this chapter really sucks, i my head it sounded so good, but i had to tell it because otherwise i have to skip a lot of time. Still it sucks. But review anyway, to make my day better

Chapter 15 – The moon is broken

It seemed to take hours before she got to him. When she finally reached him she knelt down to him. There were burning wounds on his arms and legs, in his face were only a few scratches. He probably got the bad hit on his back, when Ziva wanted to turn him around she spotted the line in his neck. It was filling fast with fresh blood.

"Call 9-1-1" she yelled "Now"

She put her hand on the wound trying to stop the bleeding. She knew at some point Gibbs knelt down next to her, closely followed by Ducky, but the only thing she could focus on was him. He could not die, not now, not like this.

When the doctors arrived they tried to push her away, but she kept holding on. Until four pair of arms pull her back.

"they need to do their work Ziver" it was Gibbs

"he will be okay, he always is okay" Mcgee.

The trip to Bethesda she could not remember. Only that when they came she had only one more glance at him before they drove him away to the OK. She fell two arms pushing her down on a chair, but did not react. She did not even move until she fell the soft hands of her mother on her arms. She looked up and meet her eyes, there was only that needed for Neorah to wrap her arms around Ziva.

"Gibbs, Gibbs, where is he? We came as fast as we could, we are not to late are we? Ow Gibbs he is not…he is not dead is he, say he is alright"

Gibbs wrapped his arms around Abby and whispered in her ear "he is not dead Abs, and he will not die. I did not give him permission"

In the meanwhile Ducky was trying to find out more from the doctors, and Mcgee and Palmer just sat next to each other, having small talk, just so that they would not break down like Abby or Ziva.

After five hours of operating, finally a doctor came out of the OK.

The whole group stood together, when he spoke

"you are family of Anthony Dinozzo"

"the closest thing he has to a family" Gibbs said

"very well than. We were able to stop the bleedings he had, inside and outside. We did our best to heal the wounds on his back, there is not unrepairable damage done, he will need to go to the ICU** so he can fully recover that is if"

"ifs are not good, are they. O please tell me that"

"Abigail, let the doctor finish"

"that is if he wakes up. Because of the blood loss we lost him two times, once in the ambulance and one when we were just healing his back. That caused him to slip into a coma"

There was a silence from the group

"you can go and see him, but no more that two at a time. Some doctors say that one in a coma can hear the people around them, others say they don't, there is a change trying. If he cannot hear you, the last thing he saw or heard is the one memory he has and lives on. It depends on him if he will wake up, two of you can go in now"

"Ziver i think you should go in first alone"

Ziva nodded and walked behind the doctor. In front of the room she stood still. The doctor left her and she was standing alone outside his room. She slowly opened the door, her hand found her mouth from what she saw. There he lay, all bandaged up, IV's in his body, it made her feel sick. It had all been her fault that he was here. She could not take it anymore. With tears falling down her face she ran away. As fast as she could she run. When she passed the team she did not look back she just kept running. She did not bother to hold a cab, she just run, run away from another "her fault".

They all saw her leave, neither one of them spoke a word about it. Pair by pair they visited Tony.

For the next few days they all stayed at the day. So that at least one person was there in the day. They were not allowed at night by the hospital.

No one knew where Ziva was, Neorah was worried about her. They all were. The first day Ziva found herself at the bar Tony and she sometimes went to after a long case. How or where she slept she could not recall. The whole day she wandered through the city, only to end up round 11pm in front of his apartment. She broke in, she changed in a to over sized shirt from him and crawled into his bed. Taking his smell, dreaming about him.

It had taken her another day to convince herself to visit him. And so at the fourth night she went to the hospital. The floor was almost abandoned, a part from a few nurses. She slipped past them and into his room, she sat down next to him. Just looking at him slowly the night went away and was replaced by the sun. In less than 20 minutes a doctor would come and check on him so she left. There was nothing that gave away she had been there.

Ziva opened the door to her apartment. Till her surprise her mother was in the living room, she stood up and brought Ziva in an embrace. That day she went to work just like any other day. McGee had looked up, Gibbs had looked up but neither one said a word. They both knew something had happened between Tony and Ziva.

