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Chapter six - Remembrance

I did not take her hand. I sat up and looked around the room; I recognised it from somewhere. The southern wall was made up of glass and I could see out into the forest. The walls and carpet were gold in colour, the north wall was covered in masses of CD's, and there was an expensive looking CD player. I swung my legs of off the bed I way lying on and sat up. I walked over to the glass window and looked out into the forest. Why was this place so familiar to me?

"Where am I?" I asked. Rosalie came and stood beside me and I could see that she was not going to attack me. I could here the highway from where I was, so I knew that I was still in Forks or near Forks at least.

"We are in Forks forest, you are at my home Bella, and my family is downstairs." She answered, when I heard the word family I laughed. Vampires were covens; they existed for one reason and one reason only, power. I had seen my fair share of power hungry vampires; I did not need to again. She looked at me curiously when I began to laugh.

"Don't you mean cavern?" I whispered.

"No I mean family; there are seven of us in total. Bella are you sure that you do not remember us? You were once apart of this family too and we think of you still as a family member." She had walked over to the bed to sit down during her talk.

I was absorbed in her words that I did not here as more people joined the room, if I had been a part of her family, and then I would remember surely, unless she was referring to when I was human. I went into the pocket of my black skinny jeans to retrieve the note that I had woken up with. Who was 'V'? And if they knew me when I was human, then why had they not been there when I had been turned. The letter warned me that I would not want to know about my human life. But why? The only thing worse than knowing, is not knowing.

"Let's say I believe you, why did you think I was dead? And why can I not remember?" I whispered.

I sat on the floor and leant against the glass. The others sat around me. I looked into the one with golden, coppery brown hair. He took my breath away every time I looked at him, he was undeniably beautiful, and they all were including Jasper, with his many scars. I felt ashamed of being in their presence, they were civilised and pure and I was just dirty and unclean.

Edward came towards me and sat in front of me, he reached out to hold my hand. I did not pull away as I normally would; when our skin met, an electrical current seemed to flow though me. I wanted to pull away but at the same time, I did not want too.

"This is yours, your Mum gave it too you on your eighteenth birthday," he whispered to me.

He passed me a photo album. It was plain and simple, but it looked like it was more than a few years old. I opened the album and saw the first picture, it was one of Edward, and it looked like he was standing in a kitchen. Underneath the picture I saw my handwriting, a lot more messed up and scrawled than normal, I must have only been a human. I turned the page and saw myself standing beside Edward. I was very clearly a human, my eyes were chocolate brown and I looked very pale even for a human, my cheeks were a deep shade of red. And I just stared at the page.

"Oh"…

They say a picture say is worth a thousand words. Well that is not true. They say millions. As I stared at the photo, my handwriting. Me. I remembered everything. The photo book fell from my hands and I shot up I was standing on my feet in less than a mille second. It felt like I could fall through the floor. And god knows I wanted to. I remembered those words; those words that have helped ruin me. 'Goodbye'.

I took the note and reread it one more time, whoever had wrote this was right, I would rather have not remembered. "She was right," I whispered to myself. Edward could see that I had remembered everything and that I was sad and angry.

"Bella?" He spoke and made a move to touch me. I pulled back and slapped him around the face, with nowhere near enough force to actually hurt him. I loved him. I always had even when I could not remember, there was still a gaping hole in my chest that would not leave.

"Don't you dare touch me! How dare you!" I yelled. I was furious, I may love him; but he had still hurt me. He looked surprised by my outburst. The whole family did, but I could not seem to bring myself too stop. "You left me! All alone! All of you. You are liars. I'm apart of this family; sure!" I yelled some more, referring to what Rosalie had said too me.

"Bella, it hurt me more than you will ever know to actually get up and leave. It felt like my whole world was collapsing around me. I left to protect you. I didn't want you to have this life," he pleaded. "I thought you would be safe, I didn't think Victoria would go after you." I had turned away from him during his rant.

"I love you, I always have. What I said was a lie. I want you as I always have. When I thought you were dead I almost died as well." He whispered and his voice sounded so broken that I turned to look him in the eyes.

I could tell he was sorry, but that did not change a thing. I was a whore now, unclean and impure. If I was not good enough then, I was certainly not good enough now. Before I could stop myself, I thought of everything that I had done. I was a whore…

(EDWARDS POINT OF VEIW)

"I know you're sorry and I'm sorry too, but that doesn't change a thing." She whispered.

With those words, it felt like the world was ending. Carlisle and the others left the room.

'Sorry man, I know this is hurting you, but she needs your help. She's heartbroken.' Jasper thought.

'Everything will work itself out Edward, remember I've foreseen it.' Alice said in a smug voice, while humming a tune in her head to block me from her thoughts.

'She needs you Edward; she will push you away though.' Rosalie thought sadly.

'I hope she will forgive us,' Esme thought faintly.

'Stay calm son, do not lose you temper,' Carlisle though.

I still could not read Bella's thoughts; she still had me blocked out completely. What I would give to be able to know what she was thinking.

"Bella, I love you and I always will, I don't care what has happened to you. And you don't need to tell me either, I will wait." I walked toward Bella and went to wrap me arms around her. As I was walking, she retreated.

"Please don't touch me, I'm dirty", she whispered. "But I will tell you all what happened to me, so you will build up the courage to leave me again. That way you will be safe, I'm dangerous you see."

I took her in my arms and held her tightly. My heart soared and I could feel the electrical current run through us. "I am not going anywhere, love." I whispered.

I hope you like it, the next chapter will explain everything. What happened when the Cullens left Bella, how Victoria got hold off Bella, and how long she had her before Bella was changed. And what happened afterwards. Please review this chapter! Thanks.

!Thanks as well to my beta Annika Malfoy!