More Addek angst. I don't take that much pleasure from putting Addison through Hell, I swear. Besides, it's been...enough since the last one.
Family
She's not going home for Thanksgiving this year, and it's more upsetting than she prefers.
Going home would be saying that she's given up on Derek, that she's failed. That she loves Mark, who she doesn't.
Going home would mean letting Meredith win, even if it's not a competition (and even if it is, Meredith would be winning.)
Going home would mean crying into her mother's lap, pretending that the awkward words of consolation will be enough, twenty-five years after Addison graduated from this form of comfort. They used to be enough.
But she can't go home again.
Reference: The book, You Can't Go Home Again by Thomas Wolfe, is all about the loss of the feeling of having a hometown to go back to when life...sucks.