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Chapter seven – Sucker love

Edward and I went down stairs. The rest of the family, having heard our conversation, had already convened there. They had crowded around the white couches in the living room. Jasper and Alice were nestled together on the floor. Esme was sitting on the armchair next to the couch with Carlisle standing behind her. Rosalie and Emmett were standing by the glass windows, keeping their distance.

I took deep unnecessary breath in an attempt to calm myself. I was incredibly scared of what their reactions to my story would be. Edward held my hand and rub soothing circles on the back of it. I allowed him to do this, even though, I knew every touch we shared would break me when he left again.

I had simultaneously forgiven them all, for leaving me, when I was still human. They were not responsible for anything that had happened to me since. The blame was my own.

"Before I begin, I need you too know something. My story is not nice and I have done many horrible things. I am not sweet and innocent anymore, but the truth is: I don't think I ever was." I took another deep breath and closed my eyes. I tried to go back to the beginning; to where it all began. I decided I would only tell them the outline, without going into details.

"When you said goodbye to me on the forest floor, Edward, I was not ready for it to be over. I loved you and when you left it felt as if my whole existence had gone. You took my heart with you and I have only really just got it back." I whispered. "I tried to follow you, I ran through the forest screaming for you, sobbing my heart out. It was night time before I stopped running. I had lost my footing, as I could not see the forest floor, and fell. I landed in a puddle and began to pound the forest floor. As I said, I lost a part of me that night, a piece of me died. I found it hard to even breathe." I looked around; everyone looked guilty, but Edward looked the worst. I decided to focus on the floor. I knew that everything was going to go downhill soon.

"I was lost for two weeks and when I eventually made it too the main road, I just collapsed. A nice woman found me and drove me too the hospital. I never did get her name." I paused for a second and took a deep breath. "When I eventually got discharged, time just sort of continued without me. I was left behind. I went to school, came home, did my homework and tried to sleep. I began to slowly loose my appetite. Charlie's" my throat burned as I said his name "behaviour towards me began to change. It seemed the more withdrawn I became, the more drawn towards me he became."

"I felt like a zombie most of the time. I sat by myself at school. I did not talk to anyone and did not listen to anything that was going on around me. Five months of that behaviour cost me everything, Renee said she wanted me too get help and until I did she did not want to have contact with me. She said that she found it too hard too watch her baby girl lose herself. By the time, she said that it was too late; Charlie had taken our father/ daughter relationship to a different level. I will not go into the details but he began to abuse me in every way imaginable. This carried on up to the week before my 19th birthday. When I could not take it anymore, I ran away; into the forest. That was where Victoria found me. I had already been broken she saw that. She made the decision to change me as it proved a much greater revenge for her. She roughed me up first and that must have been why, when I woke up, I had no human memories. She left me a note which I woke up with."

I looked at Esme and saw that she had a horrified expression on her face, and I saw that everyones' emotions were beginning to be too much for Jasper. Rosalie had left the room when I told them about Charlie. Emmett had gone with her.

"She must hate me more no." I thought to myself.

I had decided that what happened with Riley would be kept secret from them. What he did to me was worse than Charlie or Victoria.

"When I woke up, I was caught by someone called Corin," I lied "He said that he was looking for a new fighter for his army and that I would be perfect. I fought in a few southern wars, before I escaped. I learned how to feed on animal blood and then I began to roam around going from school to school. Fifty years later you found me." I whispered. I had never been very good at lying and I hoped that that had changed.

Esme came and gave me a hug. And, for the first time in so long, I felt like I belonged somewhere. But I also realized that I had become thirsty during my speech and spoke,

"Listen, I need to go hunting. You're welcome to come with me if you'd like."

Jasper jumped up,

"I'll come Bella, and I need to talk to you."

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