to him, Gibbs tried to stop her. Yelling at her that there could be more explosions. But she did not care she run to him.

If I should die this very moment I wouldn't feel

Line : if I should die this very moemnt I wound't feel original from Lamb preforming Gorecki

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