CPOV
After practice was over I was walking back to the boys dorms. I saw Lissa sitting on one of the benches crying . She looked up and saw me "oh christian im so so so so so sorry . I never wanted to kiss him , I was drunk I didn't know what I was thinking when I did that . Im really sorry please can you forgive me ?"
I listened to her and thought about what she was saying for a miniute. "you kno what . If I forgave you , you would probably just go and get drunk again with Avery right after and probably cheat on me again with another dude. God why did rose have to leave. Ever since she left you've been acting totally different . Your not yourself anymore without her here . You used to be nice and sweet now look what happened. Why did you have to do this to us? I thought you loved me but I guess being with avery is much better than your own boyfriend isn't is ? Well guess what it can be ex because I don't wanna deal with you cheating anymore . Once you stop hanging out with avery then we can talk but until then were through . So go get drunk and ignore that your best friend is probably in a whole lot of danger and you wont even be able to tell because your to busy getting wasted and making out with other guys . So just leave me alone and stay out of my site I never wanna see you again until you fix yourself ." god it felt so good to finally get that out of my system. I was just goin to walk away but I wanted to see what she would say . "you know what christian we can be through because if your gunna get this jealous over one little kiss then I don't think I can handle being with you anyways and why would I stop hanging out with avery just because you want me to? So you know what im happy were over now I wont have to worry about you getting jealous whenever im with a guy . Oh and avery is a great friend shes here for me now since rose so obviously is not . And Rose is a big girl and she made her choice . She wanted to leave and go on a crazy hunt for a guy who isn't even her boyfriend and she had sex with him when there not together anyways and hes probably gunna kill her considering hes a strigoi and shes a dhampir plus he was bad ass even when he was a dhampir so imagina how badass he is now . Rose has no chance of coming back and im not gunna have false hope for something so im just gunna stick with the one who actually helped me through everything saince rose has left me and that avery because you obviously arnt here for me because your to busy being jealous to even talk to me about things so im happy either way and im happy I can finally be free of you ." I was shocked and did she really just say that rose is gunna get killed? And that shes a whore . ? Wow I cant believe im actually about to stand up for rose . "you know what bitch you can just get over yourself . Rose is out there risking her life because she knows that Dimitri is probably gunna come looking for you since you're the last dragomir and I can believe you would talk so lowly of your best friend who has been there for you through everything up until now and she still is shes out there saving your ass by killing dimitri bc hes one of the only strigoi who knows where you are. He can kill you lissa and all you care about is rose leaving you , ? Really and I thought you were unselfish for the longest time but now I guess im seeing the real you huh? And we all know they loved each other so whats the problem with them having sex? We had sex and I don't believe you loved me espically after whats happened lately . I loved you . Did you love me back or did you just say that to get with me .? Your one of the only people ive trusted in a long time and you do this to me ? that's probably one of the most selfish things you've ever done. I cant believe you ? You have changed and definitely not for the best . How I could ever see what I liked inside you I have no clue espically if this is the real you . You need help lissa and a lot of it , get some help then I might be able to be around you again . Possibly . But if you still think that rose left you for herself then you better check yourself bc I know you don't think that . That avery getting to you . You always do what avery wants you to do and you believe anything she says what happened to listening to yourself I know you feel that what your doing is wrong and that somethings up with avery believe that feeling and you might find a way to get away from her before you hurt more people who love you . Goodbye lissa I will miss you and remember I loved you I never lied when I said that and I believe you can get out of this but only if you believe that what im saying is the truth ." and with that I walked away from lissa