I actually wrote this the same night that I uploaded chapter 5 cause I was so excited

Disclaimer: I own nothing but the story and my bubbling thoughts

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Demi's POV

I was in my mother's car and she was driving me to therapy, this was another reason why I had started hating Selena, she was the reason my parents got me a shrink for my 'depression'. After Selena and I had lost contact with each other I had started doing some pretty extreme things to forget the pain, cutting myself for instance. My parents had found me one night when I had overdid it a bit and I had to get stitches on my left wrist and then followed by a therapist who I went to twice a week, Sundays and Wednesdays. My mother was blabbing about something and I wasn't really listening because I had my iPod in and on full blast. When we got to the usual building my mom asked if I wanted her to walk me in but I declined and she told me she'd pick me up at four. Two hours with Dr. Roads isn't that bad because she's a cool chick and everything but I hate it when she tries to probe my mind to understand me, the only person who can understand me is the reason I even see her twice a week. The receptionist at the front desk welcomed me with a bright smile.

"Hey Demi, Stephanie's waiting for you" she said and that's Dr. Roads' name.

"Thanks Martha" I mumbled and I walked toward the elevator and pushed the button that had a number 8 emblazoned on it.

I had been coming here since I was thirteen so everyone knew me and I had gotten used to people saying hey and calling me by my name and everything. When I got to Dr. Roads' office I knocked and she said come in. I opened the door and Dr. Roads was sitting behind her desk and she looked up from her writing and smiled warmly when she saw me.

"Hey Demi, take a seat" she said and I nodded and sat down and I still had my iPod earphones on.

"What you listening to"? Dr. Roads asked as she pulled up a seat closer to me.

"Your Betrayal by Bullet For My Valentine" I said in a monotone voice and she nodded.

"Still those kinds of songs huh"? She asked and I shrugged.

"The drummer is insane" I said and she nodded we continued.

"Okay now how have you been since our last visit"? Dr. Roads asked.

"Fine I guess, nothing special" I said and she nodded.

"So anything you want to get off your chest"? She asked and I looked at her and then my hands.

"I'm talking to Selena again" I said and Dr. Roads seemed surprised.

"Really, well that's great" she said and I nodded slightly.

"Yeah I mean we're not fully reconciled but we're getting there" I said and Dr. Roads smiled.

"How does it feel to have your friend back"? She asked and I looked at her.

"I don't have a friend back and I don't want her back as a friend" I said and Dr. Roads sighed.

"Does she know how you feel"? She asked simply.

"Of course not and I intend to keep it that way" I said and Dr. Roads looked confused now.

"But why, what if she likes you"? She asked and I scoffed.

"I don't care if she handed me a strap on and bent over backwards and told me to fuck her, it's not happening" I said and Dr. Roads even blushed from my comment.

"Well why not"? She asked as she cleared her throat.

"Because I am not giving into her, I suffered for six years and she's just supposed to get the easy way out"? I demanded.

"So you're going to make her suffer"? Dr. Roads asked and I crossed my arms.

"It's only fair" I said and I knew that it was although my heart was calling me a bitch and an ungrateful brat right now.

"Do you love her"? Dr. Roads asked and the question caught me off guard.

"Who cares" I said and she sighed.

"Maybe she's sorry" Dr. Roads said and I shook my head.

"She's not, she doesn't even know what she did" I said and Dr. Roads sighed.

"Just forgive her Demi, it'll make you both happier" she said and I just lost it, I snapped.

"I AM NOT GOING TO FORGIVE THE GIRL WHO RAN OFF TO TENNESSEE AND FORGOT ME FOR A WHOLE SUMMER" I yelled and I was on my feet now but Dr. Roads kept that composed face.

"Are you sure she forget you"? She asked lightly.

"Of course she did, no phone calls, no texts, not even a letter saying that she was thinking of me" I said and I wasn't yelling anymore, I was mentally tired.

"So to get back at her for ignoring you for a summer you ignored her for six years" Dr. Roads said and I huffed and I was still on my feet.

"Payback's a bitch huh"? I said and Dr. Roads sighed and I sat back down.

"You have to be feeling something Demi, whether it be remorse or even guilt" she said and I looked at her and suddenly tears slipped from my eyes.

"I am guilty and remorseful and disgusted with myself" I admitted and Dr. Roads rubbed my shoulders.

"Why"? She asked, she was probing again but I didn't care.

"Because I pushed her away and now she thinks I hate her guts when I actually love everything about her, even when she gets all clumsy and trips over her own two feet" I said and I was sobbing and my body was shaking uncontrollably.

"I'm sure Selena would understand" Dr. Roads said and I shook my head.

"I deserve for her to hate my existence, I mean you don't wanna know some of the things I did to her" I said and my voice was shaking.

"What did you do"? Dr. Roads asked lightly.

"One time last year this girl was saying that she was going to ask Selena out on a date and I told her that Selena wasn't all that…clean" I said and Dr. Roads didn't press the issue of what I meant.

"But I stopped the rumor, I spread the word that if anyone talked about it I would get Joe and his football buddies to kick their asses and Selena never found out" I said and Dr. Roads was excited about me opening up.

"You protect her without her knowing"? She asked and I nodded.

"One time in sophomore year the cheerleaders were planning on throwing a party and inviting Selena to it just to embarrass her in front of the school but I basically threatened them to stop" I choked out.

"So basically you've always been keeping a watching eye on her" Dr. Roads said and I nodded.

"I wouldn't want Selly to get hurt, I mean it's bad enough that I take my fury out on her but for others to do it is unacceptable" I said and Dr. Roads nodded and I sniffled.

Dr. Roads' POV

Demi has never opened up so much, the only other time I got this remotely close to her heart was two years ago when she ranted about how cute Selena looked during a Gym class. But here she was, probably my toughest patient in my career, opening up about this Selena Russo. I mean the girl must be something special for Demi to get so upset over a summer of non communication but then to still look after her for six years without her knowing. I had seen pictures of Demi before she and Selena had stopped being friends and Demi had always wore brighter colors and she was always smiling, most of the pictures themselves had Selena in them. I knew that there was this one picture that Demi always carried with her and it was inside this small locket that she always wore around her neck. She had confided in me that the picture was of her and Selena when they were only seven and they were riding ponies together. Right now I was watching Demi as she drunk her apple juice and read a book, I usually gave her a bit of alone time where she could just do anything she wanted while waiting for her appointment to end. Demi had cleaned up her face but it was still a bit evident that she had been crying her eyes out a few minutes ago. Demi was a very tough patient to get through to because she was stubborn and very protective. Young women usually had walls around their hearts but Demi's heart was locked behind concrete walls, electric fences, and guarded by snarling Pittbulls. It was evident that she was head over heels in love with Selena and if I could just talk to this girl than maybe we could work together and get Demi the right treatment. I knew that Demi would never allow me to talk with Selena but I had to try, it was in her best interest. As I watched Demi turn a page of her book my mind was made up.

I have to find Selena Russo and ask her why she had ignored Demi for that summer and mend all of this heartbreak and pain.

A/N: I loved writing this chapter and I hope you guys liked it, I wanted Dr. Roads to kind of be like a cupid in disguise and I guess she's going to be