Underlined is said in Hebrew.

Before you begin to read I wanted to say I have luckily never been in some sort of situation. So I don't know how it really feels but I try my best

And love and hugs for the ones that have gone through losing a parent or relative, or loved one

CHAPTER 20

Tony held Ziva until the she stopped sobbing she turned to him and looked in his eyes. A thank you came from them, he responded by kissing her softly on her for head.

They had sat on the ground and Tony helped Ziva up "Whenever you are ready"

After a few minutes she had pulled together what could be pulled together and she walked in. Tony right behind her.

The room did not help the feeling of sadness that they fell. The walls and floor where some sort of grey, the bed held white sheets and a brownish collared warmer blanket.

Ziva walked to her mother who looked back at her. Something in Tony told him he needed to held distance for a while.

"Ima" Ziva said as she stood next to her mothers' bed, she had an IV in her arm and a heart monitor which gave a rather slow but steady beat. She also had those oxygen tubes by her nose.

She grabbed her mothers' hand "I am so sorry"

With much effort Neorah placed her other hand on Ziva's cheek. She whispered back

"It's okay darling I did not know. It is I who am sorry"

"Ima please be better" Tears were falling from her eyes again.

Neorah had been told the same as Ziva. The moment she had been told she had also broken down, not as bad as Ziva though. Without her there her little girl would be safe, and maybe that way Ziva could forget the bad things that happened.

"Zivaleh you know I can't. But I'll promise you that if you think of me I always be there. Do not cry over me my child. I do not deserve it. Please stay with me as long as we have left, all I ask for"

"But" Ziva said

Tony knew it was his moment to step up. He had not understand a word from what they had said but after one look of Ziva he knew she needed him by her side. He placed his arms around her loos enough so she was still facing her mother strong enough to let her know she was not alone.

After a while he kissed Ziva's temple and whispered to her that he would call Gibbs.

Tony grabbed his phone out of his pocket and pressed speed dial one. After a few rings Gibbs picked up the phone

"Gibbs"

"Boss, it's me" Tony sighed, how was he supposed to explain what was going on. Had he even the right to tell them, it would be hard for Ziva or Neorah to tell them but it would be better. She could tell them when she was ready "I am in the hospital Bethesda's, it is Neorah"

"Were on our way"

When Tony put his phone back in his pocket he whipped with his hand over his face. He could not imagine what Ziva had to go through, but he would help her, he would be there for her.

Within fifteen minutes the team was in the waiting room. Tony walked back into the room where Neorah was. He saw Ziva stroke her mothers' hair, still tears in her eyes but now determent not to let them fall. She looked up when she heard the sound of the door opening.

Slowly he walked to her on the rhythm of the heart beat monitor. She stood up and he knew what to do. He placed both of his arms around her, one on her waist one on her head, which he used to pull her head to his mouth and kissed her for head.

He whispered to her "The team is waiting outside. Whenever you're ready"

She nodded; they stood there for a while, both listening to the beep…beep…..beep.

Then they parted before they walked out the door Ziva said to Tony "Thank you"

"For what?"

"Being here for me, not telling the team"

"Always for you"

The corners of her lips lifted in a very small smile

The team was waiting for Ziva to show. When she came in the room neither knew exactly how to react because they did not know what was going on.

"Ziver what happened?" Gibbs asked.

Ziva just stared into nothing, Gibbs looked at Abby McGee and Ducky who all got the hint and left, Gibbs looked also at Tony. He saw that the younger agent did not want to go, after one final look at Gibbs eyes he walked behind Ducky.

"Come" Gibbs said as he led Ziva to one of the uncomfortable chairs.

When they both said Gibbs patiently waited for Ziva to talk and after a few minutes she took a deep breath and spoke up

"She is dying" She looked at Gibbs with big deer like eyes "we had a fight and she fell down"

Gibbs wanted to place his hand on her shoulder to let her know he understood and that he was there for her. When he touched her she jerked away in a flinching way**

""She told me" He waited for her to say what "It was all because of her"

"What was because of her Ziver?"

"Salim. That was the reason she never returned to take us with her, she had been captive by him, well not by him, but by the one he took the place from" Tears full of hurt pain and ghosts from months ago came back "She told them, that was why they could take me, I was so angry with her. I told her I wished she had not come back"

"Ziver its okay" Gibbs told her as he pulled her close "Your mom is safe now in the hospital, the doctors can heal her"

Ziva shook her head, with that Gibbs let her go. All that could be seen in her eyes was pain.

"No"

"What do you mean?" Somewhere Gibbs knew what she was about to say, deep down, because he had seen that pain once before. In Tony's eyes when he told him that Ziva David was no longer alive, that she was lying on the bottom of the ocean, in the wreck that once was the Damocles***.

"The doctors, they cannot heal her. The poison is unknown, and making an antidote takes more than two days, which is all she has left"

Gibbs did not speak another word, he just held his broken daughter in his arms, and prayed for her. That it was only a nightmare.

** Don't even know if that is possible but it sounded nice

*** I know I have spelled it wrong sorry

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