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Chapter eight – I choose too use

As Jasper and I left the house, I was incredibly nervous. We had not spoken since I was human at my birthday meal, when he nearly killed me. The scars on his body told me that he was a skilled fighter, this knowledge didn't help my nervousness. And, thanks to his gift, he may have been able to tell that I had lied to them all.

The second we entered the edge of the forest, I took of running with Jasper behind me. I was painfully aware of my senses, turning your back on a vampire was not in our nature. It took a great deal of trust.

"Bella?" Jasper spoke behind me.

I immediately stopped and turned to face him. He was looking at me in a strange sort of way. It looked almost calculating.

"Stop me, if you can." He whispered.

Before I could do anything he had leapt over me and prepared to attack me. I had never been taught self-defense, as a human or a vampire, so before I could move an inch, he had his arms around me.

I could not help the involuntary scream that escaped my lips, as I was once again vulnerable. The second the sound escaped my lips, Jasper immediately let go of me and came around too face me. I backed away from him and found myself backing into a tree.

"Why lie Bella?" he asked in a frustrated voice.

I could not make sense of those words. He had just tried to attack me.

"What?" I breathed out.

"If you were involved in and lived through any southern wars, you would have been able to stop me. I attacked you at a snail's pace. Tip ,if you want to make up a lie, make up one that can be believable." He spoke, sitting down on a log.

I took a deep breath and went to join him. As I sat down, I began to feel less anxious.

"Relax Bella. If I really wanted to hurt you, I would have done so already." He whispered.

"I didn't lie Jasper. I just haven't fought in a long time."

"Don't lie Bella. Not only is your story unbelievable but your emotions are too. Why lie?"

I knew he had caught me and I would have to eventually tell them the truth. I owed it to them.

"I didn't have a choice. You will all come to hate me in the end." I spoke softly feeling like I was going to fall apart at the seams. I held on though.

"Let me tell you something of hate, Bella. I know hate. I was raised in it. I had a different upbringing to the other Cullens. As you may be aware I am a trained killer, a vampire called Maria turned me. Maria made me live my life fuelled with hate and greed. I did not know any better, until I met Alice. She saved me from myself. She saw me coming, of cause. We could never hate you, Bella. Regardless of what you have done or what you think you've done."

"Your bites, though on your neck, are different to mine. Mine were inflicted for power and hate. Yours however have a different meaning behind them. There was talk in the southern wars that women were weaker than males. I do not believe this, but others did. Some went as far as to make a newborn females their 'pets' as they put it," when he said the word, I could not help sharp exhale of air and the look of shock on my face. When Jasper heard it, he turned towards me with a look of terror in his eyes. "Who did it, Bella?" he whispered.

I rejected his words immediately, he could not possibly know about Riley. I had not let it slip or anything. I stood up and walked away from him.

"Your wrong, Jasper. You do not know anything."

"Don't I, Bella?" he replied, as I began to run from him. I ran as fast as I could and I did not look back.

RPOV

As I stood by the window and listened to Bella's story, I began to see red. When she spoke of what Charlie had started doing to her, I mean her own father! For Christ's sake!

I could not take much more of what she was saying. Emmett sensed my pain immediately and took hold of my hand. We quietly left the room and went deep into the forest. I punched a tree and Emmett stood back letting me vent out my anger. He always knew what too do. When the anger had gone, the pain followed, along with sadness.

I was in pain, remembering how it had hurt me, short term and long term. How much more it would have hurt Bella having her own father do that too her. To take her virtue, to violate her, rape her, however you want to put it, the effect is the same. But not once, repeatedly.

I had sunk to the floor and Emmett had grabbed me before I could fall completely. I hugged him and sobbed into his chest for the longest time.

After a while, I realized that the family including Bella, needed me. I had managed to take control of this pain before. I would do it again.

As we headed back to the house, I heard Jasper speaking.

"Some went as far as to make newborn females their 'pets' as they put it. Who did it, Bella?" he asked.

I had heard the term loosely in the vampire world. Vampires having pets only happened in the darkest places for our kind. Near the south. I realized that Bella had lied.

As I heard her run from Jasper I began too follow her, Emmett stayed behind. I was determined to help her and save her from whatever had been done to her.

As I followed her scent, I remembered how lost I had been, how I had pushed everyone else away. Until someone reached, out and saved me.

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