Previously: A kid at our school, Savannah, was found burnt to death in an alley. As I lay in bed I couldn't't sleep. I tossed and turned until I sat up and said to myself
"I have to go back to Sunnydale"
(Bella POV)
I was halfway through packing when Alice came in through my window. I clutched my heart
"Don't do that Alice". Alice didn't laugh, he mouth was set in a thin line and her gaze was almost angry
"Isabella, when we you going to tell us you were leaving?" her voice was deathly quiet but I knew I could fend her off if she attacked me.
"When I got back?" my answer was a question. Alice's eyes flashed.
"We are coming with you" her voice was determined. I crossed my arms,
"No"
"Yes, Bella you don't have a choice, if you go we will follow you" I sighed she wasn't going to give up. Alice saw in my eyes that I had given up. She beamed at me. Bitch. Thank god I was a mental mute and Edward or Jasper weren't here.
"Great, finish packing, we leave in the morning" she flew out the window. I let out a lame growl and finished packing. I only got an hours worth of sleep so I was cranky. I made Charlie breakfast and told him I was going to Sunnydale (Charlie doesn't know about the supernatural). he nearly chocked on his coffee. I thumped his back
"What?" he gasped.
"I'm going to Sunnydale" I said it slowly
"When?" Charlie asked, his face red.
"Today, I'm already packed, I miss everyone" Charlie sighed
"I guess I can't stop you but come back soon" I gave him a hug and a kiss on the cheek
"Thanks dad" I got used to calling him dad when my dad split. I knew Charlie liked it because he beamed at me whenever I said it. I put my bags in my truck and was off to the Cullens house. I knocked on the door and instantly Emmett opened in up.
"Hey Bella" he picked my up and threw me over his shoulder. I squirmed in his arms
"Let me down you big oaf" he just tightened his grip on me. I continued to kick his stomach and pound his back (this actually happened to me when I visited my brother I haven't seen for 4 years only he dropped me on his boyfriend's lap. That may sound gross but it really isn't, it's his way of introducing us, he did it with all 7 of his friends that were there. One my now current boyfriend)
"That all you got Bells?" he teased. I gave up and just crossed my arms. He dumped me on the couch. I rubbed my backside. It hurt when he dropped me. Emmett dropped next to me
"Where are we going little sis, and more importantly why didn't you want to tell us" Emmett pouted and I sighed.
"I'll tell you when we get there" just then Rosalie walked down the stairs and grabbed Emmett, glaring at me. I've had enough of this
"What's you're problem Rosalie?" Rosalie froze, obviously not believing I had spoken. Her glare intensified when she realized what I had said
"You're my problem Isabella. You come along and everyone falls in love with you and your goody-goody-two-shoes act, I'm not buying it" huh. If me and Rosalie weren't at each others throats I imagine we could be good friends. I said the first thing that came to my head.
"I didn't charge you for it" I honestly didn't think it was that funny but apparently Emmett did and fell to the floor laughing. He reminded me of Alex ( Xander ). Rosalie's lips turned upwards for a split second before they turned down again. Her eyes narrowed
"You have some backbone" she said. I smiled. Alice twirled into the room.
"It's time to go, Bella you have to tell Edward where we are going so he can drive us there" I knew that if I told him straight out then they would know and I think Carlisle would know what Sunnydale is so I grabbed a piece of paper and a pen, wrote down the location, keeping it hidden from their view and showed Edward. When he nodded I burnt it, using a lighter from my backpack. I'm very protective of my backpack, it has all the supplies I need to kill a supernatural creature, including a few books that contain spells. We all piled into the car.
(Skipping the ride to Sunnydale)
We are here. Finally. I'm never riding with Emmett again, he just sat there poking me and asking the same two questions, said questions being 'Are we there yet?' and 'Where are we going?'. You have no idea how temped I was to blast him out of the car, I mean he wouldn't get hurt or anything. It was light when we got to Sunnydale so they stayed in the car when I walked up to the magic box. (Bella moved over here when she was 16 but never actually talked to the Cullens till she was 17, when they moved to Forks) I walked through the door after taking a deep breath. Willow saw me first and froze. Tears welled up in my eyes as I looked at my family. My eyes landed on Buffy and I know that hatred filled them. I decided to speak
"Hey guys" all heads were on me now. My chin raised a fraction. Anya was the first to speak
"Bella you're back! Why are you back" I chuckled and hugged her. I always had a soft spot for Anya, especially when she came to me saying she would rip Spike's balls off for me. I laughed and said go ahead. Willow and Alex hugged me next. I walked up to Giles
"Hey Giles" I smiled softly at me. He was one of the hardest people to say goodbye to.
"Bella" he crushed me to his chest. Some tears fell and I felt wetness in my hair. We parted after a few minutes. I wiped my tears and he did the same.
"Bella why are you here, not that I'm not happy to see you" I turned serious
"People are combusting into song and burnt, I know there's something supernatural going on here so I came back to fix it, I mean this is a hell mouth" I ignored Buffy and I was doing pretty well until she spoke to me
"Where was my hug?" she asked. I turned to face her my face blank
"I didn't want to give you one" I said calmly. Slutty- whoops I mean Buffy scoffed
"Nonsense now give your sister a hug" she stepped towards me, arms open a bright, fake smile on her face.
