I feel like I haven't updated in forever, but last week was a bit crazy, but it's calmed down so hopefully the next update won't take forever. Thank you to everyone who continues to review. :)

"Rachel!"

After the fiasco at the coffee house Rachel had barricaded herself in her bedroom. She claimed it was because she needed sleep, but Ross knew she was still upset from what Emily had said to her. She hadn't looked at him or spoken a word the entire way home and every time he had asked if she was okay she would just pick up the pace and walk further away. He checked his watch and shook his head. It had been five hours since he had seen her so he knocked on her door once again.

"Rach," he yelled, but still no answer.

He opened the door and was instantly enveloped in the darkness of the room. He flipped the light switch on and saw that she was buried underneath a blanket. He kneeled at her bedside and pulled back the blanket slightly and could still see the tear stains on her cheeks. He ran a hand through her hair as she began to cry again.

"You know I hate to see you cry Rach."

"It's hard not to when there's nothing to smile about."

"Rach whatever she said to you is lies okay. I know your a good person and I promise she's not going to be bothering you anymore." At his statement she stopped crying, but remained silent. "You know I don't think of you like that right?"

"I don't know."

"Rach your so much better than her, but I have to say that coffee throwing thing was pretty cool." He could see the outline of her smile and was happy that his plan was working. "I love you."

"It doesn't make sense that someone like you would date someone like her."

"Well I didn't know what kind of person she really was, but thankfully I had my favorite girl show me," he said.

"I hate her and I hate that you dated her."

"Her opinion doesn't matter. Can't you see that she's jealous of you? She always has been. Regardless if you feel the same way I'm crazy about you Rachel. Not her."

"You were in love with her."

"I was never in love with her because I was falling in love with you. I don't want anyone else."

"You say that, but how do I know that you won't meet anyone else. What if they brainwash you to leave me and our daughter?" At this he moved a hand to where their baby was still growing.

"Rachel no woman will come between us again and no one will stop me from being with you and our daughter."

"But…"

"Rachel why do you let Emily get to you? I broke up with her for a reason."

"Yeah after you almost proposed to her and not to mention the fact that you were going to move back to London," she added bitterly. That was still a sore subject between them and it hurt him to know that he could make her so upset.

"Rach I'm sorry. I'm stupid, but I just wanted to keep her happy. I didn't want to be alone. If I couldn't have you then I had to settle."

"What's wrong with being alone?"

"Nothing it's just…" He trailed off as he struggled to find the right words. She crawled from underneath the blanket and turned to him so that her eyes burned into his.

"Tell me."

"I was in London for five years. You weren't there and it was weird. We grew up together and I was so accustomed to you being there all the time that I didn't know how to function without my best friend. I was lost I guess and when I met Emily I felt kind of relieved. She reminded me of you and I was happy."

"You missed me that much?"

"Everyday I thought about you and even now I still think about how it was a mistake to leave."

"Ross that's so sweet and I really appreciate you telling me the truth. I'm glad you came back."

"Yeah and I'm here for good and I'm not going anywhere. You can't get rid of me this time," he joked as he tickled and she burst into a fit of giggles."See that's what I like to hear." She turned to him and he was pulled into a tight hug.

"Thank you Ross. For everything." She lied back down on her bed, this time in his arms as his hand stroked her now large stomach. She felt hunger overtake her and almost instantly she heard his voice.

"Hungry?"

"How did you know," she asked with a shocked expression. He just shrugged his shoulders and let go of her and went to the door.

"I'll go get you something. I'll be back really quick." He kissed her cheek and she watched him dash out the room.

He was on his way back to the apartment after stopping to pick up Rachel dinner and stopping at the bookstore to pick up a few pregnancy books since she had been panicking the last few weeks about the baby. When he passed a jewelry store and caught sight of something shiny. He took a few steps backward and stopped in front of the display window.

A sparkling silver bracelet covered in diamonds glistened through the window. Rachel had mentioned to him months ago that she had wanted a bracelet like that for her birthday and as soon as he set his eyes on it he knew he would get it for her. He looked at the sign on the door and hurried inside when he saw that the store closed in fifteen minutes.