What Ziva had done continued, at night she went to Tony's room and sat until the sun came just looking at him. As a result she hadn't slept in three days. Everyone at work noticed that she was exhausted.

The night that just came she was so tired. She sat down beside him, placing her hand on his. Slowly her head went to her arm and she fell asleep. Only to be found the next morning by Ducky, the nurses had seen her and hadn't come and check on Tony for now. When Ducky looked in the room a small smile grew on his face. It was bad enough he had to be here, but to see this was right. He softly closed the door and left.

Ziva woke from the nurses that came in. It was than she knew she had fallen asleep. Now she was here she promised herself not to leave him alone, not again so she stayed.

Against the words of Gibbs and her mother in she stayed with him. Day and night, only leaving for an hour max to clean herself, take a shower put on clean clothes and eat. No one saw it, but she was getting desperate, he had to wake up.

On the days that Ziva spend with Tony Neorah was or with Ziva looking at her, or with Abby today was a day she was with Abby. One way or another they began to talk.

"how was Ziva when she was a little girl?" Abby asked curious.

"well" Neorah thought for a moment "she was different and the same as now in many ways. I remember that one night I think she was three she came to me crying in the middle of the night because the moon was broken. It took me a while to explain it was not broken, but that we just couldn't see a part of it"

Abby laughed when she heard that

"that reminds me of something Ziva once told me. It was a year ago from when Kate died. She had found me, we talked and she calmed me, because I was afraid that because we became best friends I would forget about Kate in a while. She told me that it would not happen. Because there would always be a part of Kate in me where ever I went, she told me "a loved one is just like the moon, sometimes we only see half of it or not at all but it is always there" now I guess I know where that came from"

They laughed together.

"how is my daughter now?"Neorah wanted to know from Abby.

"She has become my best friend. She does not talk much about herself, but I can always go to her. Sometimes she is really stubborn"

"She always has been"

They talked some more and Abby told Neorah things that Ziva had not told. She was now telling about the bickering of Tony and Ziva

"And the most annoying thing is that they don't see they totally are in love with each other. Oops" Abby said "It's just"

"How they look at each other, you know Abby even if I have not been in my daughter's life for twenty years, but I always know what she feels, even when she was little"

"So you mean you saw it to" Neorah nods.

"You have to be blind not to see it"

The day passed slowly also for Ziva, she had started to talk to Tony, tell him things about when she was little or just about memories they had together.

Round dinnertime Neorah went to visit Ziva and Tony, she heard Ziva talk and decided to wait, she could hear every word

"They would beat me for days, to get information, sometimes they would hold my head under water until everything went black, they have broken most of my bones, there were days when I did not see them, without food or water. And the only thing I could think about was you, I saw your face and I got me through, I thought if I would die now I would not mind because you would be safe in DC"

Neorah got tears in her eyes when she heard what she had done, she turned around and left.

There was nothing that she needed with her there was only one more stop to make. Today she would leave her daughter's life again, for what she had done she did not deserve Ziva, she would be better of without her.

She walked in the house, she heard sounds in the basement and went down. There was the last thing she needed to do, she walked down the stairs, Gibbs looked up.

"Shalom Gibbs" Neorah said "I am here to ask you a favor"

Gibbs stopped with what he was doing. And nodded for her to continue

"Will you promise me to look after my Ziva?" She asked him.

"why do you ask?" Gibbs hoped his gut was wrong for one time in his life.

"I cannot stay here, I did a horrible thing, I do not deserve her"

"You cannot leave her, not now not again. Even if you think you do not deserve her, she deserves you, you are her mother"

"the things I have done I cannot look her in the eye and tell her the truth"

Gibbs sighed "You can't walk away from your daughter, see needs you know, and she will never forgive you if you do. If I was you I would be in seventh heaven, my daughter died and I wished I had the change you have now, to hold her to be with her"

"But what if I disappoint her, if I tell her the truth she will never trust me again"

"you still will be able to see her, and trust can heal over time. You have to stay not for yourself, but for your daughter"

A/N I said this one sucked

** please help me out here, I could not find the translation anywhere and I like to do it good, I think I got it changed right now but if not tell me