A/N: Here's chapter 4! Woo, I uploaded 2 in one day. Well, I uploaded chapter 3 at like 1 am Haha
You know that feeling like you're on cloud nine? It's sort of what I'm feeling right now, and I'm scared. I feel like I'm going to tell Jade I like her... Again. I honestly don't know why it's hard for me to even think about talking to her, I mean, it's supposed to be as easy as talking to Tori. Right? But then again, I dint feel the same way I do about Jade. Jade just drives me crazy, and it's safe to say that I'm not over her, which makes trying to be friends with her difficult to me.
Apparently it's now or never, because she's getting up from her seat and about to walk past me like I don't exist to her. I'm wondering why I'm even doing this at all, it might make things even more worse and complicated if that's even possible. I'm lucky though, she stops just before walking past me to talk to Robbie, which means I'm safe for now. I mean, if what Tori said was true, she would want to be friends at least. But then again, all of the doubt is creeping up on me. What if she doesn't want to... Be friends? What do I do then?
She's done talking to Robbie and picks up her bag. "Jade," I say, it feels kind of good to actually be able to say her name again. "I really need to talk to you." Crap! What did I just say? Am I really going to do this?
"And why should I?" she says coldly, her eyes refusing to meet mine. "Besides, I have more important places to be"
"Because I'm asking you." I say honestly.
She's still not looking at me, and it seems like she wants to say something but she doesn't. Instead she grabs my wrist and almost yanks me into the janitor's closet. By this time, I think my heart is beating so fast, I'm afraid she can hear it. She then let's go and closes the door behind us. "Hurry up and say what you wanted to, I really don't have time for this." she says a little louder than a whisper.
I have so much to say, and it all comes down to this, it could really make or break us. "I'm tired... I'm tired of what's been going on between us. It hurts, more than you know." I begin, not looking at her. "It's really-"
"Look Cat, as much as I'd love to talk about this, I can't." she pauses "I need time, and trying to deal with this right now is too much" by this time, she's already gathering up her things. "Please, you're making this worse." She then opened the door and left, leaving me alone again.
I feel my knees weaken, and I realize I'm on the floor, crying for obvious reasons. I realize how broken I really am, I'm not a happy as people see me, and it's hard to finally see it. I then pick myself up, wipe my eyes, and walk out of the janitor's closet.
I get several greetings from people as I make my way to my locker. Some people I don't even know. Nevertheless, I say hi anyway in a somewhat cheerful tone. I make it to my locker, and I feel the need to talk to someone. Since school is over, I think I'll go see Tori.
I find myself practically running to her house, and when I get there, I'm greeted by Mrs. Vega, who then let's me into the house. I end up knocking on Tori's bedroom door where a confused looking Tori opens the door. "Cat?" she says completely flabbergasted.
"Hi." I say as nonchalantly as possible.
"Why are you here?"
I looked at her and said "I talked to her..." I continued to tell her what had happened between Jade and I earlier. I found myself telling her what Jade had said, and how felt about it.
"Wow." she said "She really said that?" Sounding normal, as if she was expecting this.
"Yeah..." I said, trailing off.
"Cat, don't worry. I'm going to talk to her."
A/N: Yay, chapter 4 is officially done! onto chapter 5.
I want to thank those people who take the time to read this stuff, you guys rock! I love you all.
With that said, could you guys review? Please Let me know what you guys think?
P.S. Did you people watch the new Victorious special? How could anyone not see the spark when Jade and Cat were singing? I know I saw it. Haha.
Update: fixed some errors.