Back at home Rachel was lounging on the couch watching tv and coincidentally they were having a special on dinosaurs. She smiled when she thought about how disappointed Ross was going to be when he came back. She yawned as she adjusted herself. She was wearing one of his sweatshirts that she had secretly taken a few months ago, but she knew he wouldn't mind. Plus it was one of the few things that fit her at the moment.

She sat up suddenly when she felt a movement in her stomach and wondered if was the baby, but waved it off as she smiled at the television.

"Aww do you like dinosaurs like daddy," she whispered even though she knew the baby couldn't hear her.

As soon as she moved a hand to her growing belly she was overcome with tears. In just a few short months their little girl would be making her arrival and Rachel was beyond excited. She couldn't wait until she was older. They could go for family walks in Central Park and she could take her into the city for a girl's day out and prepare her when she tried out for cheerleading, but if she turned out anything like her father then she would be spending most her time at museums or going on digs with Ross.

She left the couch and made her way to the nursery and smiled to herself when she pushed the door open. Ross had insisted on decorating it all pink for his little girl, but had managed to sneak in a few dinosaur toys for her, one in her crib and another sat with the rest of the toys. He had taken it upon himself to stencil the room with princess crowns and set up the crib himself, though he had much difficulty putting it up at first.

She took a step towards the windows and watched as a soft rain began to fall. She turned away and smiled when her eyes fell on a picture frame. It read mommy and daddy held a picture of her and Ross when they were kids. She was so distracted by it that she didn't realize that Ross had come back and was now standing next to her. When she finally saw him she jumped and put a hand over her heart.

"God you scared me," she gasped. He smiled as he handed her a brown bag.

"Here's your dinner." She beamed at him as she wrapped her arms around his neck.

"Thank you."

"Well if you loved that then you'll love what else I have." He handed her a small blue bag and she looked at him for a moment with a confused look. He watched with excitement as she reached into the bag and pulled out a rectangular box and when she pulled out the bracelet a loud gasp escaped from her lips

"Oh my god." She held up the bracelet and the diamonds glistened in the light. He put it on for her and was happy to see that it fit perfectly.

"I know your birthday isn't until a few months but I remembered what you said and I had to get it for you Rach," he confessed, but his smile disappeared when she shook her head at him and took the bracelet off.

"Ross how could you?" She looked at him and immediately his thoughts went to the worst.

"You don't like it? I thought you said that…"

"I love it and I'm so happy that you remembered, but It's just… I can't take this. I'm sorry Ross but this is way too expensive and I would feel so guilty."

"Just think of it as an early birthday present Rach."

"I can't. This is too much. You're spoiling me."

"But I want to. Rachel please take it. I got it for you," he insisted as he tried to hand it back. She shook her head at him, but he still tried to give her the bracelet back.

"Rachel…"

"I'm not taking it."

"Rach please. I'm not going to return this. It's yours now." He gave her the puppy-dog face and she was instantly under his spell. The daze she was in made her unaware of her surroundings and the only thing in sight was him. She slowly made her way to him and before he could say anything she had pressed her lips against his. After just a few seconds she realized what she was doing and quickly pulled back.

Ross still seemed stunned, but she could spot a hint of a smile forming and when she saw him take a step towards her she moved away.

"Ross… I swear I just… I don't know what I was thinking. I'm so sorry." She covered her face in embarrassment and shame, but he shook his head at her and took another step towards her.

"Rach you don't have to apologize. I kissed you back."

"I know, but that was still stupid of me. I'm the one who told you we should stay friends and now I'm sending you all these mixed signals. I'm sorry," she repeated.

"It's okay," Ross insisted as he took her hand.

"No it's not. We promised to stay friends."

"Rachel I never wanted that."

"Well I thought after a few months you would have gotten over it Ross. I mean I never told you that you couldn't date anyone else."

"You and I both know you would get jealous and don't even lie and say you wouldn't."

"You don't have to feel committed to me. You can meet other woman," she added. The last sentence hurt to say because deep down she didn't mean it, but she couldn't expect him to stay at home all the time and wait on her hand and foot.