"No, when I say I don't want to give you a hug, I don't want to fucking give you a hug" Buffy gasped then she slapped me. My head turned left at the impact and my hand flew to my cheek. I knew the hurt was written all over my face.
"You will not talk like that Isabella" who did she think she was? My mother?
"You have no say in what I do, you are not my mother" I told her.
"No, my mother's dead, so I'm in charge" she told me like I was a little child
"How dare you speak to me like that?" I shouted it was the first time I've ever raised my voice so I wasn't surprised when she stayed silent.
"You sleep with my boyfriend the very day he told me he loved me, you slap me, do you know what I've been through because of you" I heard the gasps when I told them she slept with Spike. I never meant for it to come out but I am just so angry I am shaking. I knew my eyes were black, like they always were when I am pissed.
"Buffy is this true?" Willow asked. Buffy shook her head
"She's delusional, you know I would never go near Spike" how dare she deny she slept with Spike, I saw them!
"Don't lie Buffy, I saw you together, in the cemetery" I shouted it. Buffy still denied it. I could see that Willow and Giles believed Buffy. Only me and Anya knew. Or so I thought.
"Buffy, stop trying to deny it. I saw you together too" Alex piped in. everyone turned to him in shock. I never knew he knew!
"Xander you can't possibly believe I would let Spike touch me that way. She's lying so stop defending her" I could see Buffy was losing her temper
"I believe Bella" Tara said. I smiled at her.
"Me too, I was with Bella when she saw them, I told her I'd rip his ball off" Anya announced. Buffy was cornered and she knew it. Her face turned red in anger. Then she exploded
"Fine I admit it, I slept with Spike, more than once, I needed a good fuck and I knew he would satisfy me. He was reluctant at first but I knew I had him. No one can resist Buffy-" she shut up but her lips never stopped moving. I realized Tara had put a silencing spell on her. I think she knew I was tearing apart. Willow moved to hug me but I backed away.
"You believed her" I whispered before I launched myself at Alex. I sobbed into his chest. I quietly sung the song I wrote when I found out about Spike and Buffy.
The smell of your skin lingers on me now
You're probably on your flight back to your home town
I need some shelter of my own protection, baby
To be with myself and center
Clarity, peace, serenity
I hope you know, I hope you know
That this has nothing to do with you
It's personal, myself and I
We've got some straightenin' out to do
And I'm gonna miss you like a child misses their blanket
But I've got to get a move on with my life
It's time to be a big girl now
And big girls don't cry
Don't cry, don't cry, don't cry
The path that I'm walkin', I must go alone
I must take the baby steps 'til I'm full grown, full grown
Fairy tales don't always have a happy ending, do they?
And I foresee the dark ahead if I stay
I hope you know, I hope you know
That this has nothing to with you
It's personal, myself and I
We've got some straightenin' out to do
And I'm gonna miss you like a child misses their blanket
But I've got to get a move on with my life
It's time to be a big girl now
And big girls don't cry
Like the little school mate in the school yard
We'll play jacks and Uno cards
I'll be your best friend and you'll be mine
Valentine
Yes, you can hold my hand if you want to
'Cause I want to hold yours too
We'll be playmates and lovers
And share our secret worlds
But it's time for me to go home
It's getting late, dark outside
I need to be with myself, and center
Clarity, peace, serenity
I hope you know, I hope you know
That this has nothing to do with you
It's personal, myself and I
We've got some straightenin' out to do
And I'm gonna miss you like a child misses their blanket
But I've got to get a move on with my life
It's time to be a big girl now
And big girls don't cry
Don't cry, don't cry, don't cry
No one was supposed to hear me but I think Alex did because he clutched me tighter. I sing this song overtime I feel down. I wrote a lot of songs when I left Sunnydale. I silently sung now, only my lips moving
how bout a round of applause
standing ovation
you look so dumb right now
standing outside my house
trying to apologize
your so ugly when you cry
please, just cut it out.
and don't tell me your sorry
cause you're not
baby when i know your
only sorry you got caught
but you put on quite a show,
really had me going
but now it's time to go
curtains finally closing
that was quite a show
very entertaining
but it's over now
go on and take a bow
grab your clothes and get gone
you better hurry up
before the sprinklers come on
talking about
girl I love you your the one
this just looks like a rerun
please, what else is on
and don't tell me your sorry
cause you're not
baby when I know your
only sorry you got caught
but you put on quite a show
really had me going
but now it's time to go
curtains finally closing
that was quite a show
very entertaining
but it's over now
go on and take a bow
and the award for
the best lie goes to you
for making me believe
that you could be faithful
to me
let's here your speech.
how bout a round of applause
a standing ovation
but you put on quite a show
really had me going
but now it's time to go
curtains finally closing
that was quite a show
very entertaining
but it's over now
go on and take a bow
but it's over now.
This is the song that get's to me the most. My sobs have died down but I'm still crying. I'm not ready to turn around yet. And I still have to see Dawn and Spike.
Hope you liked this chapter,
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Xx
Kathryn