"I would feel guilty because you would be at home, pregnant with our baby and it wouldn't be right Rachel. Why would I go out with someone when the person I'm in love with is at home?"

"Ross I…

"And it's harder now because you're having our baby and I just want to be there for you," he added sadly.

"You are there. You've been supportive of everything the entire time. You come to every doctor appointment, you practically did the whole nursery yourself, and you always make sure me and her are okay," she finished. "I couldn't ask you to be a more supportive father or friend."

"But I wanted to kiss you when we found out we were having a girl and I want to be able to say I love you when you're giving birth to her. I want us to be a family."

"She will have a family."

"She deserves a real family."

"Ross I know your upset with me, but she will have a family. Maybe it's not the traditional kind, but family is family and she'll have one regardless."

"But Rach…" he started, but she held her hand up.

"I'm sorry, but I… I can't."

"I want to make you happy Rach."

"I can't be with someone if I can't trust them."

"You're lying," he said bluntly. At this she gave him an incredulous look and then proceeded to poke him in the chest.

"No I am not!"

"When you lie your eye twitches like crazy? Rach why are you lying to me?"

"I'm not lying," she said as her eye twitched once again and he frowned.

"Rachel you did it again."

"Ross you're really starting to make mad and we both know that the hormones are going to make it worse," she threatened.

"We need to talk. I've been wanting to for months, but stuff came up and well… it can't wait anymore." Rachel sighed to herself angrily and rubbed her a few times before finally turning to him.

"Okay here's the thing. I thought I could trust you, but I can't anymore. You lied to me Ross."

"Rach… I made a mistake and you won't let it go," he argued."

"No it wasn't just a mistake Ross! You told me you loved me and said all that stuff and then you lie to my face. I can't be with you if I can trust you."

"Rach I know I lied about going to London with Emily, but I know that's not the only reason." She became silent at this and broke eye contact. He slowly made his way back to her and gently took her hand. "You can tell me the truth Rachel."

"When you left for London that was the hardest I ever to deal with it and I can't do it again."

"Why would I leave you again?"

"I don't know Ross maybe you might meet someone like Emily and decide to go without telling me."

"You really think I would abandon my family?"

"I didn't mean it… Ross please don't look at me like that," she said softly when she saw the hurt expression on his face.

"I can't help it. You think I'm just the type of person to just walk our on you and our baby."

"I'm sorry. I know you're not that type of guy. Your Ross," she said giving him a smile. "And I'm sorry for implying that you would ever do something like that."

"So do you forgive me for lying?" He looked at her with desperation and smiled when she nodded.

"I forgive you."

"Do you trust me?" She shook her head and he studied her closely. "Why not?"

"Because I'm afraid I'm going to wake up and you'll be gone and I'll be all alone again. Just like before," she answered in a quiet voice.

"I won't leave you."

But what if you do?

"Rachel you have to trust me when I say I won't leave. You said you forgave me for not telling you I was going back to London. I made a mistake, but I promise it won't happen again."

"Just promise that if you leave you'll come back."

"I promise I'll come back." He opened his arms for her as she waddled to him and held on to her and kissed her forehead as she cried into his chest.

"I love you so don't lie to me okay?"

"I promise I won't. I love you," he whispered as she watched as he leaned in to kiss her, but she did not hesitate. Instead she just close her eyes and let nature take its course.

"I love you… whoa," she yelled. He looked at her shock at the sudden outburst and saw that a hand was on her stomach.

"Honey what happened? Is it the baby? Is she…"

"She's kicking," Rachel said quietly, but with a smile. Ross moved his hand to hers and remained silent as they waited for another kick and both jumped when the felt it, confirming that their daughter was indeed alert

"Wow." He looked to a now beaming Rachel with the goofiest smile on his face before he leaned in to kiss her once again. She watched as he kneeled down and began to kiss her tummy.

"Hi baby we can't wait to see you." When she began to kick again they both started laughing.

"She must know that her daddy is near."

"I guess so."